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Post by kiki on Nov 15, 2008 23:18:10 GMT -5
I'm wondering if this has really messed up my brain. I don't like heights and I'm scared silly to get in the ocean over my calves. Im totally cool with planes and boats tho. Whats weird is recently at the ocean my husb said he wanted to para-sail. I said Thats cool I'll wave to ya from balcony when you go by. He knew better than to even consider I would do it. About an hr before reservation I walked past window and looked out at ocean and in a flash I knew I was gonna do it. He was low key about it and I know he was skeptical cause he kept giving me "outs" and maybe even testing me. They offered 3 hts (400,600,800 ft) and he told them he'd change to lowest since we were going tandem. Someone opened my mouth and said No what difference does it make that high up? Why would I do something like this?
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Post by justhanginin on Nov 16, 2008 0:33:36 GMT -5
Maybe you figured it would be one way to get rid of this, but it's really a bad plan. This condition puts some of us in such psychic pain that doing something out of character, something we normally wouldn't consider, doesn't seem like such a bad idea as a way out. I am not any sort of mental health professional,but I have had the urge to go play in traffic in the last few years. I resisted it.
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Post by flyawayredbird on Nov 16, 2008 21:43:57 GMT -5
I know you are right about this "justthanginin,"......when I first got this.....after seeing 8 doctors and two ER visits......and being told I was DOP......I had the urge to run out into the traffic......and I even went to the basement and looked over the collection of guns......
But for some reason, I knew this was not how my life was suppose to end.
They say, "He is there with you at all times."
But for some reason, it did not feel like God was there with me.......at all.
Now that I look back, during those hours of my weakest......I believe now, He was really there.
I did not walk out into the traffic, and I never could figure out which gun would be the best one to use.
In fact, I' am alive. I found this site, and people here, who have helped me to find products that do help me keep this under control.
No, I'am not cured yet.......but I want give up.
I refuse to give up.
flyawayredbird
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