Post by Baraka Obam on Jun 30, 2015 10:44:52 GMT -5
This disease was not new when I caught it,
There was one thing quite clear to me, NOBODY was afflicted around me with the itching I had, if so they would look like me, a 18 year old man ready to die from lack of any sleep from months of torture from the itching .
The funny thing, I did itch in the daytime, but it paled compared to when I laid down at night, within seconds itching, the itching was so intense thatI knew life was not worth living in this state .
This was nothing less than torture, torture from that had invaded my body, why am I the only one, one thing that could have sullied my results of watching at that time, I was surrounded by men and quite literally, we know from our numbers women are more affected, OR women are just more aware and caring of itching aspects.
The other fact, this massive itching at the moment of lying down but literally almost nothing when standing up, how could this be, it started way to quickly for a herd of insects to come running to eat me and anyway you could NEVER see anything where the stinging, biting, itching would be.
The itching (at one point) congregated inside the outer ear canal, itching so bad it was like poison Ivy and red ants combined.
I would be ok, it would go away, it had to or I would certainly be driven mad.
Still I wondered, how could I be the only one, itching subsided but never went away, problems persited , why did issues come and go so often.
Early on I noticed several other things, skin problems, rash, white dots, red dots, my hair became dry and frizzy, problems in my mouth, sores, tiny white dots on tip of tongue that hurt, red dots on the tongue, white plawue on tongue, so many things I forget the half of them and this was just for starts.
My life was plagued by so many other items of illness to come and go, return with a vengeance, leave for long periods, stay for long periods, get worse, what the hell.
How many doctors do I have to see before one says the same thing as the other and gives me a pill that saves me.
The only reverberating bullshit these dumb as money grubbers could come up with, I WAS GETTING OLDER, I WAS UNDER STRESS, I WAS ALLERGIC. well you lackluster bunch of retards, babies are getting older from the day they are born, and I was just perfectly fine until I enjoyed a trip to one of our militarys finest citys of prostitution where disease is rampant, do you imagine possibly there could have been a contraction of disease that literally changed my life FOREVER and put me into a downward spiral.
Well how probable would that be, let me see, as probable as millions of the soldiers coming down with STDs spread in this same exact way.
No no your just getting older, and that severe itching that could just be a sign of mental illness, you see, the people in mental institutions itch so, you must have caught mental illness from the stress of being 18 and being in perfect health you must have been feeling guilty because you were drinking and parting up a storm with beautiful women galore.
Oh doctor thank you very much for your observation, yes it must be my Catholic upbringing that has made me insane about having, off the chain, young mans dream come true paradise on earth.
That's it, I am a insane 18 Catholic year old that never had a issue before beautiful, slender exotic, young women in droves were destroying my Christian beliefs. RIGHT.
Maybe dotor I am a Cathoholic, yeah, sickness from worry that I am going to hell for having too much fun, wow, I am so glad doctors of the body are also keen on the mental condition of young men.
How funny, god chose me, I am like Job in the bible, he made me so excellent, my body was so fit, I was first in the company of 200 men in the physical competition for a 3 day pass, imagine a short man winning all around physical test BEFORE THIS DISEASE. That means I had to do well in the running with men that are well over 6 feet tall along with all the other tests. Situps and pushups was my thing, they could never beat me in those things as well as anything to do with dexterity, it was the running that was the killer.
Still no smoking and did the mile in a little over seven minutes, with a little help from a tall older man that figured if he could slow my little arse down we could do the same pace and inspire each other, but he started to talk and that made me lose concentration, I had to lose him and poured on the steam, he tried to keep up and was wearing me thin but finally he died, LOL Thank god he had my ire.
NOT AFTER CATCHING THIS, and catch it I did, it was not a mental illness or worry, I was never worried, my personality does not allow worry, do or die is more like it.
You see, I have made my peace with death, its coming for everyone, it comes for kings and queens, it comes for presidents and dictasters, it comes for every tiny baby not yet born, the answer to your fear of death, get over yourself, the world will not stop turning the moment your gone. You only have a few days, a few years, or a hundred years, but when that time is up, its just like the bible says baby, dust to dust and hopefully this horrid malady dies with you.
The only wish I have, there is something good comes of it, such as, I caught this, did it mutate my genome before I had a child, if it did adapt my makeup, will my child be more able to adjust to its affects, will her child be more able to resist the coming onslaught, will the pathogen make us better to resist all biological aspects of disease in time from the beating it gives our system, will our processes and it become symbiotic.. That is interesting to me, will the fact that all Americans will be subjected to this disease make us a stronger civilization in time.
Anyway. when I came home I watched for the itching disease to spread, I AM YOUR HISTORY, and you can believe I never fell down on the job, I WATCHED AND LISTEND EVERY DAY for the results of a disease I knew that only one person in a sex playground would be able to catch this, if I caught it others also had, but why didn't they express its results.
We all know that answer, don't act stupid, we express this disease in different ways, maybe its the result of what other disease we have.
Some would think THEY ARE PURE HUMANS, well I hate to break the news to you PURE HUMAN, your arse is full of unexpressed bacterial and virus, and that may even keep you better than the next guy, we do not know exactly.
If you have lesions I suspect HERPES, if you have CHERRY ANGIOMAS, I suspect HERPES, then in your simple mind I say the disease we suffer is HERPES, no simple mind did I say that.
What I am suggesting is that, if you have the HERPES virus in your body this malady for some reason will allow it to flourish beyond what it would have or in less time, got it.
RETURN to the country of infection, yes go back, when I went to the dermatology office in the military, OH MY GOD, It looked like they were handing out FREE MONEYthere are near 60 men in here, how long is this going to take was my first thought and I am not alone. .
Maybe I should come another day, that idea was running through my head when a man started to scream, his voice resounded a horror I had not heard before, it wa a sound heard only in movies of terror, he was yelling what is this, the doctor said, we do not know, I CAN NEVER GO HOME LIKE THIS , he stepped into the waiting room, he was covered with these lesions, he was worse off than anyone in that room, a horror story, one that I would come to find out 30 some years later, why did it affect him so soon.
I said to the man next to me, holy sheet I am glad I am not him, but I was him, he was me and you are me, and we are all together.
Holly disease symptom batman did the Beatles know too??? LOL
Why did the disease destroy him now, he was young, he was a lieutenant a man suppose to be smarter than the enlisted man asking why him. WHY ME!
I garnered from the horror in his voice he was soon to transfer home, maybe he had a wife, maybe a girl friend, what ever the case, he was a monster now.
You can not hear him, but I can, my future and yours resounded in his voice.
The time soon came when my issues were nil but present, my skin cleared for the most part I was the dove boy but had severe dandruff, a sign of shedding flesh from my scalp very quickly, my skin was perfect clear and smooth but dry,
It seemed as though I was CURED HEALED, that will never come darlings, not unless they recognize this disease for what it is, a plague that incites MANY different symptoms, ones they make maintenance drugs for, you see to make a cure would stop the manufacture of trillions of dollars of long term symptom drugs.
If we cure you then what will we sell.
Why do I know this, watching, watching as the disease spread, watching as people became like me, as their skin mimicked my issues, the same aspects I had fought, some do not fight off the aspects, that soldier in the dermatology office did not, he was a worst case scenario, like some of us.
Then I suspect most of us are the long term type, some of you may have had just dandruff in the beginning, others maybe a touch of eczema, or a rash, a spot where it looked like you were bit by a bug, a spot where you itched intensely, you were not the soldier that was covered in lesions quickly, I was not him either, but I dam sure knew their was something coming down the pike and it was not in my best interest and it NEVER stopped.
You imagine a cure, you had better rethink your idea of disease, this one works against you in time.
Lets just say you have TB, herpes, and HPV, can you CURE them, really, they do not suppose so, they can lay dormant, what if this disease is like HIV, or for that matter is a HIV they do not want found, will all the other virus you carry afflict you, certainly they will, your immune system is a wonder, as any mechanical device, it can be worn down, everyday being on its toes make for you a shiny example of health, even with dormant virus inside you, in time your body will break down.
Your body works on chemical and electrical process to regenerate, there are mechanical operations such as bone joints, muscle, heart, colon contraction, breathing, for the most though we are a electrical chemistry set.
In time the damage will literally sap you of strength, the inclusion of virus and bacteria and this precursors of disease will become evident. your zest for life stolen, yes depression can come over you, your sick, it is not depression that makes us sick, its sickness that makes us depressed, we are not at our best, we can not be.
WHERE did that world beater go, where is his/her radiant smile, have you noticed Harry lately he has not said hello to anyone in a month, its like he is a different person, HE IS.
For doctors to ASSUME stress makes disease is ludicrous, the fact of the matter they see us in our worst time, we have stood all we can stand that's why we go to doctors, human nature says, stay the line, do the job, I can not fail, I DO NOT HAVE TIME TO BE SICK, when we fail we are at the end of the line.
It is disease that takes us down, stress always made me shine, first my mind would say, write a list, then assemble the needed items and people, do that then this, wow, how wonderful to sweat, it is not stress, humans can take stress with ease, until your compromised there is no problems, it is disease that clouds the mind and makes once simple tasks now hard to even arrange, the fact, humans become afraid when they can not accomplish once easy tasks.
If they reach inside SOME can find the list of can do, but others will literally shake, panic attack is on its way.
Their demeanor when afflicted can become and quite often becomes stressed, because the disease has made them unable to function properly, their mind is clouded, simple directions become complex, verble instruction becomes garbled, to give simple instruction to others becomes frantic, hurried, anger and panic sets in.
Anyone that imagines that stress was cause for disease and not the other way around has got to be THOUGHTLESS.
If you were a work driven person and all of a sudden you can not organize in your mind, your body function has issues, this is not outside pressure accumulating, you never ever had problems arraging tasks in order before, in fact as your life went on those tasks became easier because you formed plans to address organization, but now you can no longer consentrate on these lerned operations.
Do not tell me I am wrong, disease symptoms were precursors to your failing brain, you know it, I know it, but doctors are so ignorant they go by a old wives tale that even you will swear to, yes doctor I was under stress, of course you were, your brain no longer functions correctly.
What came first the chicken or the egg.
That's hard to answer, but the question of what came first disease or stress, that is easy and you know the answer, or you should.
What makes the young people feel at easy with minds that are like this, repetitive operation, games, texting, they feel best doing things over and over again, is rewarding.
Why are many young 21 and never had a job living at home with their door closed playing video games. WHY, because it occupies their compromised minds blocks out thought.
Jjust imagine walking into that room as their parent and saying, I have decided to move, and I am going on vacation before I move and putting all my things in storage until I get back.
Where are you going to, I will help you move your stuff tomorrow, what do you think that 21 year old adult will say, there is no telling, they may kill you, their life is certainly over, they can not imagine no more free life with video killing game, so who is the evil one, undoubtedly, you are
Why do these young pick up a gun and go to a grade school and church and murder children and people in worship of god, because they play murder games all the time, because they watch murder on TV all the time, because they have no future, no power and are afraid of simple interaction with others, they feel panic to interact, the only interaction and power they have trained for is violence.
Their real world is video murder training, excellent for a pack of murderers but not so good for a generation of young growing up under the pressure of compromised brains with AUTISM, ADHD, ADD, Bi POLAR if you ask me, they are all symptoms of this stealthy malady.
They are also positive proof that mental infirmity is caused by disease, not STRESS, stress may accentuate the results of mental infirmity but stress does not cause mental disease.
The affects of this disease has been seen in mental institutions around the world the fact that the insane were referred to as buggy because of itching caused by this disease is actually a crime of doctors stupidity.
To look at an amount of people digging at their skin and imagine that crazy people just have a penchant for thinking bugs are biting them is ridicules, it is a sign of disease that not only causes issues of itching but also damages the mental ability's of the human brain.
To this I will relent to a saying of Bugs Bunny,
WHATS UP DOC
And just why did they name the BUNNY BUGS, because he was crazy.
There was one thing quite clear to me, NOBODY was afflicted around me with the itching I had, if so they would look like me, a 18 year old man ready to die from lack of any sleep from months of torture from the itching .
The funny thing, I did itch in the daytime, but it paled compared to when I laid down at night, within seconds itching, the itching was so intense thatI knew life was not worth living in this state .
This was nothing less than torture, torture from that had invaded my body, why am I the only one, one thing that could have sullied my results of watching at that time, I was surrounded by men and quite literally, we know from our numbers women are more affected, OR women are just more aware and caring of itching aspects.
The other fact, this massive itching at the moment of lying down but literally almost nothing when standing up, how could this be, it started way to quickly for a herd of insects to come running to eat me and anyway you could NEVER see anything where the stinging, biting, itching would be.
The itching (at one point) congregated inside the outer ear canal, itching so bad it was like poison Ivy and red ants combined.
I would be ok, it would go away, it had to or I would certainly be driven mad.
Still I wondered, how could I be the only one, itching subsided but never went away, problems persited , why did issues come and go so often.
Early on I noticed several other things, skin problems, rash, white dots, red dots, my hair became dry and frizzy, problems in my mouth, sores, tiny white dots on tip of tongue that hurt, red dots on the tongue, white plawue on tongue, so many things I forget the half of them and this was just for starts.
My life was plagued by so many other items of illness to come and go, return with a vengeance, leave for long periods, stay for long periods, get worse, what the hell.
How many doctors do I have to see before one says the same thing as the other and gives me a pill that saves me.
The only reverberating bullshit these dumb as money grubbers could come up with, I WAS GETTING OLDER, I WAS UNDER STRESS, I WAS ALLERGIC. well you lackluster bunch of retards, babies are getting older from the day they are born, and I was just perfectly fine until I enjoyed a trip to one of our militarys finest citys of prostitution where disease is rampant, do you imagine possibly there could have been a contraction of disease that literally changed my life FOREVER and put me into a downward spiral.
Well how probable would that be, let me see, as probable as millions of the soldiers coming down with STDs spread in this same exact way.
No no your just getting older, and that severe itching that could just be a sign of mental illness, you see, the people in mental institutions itch so, you must have caught mental illness from the stress of being 18 and being in perfect health you must have been feeling guilty because you were drinking and parting up a storm with beautiful women galore.
Oh doctor thank you very much for your observation, yes it must be my Catholic upbringing that has made me insane about having, off the chain, young mans dream come true paradise on earth.
That's it, I am a insane 18 Catholic year old that never had a issue before beautiful, slender exotic, young women in droves were destroying my Christian beliefs. RIGHT.
Maybe dotor I am a Cathoholic, yeah, sickness from worry that I am going to hell for having too much fun, wow, I am so glad doctors of the body are also keen on the mental condition of young men.
How funny, god chose me, I am like Job in the bible, he made me so excellent, my body was so fit, I was first in the company of 200 men in the physical competition for a 3 day pass, imagine a short man winning all around physical test BEFORE THIS DISEASE. That means I had to do well in the running with men that are well over 6 feet tall along with all the other tests. Situps and pushups was my thing, they could never beat me in those things as well as anything to do with dexterity, it was the running that was the killer.
Still no smoking and did the mile in a little over seven minutes, with a little help from a tall older man that figured if he could slow my little arse down we could do the same pace and inspire each other, but he started to talk and that made me lose concentration, I had to lose him and poured on the steam, he tried to keep up and was wearing me thin but finally he died, LOL Thank god he had my ire.
NOT AFTER CATCHING THIS, and catch it I did, it was not a mental illness or worry, I was never worried, my personality does not allow worry, do or die is more like it.
You see, I have made my peace with death, its coming for everyone, it comes for kings and queens, it comes for presidents and dictasters, it comes for every tiny baby not yet born, the answer to your fear of death, get over yourself, the world will not stop turning the moment your gone. You only have a few days, a few years, or a hundred years, but when that time is up, its just like the bible says baby, dust to dust and hopefully this horrid malady dies with you.
The only wish I have, there is something good comes of it, such as, I caught this, did it mutate my genome before I had a child, if it did adapt my makeup, will my child be more able to adjust to its affects, will her child be more able to resist the coming onslaught, will the pathogen make us better to resist all biological aspects of disease in time from the beating it gives our system, will our processes and it become symbiotic.. That is interesting to me, will the fact that all Americans will be subjected to this disease make us a stronger civilization in time.
Anyway. when I came home I watched for the itching disease to spread, I AM YOUR HISTORY, and you can believe I never fell down on the job, I WATCHED AND LISTEND EVERY DAY for the results of a disease I knew that only one person in a sex playground would be able to catch this, if I caught it others also had, but why didn't they express its results.
We all know that answer, don't act stupid, we express this disease in different ways, maybe its the result of what other disease we have.
Some would think THEY ARE PURE HUMANS, well I hate to break the news to you PURE HUMAN, your arse is full of unexpressed bacterial and virus, and that may even keep you better than the next guy, we do not know exactly.
If you have lesions I suspect HERPES, if you have CHERRY ANGIOMAS, I suspect HERPES, then in your simple mind I say the disease we suffer is HERPES, no simple mind did I say that.
What I am suggesting is that, if you have the HERPES virus in your body this malady for some reason will allow it to flourish beyond what it would have or in less time, got it.
RETURN to the country of infection, yes go back, when I went to the dermatology office in the military, OH MY GOD, It looked like they were handing out FREE MONEYthere are near 60 men in here, how long is this going to take was my first thought and I am not alone. .
Maybe I should come another day, that idea was running through my head when a man started to scream, his voice resounded a horror I had not heard before, it wa a sound heard only in movies of terror, he was yelling what is this, the doctor said, we do not know, I CAN NEVER GO HOME LIKE THIS , he stepped into the waiting room, he was covered with these lesions, he was worse off than anyone in that room, a horror story, one that I would come to find out 30 some years later, why did it affect him so soon.
I said to the man next to me, holy sheet I am glad I am not him, but I was him, he was me and you are me, and we are all together.
Holly disease symptom batman did the Beatles know too??? LOL
Why did the disease destroy him now, he was young, he was a lieutenant a man suppose to be smarter than the enlisted man asking why him. WHY ME!
I garnered from the horror in his voice he was soon to transfer home, maybe he had a wife, maybe a girl friend, what ever the case, he was a monster now.
You can not hear him, but I can, my future and yours resounded in his voice.
The time soon came when my issues were nil but present, my skin cleared for the most part I was the dove boy but had severe dandruff, a sign of shedding flesh from my scalp very quickly, my skin was perfect clear and smooth but dry,
It seemed as though I was CURED HEALED, that will never come darlings, not unless they recognize this disease for what it is, a plague that incites MANY different symptoms, ones they make maintenance drugs for, you see to make a cure would stop the manufacture of trillions of dollars of long term symptom drugs.
If we cure you then what will we sell.
Why do I know this, watching, watching as the disease spread, watching as people became like me, as their skin mimicked my issues, the same aspects I had fought, some do not fight off the aspects, that soldier in the dermatology office did not, he was a worst case scenario, like some of us.
Then I suspect most of us are the long term type, some of you may have had just dandruff in the beginning, others maybe a touch of eczema, or a rash, a spot where it looked like you were bit by a bug, a spot where you itched intensely, you were not the soldier that was covered in lesions quickly, I was not him either, but I dam sure knew their was something coming down the pike and it was not in my best interest and it NEVER stopped.
You imagine a cure, you had better rethink your idea of disease, this one works against you in time.
Lets just say you have TB, herpes, and HPV, can you CURE them, really, they do not suppose so, they can lay dormant, what if this disease is like HIV, or for that matter is a HIV they do not want found, will all the other virus you carry afflict you, certainly they will, your immune system is a wonder, as any mechanical device, it can be worn down, everyday being on its toes make for you a shiny example of health, even with dormant virus inside you, in time your body will break down.
Your body works on chemical and electrical process to regenerate, there are mechanical operations such as bone joints, muscle, heart, colon contraction, breathing, for the most though we are a electrical chemistry set.
In time the damage will literally sap you of strength, the inclusion of virus and bacteria and this precursors of disease will become evident. your zest for life stolen, yes depression can come over you, your sick, it is not depression that makes us sick, its sickness that makes us depressed, we are not at our best, we can not be.
WHERE did that world beater go, where is his/her radiant smile, have you noticed Harry lately he has not said hello to anyone in a month, its like he is a different person, HE IS.
For doctors to ASSUME stress makes disease is ludicrous, the fact of the matter they see us in our worst time, we have stood all we can stand that's why we go to doctors, human nature says, stay the line, do the job, I can not fail, I DO NOT HAVE TIME TO BE SICK, when we fail we are at the end of the line.
It is disease that takes us down, stress always made me shine, first my mind would say, write a list, then assemble the needed items and people, do that then this, wow, how wonderful to sweat, it is not stress, humans can take stress with ease, until your compromised there is no problems, it is disease that clouds the mind and makes once simple tasks now hard to even arrange, the fact, humans become afraid when they can not accomplish once easy tasks.
If they reach inside SOME can find the list of can do, but others will literally shake, panic attack is on its way.
Their demeanor when afflicted can become and quite often becomes stressed, because the disease has made them unable to function properly, their mind is clouded, simple directions become complex, verble instruction becomes garbled, to give simple instruction to others becomes frantic, hurried, anger and panic sets in.
Anyone that imagines that stress was cause for disease and not the other way around has got to be THOUGHTLESS.
If you were a work driven person and all of a sudden you can not organize in your mind, your body function has issues, this is not outside pressure accumulating, you never ever had problems arraging tasks in order before, in fact as your life went on those tasks became easier because you formed plans to address organization, but now you can no longer consentrate on these lerned operations.
Do not tell me I am wrong, disease symptoms were precursors to your failing brain, you know it, I know it, but doctors are so ignorant they go by a old wives tale that even you will swear to, yes doctor I was under stress, of course you were, your brain no longer functions correctly.
What came first the chicken or the egg.
That's hard to answer, but the question of what came first disease or stress, that is easy and you know the answer, or you should.
What makes the young people feel at easy with minds that are like this, repetitive operation, games, texting, they feel best doing things over and over again, is rewarding.
Why are many young 21 and never had a job living at home with their door closed playing video games. WHY, because it occupies their compromised minds blocks out thought.
Jjust imagine walking into that room as their parent and saying, I have decided to move, and I am going on vacation before I move and putting all my things in storage until I get back.
Where are you going to, I will help you move your stuff tomorrow, what do you think that 21 year old adult will say, there is no telling, they may kill you, their life is certainly over, they can not imagine no more free life with video killing game, so who is the evil one, undoubtedly, you are
Why do these young pick up a gun and go to a grade school and church and murder children and people in worship of god, because they play murder games all the time, because they watch murder on TV all the time, because they have no future, no power and are afraid of simple interaction with others, they feel panic to interact, the only interaction and power they have trained for is violence.
Their real world is video murder training, excellent for a pack of murderers but not so good for a generation of young growing up under the pressure of compromised brains with AUTISM, ADHD, ADD, Bi POLAR if you ask me, they are all symptoms of this stealthy malady.
They are also positive proof that mental infirmity is caused by disease, not STRESS, stress may accentuate the results of mental infirmity but stress does not cause mental disease.
The affects of this disease has been seen in mental institutions around the world the fact that the insane were referred to as buggy because of itching caused by this disease is actually a crime of doctors stupidity.
To look at an amount of people digging at their skin and imagine that crazy people just have a penchant for thinking bugs are biting them is ridicules, it is a sign of disease that not only causes issues of itching but also damages the mental ability's of the human brain.
To this I will relent to a saying of Bugs Bunny,
WHATS UP DOC
And just why did they name the BUNNY BUGS, because he was crazy.