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Post by dkushner on Mar 4, 2012 10:07:22 GMT -5
Now what!! BACKGROUND: I've had Morg for 8 years. When I got morg, I also got bacterial and parsitic infections that were horrifying. On one spot close to my left wrist, a large buldge developed (eight years ago). It lasted 3 months at which time 1/2 dozen or so large parasites (some kind of worms) suddenly raced about under my skin for about 1/2 minute. A freind witnessed this and some of the other symptoms as well. I tried for about 3 years to get medical help but never got. My doctors DOP diagnosis (only 3 weeks into the nightmare) and his phone calls to the next couple of doctors that I tried to get help from ensured that they would not take it seriously, run tests or help me. Even when the symptoms became visible to the nakid eye and I had worms visible in my ears, they would not even see me and then told me not to come back. I had worked for the prior 25 years but could no longer work after this for several years. I lost everything I owned. I am certain that the parasites could have been treated and that the treatment would have resulted with much less severe morg symptoms today. I managed to figure out what some of the parasites were and treated them and killed them myself for fear that they would kill me.
I gave up on doctors years ago. They will not help me. They will not look at the symptoms, run tests or even consider that what what I'm telling them might be true, even with clear photos of some of the material in my skin and even photos of worms in my ears. Even when I knew what test to ask for, still no help. This has runined my life. I have all sorts of health problems from this. Had I not finally figured out what some of the parasite infections actually were and treated them, I beleive I would either be dead now or severely disabled (which I am pretty close to now). That was 5 or six years ago and it DID kill most of the most frightening parasites. Some of these were trematode worms, I am certain, and they caused problems with my vision, coordination, balance, depth perception, and at times caused hallucinations and black-outs. I saw many different types of worms, some were large and some were tiny.
NOW: For the last several years, I have had some sudden brerakouts of sores but they go away after several weeks, sometimes months (and leave scars). There is one spot though, a large sore close to the same place near my writs where the buldge was 8 years ago. It never heals. It will look like it's healing and then it will get worse again under the skin andfinally break out on the surface. It remins under the skin. The parasites have been gone, or most of the large ones that were causing serious problems. I beleive I killed some of the most serious ones. I am certain that one of the many types was trematode due to having the exact symptoms listed. These are unique and obvious symptoms. There is no mistake and still the doctors I saw would not help me. The midication that I used was strong and is used for the whole family of parasites, so I beleive I killed many types in one shot! A doctor in this country would never prescribe a strong drug for this type of problem, rather they give you week meds because they do not beleive you because their training is poop! When you continue to report symptome (even after the candy they give you for meds), they label you DOP and you cannot get any help from any doctor afor anything even related to the real problems and they are thyen skeptical about everything you tell them and consider you a trouble maker, even in cases where, like mine, I am suffering miserably as it ruins my life and still manage to keep my voice doen and treat the doctor with respect. The ydo not deserve it. They deserve to suffer and die. This disease is likely GMO or bio-tech related and the only people that deserve to suffer from this and the DOCTORS that created it. Of corse doctors do not admit their mistakes, they would let all of us die rather than open the doo r to a lawsuit.
When these symptoms started, I had a 5 BR house, 2 cars, a harly, a retirment savings and good health. All of that is gone now and I have never received any medical help and the only tests I received were the same general stool test over and oven until I told the doctor that there were now eggs in my stool at which time the doctor refused to order any more tests. Something is very wrong here.
After three years of trying to get help, I finally bought medication from overseas and self-medicated. It worked right away and the most montorous of the parasites never came back. After the medication, there were no more eggs (previously I had hundreds of eggs in my stool for 5 days at a time every 3 months and bloos in every stool regardless of date), now, no more blood, or worms in my ears after that, though I still see tiny worms at times and see a lot of microscopic developing parasites and I have really bad morg.
Even when the sore appears to be healing, I can see that there is something wrong with the whole area about 3 or 4" in length and about 2" wide. The areas is red and very tough and hard. It itches and at times appears to develop infections of some sort. If I look at the surface of the skin with a microscope (at times) I can see tons of fibers, mostly tiny white, but also some blue and red and thousands of structures under the surface of the skin. I see huge numbers of individual shapes all in organized rows in the skin at times.
These individual developing parasites are usually encased in some sort of material. I see other things that look like larve. I have seen these things under he microscope from other areas on my body as well for years, and inhuge numbers though with the nakid eye, it just looks like. They are clearly visible under the microscope at 40x. They are alway in the same areas where I was infected with the parasites eight years ago. These areas are fingers and under fingernails, croth area, arms, ears.
The unique thing about this sore though is that it has lasted so many years. The other areas of infection look normal to the nakid eye (at times), but at times the symptoms errupt. This spot on my arm though, seems to be a larger infection. The sore never really goes away, and I know that the size of the clump under my skin is large and very compact. There must be millions of these things in that spot alone. I was thinking that if I could remove the material, then maybe the sore would finally heal and the infection in the other parts of my body might also begin to get better.
After seeing the material (after creating a big hole in the skin to reveal it), I am concerned that attempting to remove it might cause serious harm and bleeding. This material is extremely well rooted. I was shocked that it was so tough and when trying to yank a piece of it out many times could hear an almost metal sound. This stuff is not normal. There are many peculiar things about it. I might guess that that is why the CDC is lying about the problem. Maybe they are protecting the bio-tech indestry, or maybe they just do not know what to do so they continue to let us suffer and compound our problems even more by lying about it ensuring that we do not get help for the problems or the complications. I beleive we will not get medical help until we are on out death beds and then they will be waiting for us to die with their fingers crossed so we cannot tell anyone what the CDC and doctors have done.
After years and years of dealing with this and trying to get it to heal I finally got frustrated and started to dig at it. Apparently, there is a very large, hard layer of material under the skin. I tried to get some of it out but there are things that are very unatural about it. For instance. I can cut a hole in the skin and see the material but I cannot remove it, even if I am brutal trying to get it out. When I try to pry it out, it sounds like metal or something. It is unbeleivable hard material. This is not natuarl. I was able to get some of the material around it out and look at it. I was only able to get a very small amount of it due to it's thoughness. While trying to remove it, I could see large amounts of tiny (but visible w/nakid eye) worm-like shapes. Under the microscope I can see microscoping worm shapes with a head and dots for eyes each encased in some sort of container. They are as hard as rock, or mtal or something, very strange. There are strange shapes with no color, other than
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Post by toni on Mar 4, 2012 11:43:26 GMT -5
It's just terrible what you're going through, and Morgellons for all of us with CDC's latest publication, is beyond words.
(If) keratinization is happening (imho it is), maybe you can try using a product/cream with lactic acid in it daily. That helps "over time" to dissolve keratin buildup.
I bought "88%" pure lactic acid, but it must be mixed with another product first before applying it on the skin.
Products also with salicylic or gylcolics in them also can help.
They take time, and daily use though as they help dissolve and create an environment for the cells "get normalized again".
Here's what I mean by these products helping the skin's cells "normalize".
When cells become "irratic" from disease or injuries or from toxic chems or for many reasons, keratin production can be increased and inhanced, as the body is desperately trying to repair itself. Some "infections/diseases" can actually stimulate this production, which is called cellular proliferation, causing abnormal keratin expressions.
And keratin is hard as a rock. It's what helps us form callouses and fingernails. So whatever is causing this "excessive" keratin to be expressed, we don't know, or even if that's it, but....those products can help where it's happening on and in your skin with continous use.
They won't "rid" Morgellons, but they can help keep things under control. The only way to (rid) morgs, is for us to find out what is causing this to begin with, and no thanks to the folks at CDC or AFIP, so for now, we just do all we can to survive - which is a TOTAL CRIME that we are in this day and age, and on our own medically as we are.
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Post by dkushner on Mar 20, 2012 1:03:36 GMT -5
Thanks for the info. I have had this buldge for so many years now, and I noticed that my skin is extremely tough in many places, it's not natural. Under the microscope I can see that even my normal skin is NOT normal. Often times in certain areas where I have had infectiuon, I have a sudden burst of symptoms and see all kinds of unusual things, little rubbery tiny wormlike things in my skin (I could go on and on, but we all know there are hundreds of weird symptoms).
I finally did what any doctor would call CRAZY, and dug a big hole in my skin at the buldge. There is a very thick, extremely hard layer about the size of a silver dollar from what I can tell of extremely hard material, again, it's not natural, it's like stone, or metal or something, maybe corbon fiber, I have no idea.
The stuff will not come out. There is a ton of it deep under my skin in a thick hard layer. I managed to get a tiny bit of it out to look at but the bulk of it for some reason will not come out no matter how brutally I try to cut it out. I finally stopped and do have tiny samples, though I would not bother showing a doctor. It's really weird under the microscope. Yes, there are some fibers but hardly any campared to these other unusual shapes that make up the layer (of hard material). The shapes look alien, really. I'm not saying that they are, I'm just saying that they look really weird. They look like some kind of larve or something, but not like the life we normally see. They are hard as stone, and yet when I finally got some of it out, most of the material seemed to disappear with the fluid that came out. The fluid was red (blood), but at the same time it was extremely dark, almost black (blood that is compromised or mixed w/something else. It was also very sticky. Once I got the tiny pieces clean from the blood with whatever else made it blackish and sticky, then there was the solid material left.
The solid material looks like it it made of "zillions" of these tiny larve shapes in clusters that are as hard as stone while under the skin. Once out though, and without the fluid, they seem less tough, though still quite strong. Among the Larve shapes are some other shapes, like I said, some of them are weird looking, like a tiny microscopic alien or something, with a big head proportianally and two large holes where eyes would be and limbs. Before I started digging, I removed the big scab on top (I know it's gross), but it came off easily as though it were a covering. The surface of the sore was filed with fluid that if left alone turns into a crust resulting in the weird scab like the one I removed. It looks pretty normal to the nalkid eye, but again under the microscope, it's filled with fibers and clusters of large numbers of particualr shapes (kind of worm-like shapes).
Okay, back to the material under the skin: I know it's really weird but I'm convinced something IS GOING on and I do beleive that the powers that be know a whole lot more about what is going on then we do, and they have managed to spread a lot of disinformation creating a situation where no one in the medical profession will take it seriously. I would bet though that there are cases where a small number of doctors have seen enough to know that something serious and unusual is going on, but I think that doctors like many other conservative PHDs, will not talk about things such as this without having proof. The difficult part for us though, is that (at least in my case), when a doctor has been seeing me for some time and has dismissed my complaints and symptoms and so forth, that by the time they realize that something IS going on, they do not want to change their diagnosis, or even help with the condition, rather it's easier and safer for them to tell you that they cannot help you and maintain the original diagnosis's of DOP and whaterver else.
We are really stuck. I would even bet that the powers that be (GOV, CDC, etc) read our posts and also Morgellons literature. All we can really hope for is a whistle blower. Someone that has some idea about what is going on and why the situation is being manipulated allowing us to continue to suffer with the diseases, symptoms, suffering, fear with no support or medical assistence.
I can only think of a few scenarios where this might happen. I am not saying that any of these are true, only that something is going on and it's being covered up.
1) Bio-terrorism 2) genetic polution (GMO or genetic engineering) possibly resulting from careless practices or corruption (it's cheaper to throw bio-waste in a lake and keep the 200k that someone was paid to dispose of it properly). 3) mass poisoning from chemicals 4) Some kind of sick experiment, either deliberate or accidental and later becoming deliberate. 5) Alien invasion
Really, if someone reading this post has not had experiences like ours, you could not possibly understand the things that WE are living with. If I was reading this post and had never suffered from Morg, I would think the writer a real nutcase, so I don't blame you. In any case, peoples opinions do not change the facts. There is no "maybe it's delusions", maybe it's real. I live with this every day and it IS real.
But there is no eveidence you might say. Will that simply is not true. Most of us with severe Morgellons have sought help and in the beginning stages of the infection it's really often only obvious to the sufferer, a doctor would have to be really patient and very thourough to actually see what we are seeing. Then at other times it becomes very obvious for days, weeks or months, then often subsides again becoming less obvious. The problem is that the medical community has been mis-diagnosing this for so long, they do not do any scientific analysis, they make assumptions. They are also very aware of the general opinions about these cases with other doctors and I dot think they want to risk being called a crack-pot doctor giving any ot this a serious look. At the same time, they know there are no tests or medications available and no code to assign the condition other than DOP. So, basically, they just blame the patient and say we are crazy. How convcenient.
This is really terrible for more reasons than you think (if you do not have Morg). When I got Morg, I was also infected with many other pathogens at the same time but because of the DOP diagnosis, I could not get help for the plethora of other "know" infections that almost killed me and severely impacted my life.
That's another reason doctors do not want to help us, they risk liability when they make mistakes, so the powers that be (whoever they are), do not have a really big problem keeping the doctors in like, doctors, like most of us are, should I say cowardly.
Well, morgellons is either going to become worse among the general population until they (whoever they are) cannot hide it anymore (and the doctors, scientists, corporations, or whoever is responsible for this will be legally ready to lie their way out of responsibility), OR, if whatever mistake someone made has been cleaned up, then there will eventually be no more new cases and they (whover they are), will never have to admit that they made a mistake and caused a huge amount of suffereing.
Anyway, this is living!
- D
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Post by toni on Mar 20, 2012 10:25:56 GMT -5
Hi Dkushner, I sure agree with lots that you've said. There is a product I've been using lately and it's "helping". I'd purchased this a few years back, and forgot I had it. I was on this buying spree (still am) trying everything to keep things under control, so (morgs) doesn't control me. But, if I remember correctly it's not expensive, and it's got some goodies in it that break down keratin and dissolve it, which is why I'd bought it in the first place. It stings a tad, but not where it's unbearable by any means. And it really removes lots-just have to use it daily. The top part came out a bit blurry, it says: 10% Urea and 4% AHA (which is alpha hydroxy acid). It's specifically for keratin removal.
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Post by toni on Mar 20, 2012 10:36:06 GMT -5
Now the reason for (that cream pictured above is) Hyperkeratosis keratos - keratin) is thickening of the stratum corneum, often associated with a qualitative abnormality of the keratin, and also usually accompanied by an increase also in the granular layer. As the corneum layer normally varies greatly in thickness in different sites, some experience is needed to assess minor degrees of hyperkeratosis. It can be caused by vitamin A deficiency or chronic exposure to arsenic. It can be treated with urea-containing creams, which dissolve the intercellular matrix of the cells of the stratum corneum, promoting desquamation of scaly skin, eventually resulting in softening of hyperkeratotic areas.en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperkeratosis*maybe this can help* I hope so.
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Post by toni on Mar 20, 2012 10:42:12 GMT -5
Just found where I'd bought it, if anyone is interested. AllegroMedical which is where I buy lots of goodies from for years now. It's just under 11 bucks for a plump tube of it. www.allegromedical.com//skin-care-c535/atrac-tain-moisturizing-cream-tube-5-oz-p172983.html?engine=shopzilla&utm_source=shopzilla&utm_medium=feed&CS_003=9076286&CS_010=8ab281020bb66dff010bb670dee640f5&gdftrk=gdfV21244_a_7c477_a_7c1424_a_7c172983Something else I want to mention about in using this cream. I've now been using it faithfully for almost a week now on my face, and out of my pores comes so many little white things, the shapes of "tad poles" if you know what I mean. TONS of them come out. Also my face is peeling like I'd had a sunburn, and it's really nice because I feel like excess biofilm of the matrix that makes up keratin is all shedding off too. It's not like I'm a peeling onion, but, after my showers the dead extra skin is just rolling off with my fingers rubbing my face gently. Then after my skin dries, all these tiny little white tad pole shaped things come up out of the pores and stick out, ready to wipe off too. It's impressive, which is why I wanted to "be sure" it worked before I posted it, and because it's "impressive" where it makes a difference, I'm sharing it.
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