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Post by zabrubon on May 9, 2009 14:54:37 GMT -5
I have been so exhausted lately with no energy and don't care if I ever go outside or visit anyone. I figure I am either depressed or anemic.
I just can't seem to get any energy to go or do anything. I have so much to do and it just sits and waits for me. I have no enery.
My cousin suggestd Blackstrap molasses.
I stopped taking most of my medications, only on one antibiotic now and my head feels like it is cloudy inside and a light ringing in the ears as well as dullness in my head. I can't sleep at night and I am up all night. I go to bed and i lay there for hours my mind drifting from one thought to another. I have a hard time staying on one thought for any amount of time. I don't know what normal is anymore, but i tell you this does not seem right.
I so don't know which direction to turn. My doctor doesn't believe in Morgellons but believes in Lyme. He is in total denial about my condition. I think it is time for a new doctor but where to go is another question.
I can't get motivated at all and want to sleep a lot, fact I could go back to bed right now.
I can't seem to get going and to socialize. I just don't care if I hang out with anyone or not. I am becoming antisocial. I know this is not good for me. Again this may be depression from losing my job. If it is depression, I don't even know what to do for that symptom.
I still have good days where I have more energy but I fear that the disease is returning but don't know for sure or what to do.
I seem to not care anymore. I can't figure out what to do. Or just let nature take it's course. Now I understand when animals get sick they just go away and die. That's how I feel. Sorry to tranfer this depressive state to your ears.
ChicagoBonnie
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Post by zabrubon on May 9, 2009 18:06:09 GMT -5
DEALING WITH A GREAT LOSS
I am not whole. A part of me is not as it should be. There is so much I have dreamed of doing -- so much I yearn to do -- so much I must -- must! -- do ... so much I have done, but can do no more.
Long ago, in my days of wholeness, everything was so simple. Those usual, day to day habits came easily. No great obstacle stood before my every movement. No terrible mountain teetered nearby, ready to crush me at the whim of any errant wind. Anything I wanted to do I could do! Oh, there were times when I felt as if I could not go on. There were days when I never saw the sun. There were nights when tears were my only companion, my weary heart my sole reality. Looking back I wonder how I could have hurt so much: I was whole! How was it possible to be in such despair? I was whole! How could I have taken such opportunities, such pleasures, so much for granted? I was whole!
And, now? Now that which I one did so easily, I no longer can. Dreams I once dreamed had a chance of coming true; my dreams now come without smiles, without warmth, without expectation. I once woke ready to experience the day; now, early in the morning, I often keep my eyes closed, unwilling to embrace another day. How can I touch all the brilliant facets of creation when part of me is no longer here? Yet, in my heart I know my perception is unclear. My own personal loss of that part of me is devastating. That is natural. No one could honestly pretend it is not. People smile ninety percent smiles and speak what they believe are words of comfort. Some tell me they understand. Others -- those who truly understand -- never say they do. They know that exactly similar incidents will affect different people differently; we are all truly unique ... one of a kind ... as are our thoughts, our feelings, our reactions, even when, on the surface, they "follow a pattern". It was so hard to face my loss. In those moments when I dared look -- actually saw what was lo longer a part of me -- my mind "saw" with two sets of eyes. One pair saw what seemed to be reality. The other pair searched desperately for what once had been there. Faced with conflicting information, my mind refused to accept anything, even that which it knew, somewhere deep within myself, to be true.
If I, then, am unable to see my own self clearly, and if others are even less able, who can know me? Who can see me physically, see me emotionally, see me mentally, see me spiritually, as I really, truly am? Who? God? Well, yes, but I don't really want Him to see me -- not all of me, anyway. Do I?
Why not?
He is interested. He does care. He loves me even though He does see me as I really am. For a long time I wondered why He would let this happen to me. I blamed Him for my pain, my imprisonment, my loss. then one day I finally understood. I learned a Great Truth. Here it is: What happened to me would never have happened if God had had His way. Don't let anyone tell you God's will is always accomplished. That is nonsense! God did not will Lucifer to rebel. God did not will Adam to sin. He did not will death and pain and despair into existence. they are the by-products of man's disobeying God. Man brought death into this world. Man gave Mankind suffering. Man "created" painful imperfection out of God's perfect creation. Adam tipped over the first domino of disobedience, and creation has continued falling out of the original, perfect design ever since. My loss, tragic as it was to me, was simply one more domino in the chain. If I must blame someone, I must blame Adam. And myself, for I am not guiltless.
So, how do I live with my new self? How can my life be meaningful? How can I find satisfaction when so much of me -- who I once was -- is gone? Yesterday I would have despaired. Today I live in hope.
You ask me what happened? What part of me I lost? Was it my sight, or my arms? Was it my legs, or just an odd hand or two? Perhaps I have all my parts, but they don't work? Have I been "given" six months to live? Have I lost a spouse or a beautiful child? Was I maimed in some hideous way? Has my heart, my spirit, been so crushed I can no longer face the world? Have I lost the only job I can find, and do not know how to care for those who depend on me? Has my mind ceased to function in an "acceptable" way? Does it matter? No, not really. What matters is what I have left, what I do with this, my new self. I will not pretend that losses are not painful or life-crushing. they can hinder us, bring us agony, destroy us little by little or in an instant. Yet, is not the following true? We do not love with our feet. We do not think with our hands. Our ability to create is not impaired by a lack of physical comeliness. Our gift to comfort is not dependent on sight, mobility, or intellect. Our loss often forces us to develop other talents, often more useful than those that many "whole" persons have. If I can love, think, create, teach, and comfort, I can do things many "whole" persons cannot, or will not, do. If I press forward, developing a talent or skill I would otherwise never have found, which is greater: my loss, or my gain? If in my suffering I discover the truth about suffering and pain, its origin and its effects, I can teach others, pointing them to the Source of Healings, ones who might not listen to anyone else. By letting God see me, by opening my heart to Him, I experience Him in a new way. I can speak to others of the hope He has given me. I can tell them of the healings He has, whether emotional, mental, physical, or spiritual, either now or in the Glory to come.
I can tell you that God sees us first as spiritual beings, and second as physical beings. I can say that He wants to restore you to perfection spiritually first, and that restoring you physically is then just a matter of time. No if. Not maybe. He has promised physical restoration to all His children, in this life or the life to come. Does that mean that that lost part of me will immediately, magically return? Does that mean that despair will never again seize my heart? Does it mean that I can carry on joyfully and easily with no limitations, just as I did before? Probably not. It means that God's love and grace and mercy are more than enough to carry me through these dark days until His promises all come true. And they will come true.
Should I not wait on Him? When He chooses He will restore my wholeness. I will accept His promise now, and wait eagerly for its fulfillment, making the best of my days until then. He has given me a promise. The reality of that promise, the certainty of its fulfillment. does not depend on my understanding. I do not have to know all the answers, understand how it all fits together, to make His promise valid. I will believe Him, needing no other evidence; no miracles, no signs are needed to prove His words true, though I would gladly receive those, too, should He choose to give them. And ... It does not matter either way, for in Him I find completeness, in Him I am whole. In Him I have gained more than I could ever, ever lose, or ever give. Life -- the only living life -- begins, and never ends, in Him.
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Post by toni on May 9, 2009 19:02:00 GMT -5
Bonnie, I sure understand....I really do. I am sure we all feel what you're saying, because it's right on the head of the nail in what Morgs does to a perfectly normal human being that had a life of being productive, having family around, friends, and just plain FUN...along with the everyday stuff of LIVING it. I'm so sorry you're in a sad way. It seems that it's like a major cross road, (no words for how MUCH of a crossroad it is) in how MORGS has forced changes upon us. I guess we just keep believing, and in our minds KNOWING that there will be help. I guess I just couldn't bear thinking anything else. So each day is like a new one for me (in seeing what might work or not), and being thankful for the sights and smells and feelings that MORGS can't steel from me. I believe so much in an energy that is I do think that is what keeps me going. Not that this movie ( The Secret ) is any answer for each and everyone, but it's sort of the way I do see things, and if you've not seen this DVD, maybe you can sort of "get into it" while watching it, and it might help you find another (tool) I call it, that will give you more to hang on to also. In times of despair, I rent that movie...sort of a refresher course (and that is what I call it)...because it could be easy to lose oneself not living as we use to. Keep taking your supplements (to keep your body strong) because when the mind feels sorrow and pain as we do, (even IF we didn't have Morgs) minerals and vitamins get depleted, and the way to know that's happening is we lose energy, and don't sleep well. And then it could be lyme (as you'd said in your first post about things/thoughts racing through your mind) and not being able to sleep. My sis tells me that daily how she goes through that too. I wish we knew what would help once and for all. Grab every moment of laughter, and enjoy every smell of even something cooking, and enjoy tastes of wonderful things moreso than ever, and feel these wonderful summer breezes in the evenings, and that will also help you too, it's about finding "tools" to keep on keeping on right now, till we can get help/cured. All of our wonderful senses (touch,sight,smell) all of them....max them out, give them things so they can make you smile even when you take that next bite of something, and that too helps keep your mind positive. I've found myself, opening up the bottle of vanilla extract sometimes while crying in the kitchen alone, just to have a "feel good smell"...and you know what? That will even pick me up. Not for long, but long enough to help me shake off the sad feelings and all. Yesterday, I (and I'm going to sound silly) but it helped me cause I too was in a short funk of feeling very sad. But what I did was I ate some strawberries. hahah Now I know that sounds not like much, but I made it much. I studied a strawberry for a few moments actually, and thinking how God gave us all these beautiful wonderful fruits (wasn't thinking about GMO) or anything else but that gorgeous red perfect strawberry. And how lucky we are to be able to feel touch, and smell the smells, and taste the tastes...and seriously, that was a pick me up and a half! The reason I'm sharing that as "simpleton" hahah as I'm sounding is because I do feel I know your shoes. Nothing is the same, but in reality WE still ARE! WE miss our lives terribly, and that's an understatement. So for now, we re-route our feelings of missing everything we did and had, and get more in touch with Mother Nature, as she is our core, and can keep us strong in our mind and body to get to the end of all this, and we can, and I can, and you will too. You're such a good person Bonnie, and you have lots of people who care. Warm BIG hugs.
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Post by Jill on May 9, 2009 19:24:27 GMT -5
Bonnie, Thanks! I needed that poem/prose- our comfort is in Him!
As to your symptoms- please have your white blood count tested? As you say- it could be anemia.
Hugs,
Jill
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Post by ed on May 9, 2009 20:30:13 GMT -5
ah .............get your hemoglobin and hematocrit checked.... most common cause of anemia. If low, a B12 shot or two and eating right can usually fix it .... you like steak? PMA.. Ed www.anemia.org/patients/faq/
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Post by friskers on May 9, 2009 21:10:35 GMT -5
Hi Bonnie Im so sorry your feeling the way you do but its no wonder if your not sleeping at night your going to feel like crap all day and want to sleep all day and not want to do anything . beleive me i know because I lived like that for many years until I finally resorted to meds to help me sleep at night Thats also a lyme symtom, insomnia at night and sleeping all day. If i let my body do its own thing thats exactly what I would do! I hope your doctor or new one can help with those symptoms because a good nights sleep can make you feel like a whole new person. And its so true what you wrote we are whole in God! I had to laugh when you said you could blame Adam ;D yeah somehow its got to be a mans fault! ;D On a lighter note Bob always makes me feel better! ;D hang in there Bonnie i know things are going to get better for you. Love, Friskers
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Post by zabrubon on May 9, 2009 21:50:25 GMT -5
I FOUND THIS ON SADNESSS
SADNESS
Who wants such an unpopular feeling? YOU DO, if you want to be happy. This may seem bizarre, but it most assuredly is true. For unless you are able to feel sadness (and its relatives: sobbing, grief and tears), you will forever be avoiding sadness. Avoidance makes you prone to addictive behavior, psychosomatic symptoms, high levels of anxiety and acting-out skewed behavior.
Sadness is a natural feeling which, if unfelt, just stays in our array of unresolved trauma knots. As with other emotions, feel it and it will go away. Resist feeling it and it hangs around forever, periodically erupting inappropriately in our body's attempt to rid itself of associated trauma knots.
It has been most unfashionable to cry, most particularly in the 1950s and 1960s. Negative judgments were commonly made about those who did so in public. Politicians for many years avoided anything even remotely connected to tears. Today that seems to be changing. We all need to feel sadness and grief at times. If we are not to remain emotionally disabled, then we need to allow whatever sobs need to wrack us and whatever tears need to roll down our cheeks.
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Post by ctbarb on May 9, 2009 23:01:25 GMT -5
Oh Dear CB, I was mesmerized by your words...I do believe that all of us, at one time or another (or many times) feel this way...I know I have. There is HOPE for us, we are determined, intelligent, God fearing folks who have much to give to this world...something that we are not getting from those in power to do so - ANSWERS! And we will find them, rest assure. As horrible as I'm feeling right now, I know that there will come a time when there will be peace, love, and family and friends again. We are not lost, I look at it as a 'sebatical' from the normal life we use to have. Perhaps we were chosen for a reason, perhaps to find what this horrendous cause is and eradicate it throughout the world. When no one talks, no one listens.........communication will lead us down the path to discovery...and when we find it, we can tell the world what we have suffered during this hell, and who did it to us! With the little bit of strength I have left in me, I will fight them to the end...either mine, or theirs! In the end, I will have won - if only in my own mind, I will be whole again...and so will you. If we've gotten this far on this path of horrors, we fall into potholes every once in awhile, but we get out, and trudge down the path again...we are determined to win and those who think otherwise better get out of our way! There will be a time for retribution for the crimes that have been committed against us, and I use the word "crimes" in the absolute sense of the word. What we have endured is inhumane. We've been tortured by many who do not believe, just because they can...we've been treated with less dignity than the lowest of the low; our lives are in danger but there is no one who will listen; but they will when their lives are one with ours. Then we will see who will listen.... Love & Hugs, ctbarb
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Post by jj on May 10, 2009 8:26:17 GMT -5
CB Really sorry your having a hard time. I CAN relate and I do understand. Loosing your job, security (& benefits that went with it) is hard to deal with. There may be a part of you and how you contribute ' YOU' to society that seems to have been unfairly taken away from you. For a genuine, caring sensitive person as yourself, I think it is normal to go through some of the things you are going through. The sense of loss can be huge. I believe you WILL GET THROUGH THIS because of who you are within. You have always given & shared unselfishly. You are a beautiful person. You will continue to be that person. You will find what feels lost ....... I truly believe that. Here's a link addressing 'emotions' and some earlier discussion. www.innerself.com/Relationships/Channeling_Emotions.htmlymebusters.proboards.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=rash&thread=11636&page=1JJ
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Post by liatris on May 10, 2009 13:55:59 GMT -5
Sorry about your not feeling good.
I just wanted to say that fatigue from any cause (may or may not be anemia) can really take the wind out of your sails. If you are feeling perky and have energy, it is natural to feel like socializing or doing any other thing. When you are tired you may not be depressed really - just no energy for anything. It is not fun and it can then BECOME depressing because you cannot get anything done and it is just not fun to be really tired. Even lying on the couch trying to watch TV would be an effort.
Many health problems can contribute to fatigue - especially chronic infection. It can cause brain fog, too. Chronic infection causes the adrenals to become exhausted and since you need your adrenals for ENERGY - you would, naturally become tired if they are not up to par.
I am not saying that there may not be a component of being fed up that is bringing you down - just wanted to make sure that you knew it may not be so much of that causing the overall feeling.
When I had palin old Chronic Fatigue Syndrome some doctors who did not know about it would try to talk me into thinking I was depressed _ I was not ! On days I had more energy, the "depression" was not so bad and on days without fatigue, the "depression" was altogether gone. See what I mean ?
When you have more energy, you will feel like socializing and doing whatever.
Take the sleep when you can get it. Don't eat too much sugar as it really suppresses you ability to fight infection and rebuild your adrenals.
Not a bad idea to check into the anemia/B-12 thing. Also, check thyroid function - most drs are pathetically lacking in knowledge on this --- go to drrind.com and check out the info on thyroid and adrenal fatigue - very good info and Dr. Rind is very generous with the educational info on his site.
Hope you feel better soon.
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Post by friskers on May 10, 2009 16:56:02 GMT -5
Hi Liatris, nice to see you! Bonnie if you feel sad and need to cry then let it out. Its true we all need to cry every now and then . Even men, real men cry ! Theres a difference between wallowing and just feeling your feelings .
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Post by zabrubon on May 10, 2009 23:31:58 GMT -5
Toni thank you for your link to the "secret", what a great site and a good way to look at life. Thank you for caring about me as a person and giving me words to help me make it another day.
Jill, I do believe that I may be anemic and I am asking my doctor to get a white blood cell count. Thank you for sharing that information. I would have never thought to get the doctor to take the test. I am calling him on Tuesday to see if he can order me the test. Thanks so much being there and helping me through this terribly tough time. So kind.
Ed, yes, Ed, I love love love steak, but I quit red meat a year ago. I have been eating only Organics. For the first time I saw in my grocery store organic beef. How about that. I am afraid to start eating it again. I could get hooked again and I lost so much weight from going Chicken and fish only that I guess I don't want to go beef again. How did you find that anemia site. Cool. I have not had a lot of time to read but will be doing so this week. Yes, I think some of me is anemia and some is just pure physical and mental exhaustion. Who knows, all I can do is try to take the advice here on site and do the best I can. Thanks for caring and allowing me to PM you. If I ever go through this darkness again, I certainly know who my friends are and believe me I am eternally grateful. Thank you again.
CTBarb, I loved your determination to fight and not give in. Are you related to one of my all time favorite people, Winston ChurchHill? Never give up? I think you are. Thank you dear friend for encouraging me to go forward and not give up. I felt the power in your words.
JJ, you words to me were like a healing balm to my sad heart. Thank you so much for your care. Thank you for sharing with me that would get through this, and thanks be to you and everyonehere and to God that I have pulled through this dark time. I can see light.
KMarie, your words were most kind and helped me see the good in myself. When darkeness hits, sometimes it steals all the light. Your words were like a candle. Giving me direction and healing. Thank you so very very much for the sunshine.
Liatris, you are wise in your advice for rest, yes. I thank you so much for your insight and your care for my healing. I am better today because of a weekend of rest. Thank you so much. Again, thank you all for your sincere love and care. I am so glad I have met all of you and know you. My life is much better now because of your loving kindness. Thank you all again. I have recieved strength from your healing words and advice and care and am better, so much better today because of you.
Blessings to you always, ChicagoBonnie
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Post by auntruckus on May 11, 2009 7:45:05 GMT -5
ChicagoBonnie, I know exactly how you feel, as a matter of fact I could not have said it better myself. My daughter asked me yesterday, Mother's Day, where was the mother she had 2-3 yrs. ago? All I could do was cry, I wanted to know where I was too! All I seem to do is stare at the 4 walls and tell myself I need to do major housecleaning, but my body won't obey my mind. This is really getting to me and I don't know if I want to continue this way. AR
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Post by ibzahp on May 11, 2009 14:58:13 GMT -5
I am really struggling with mind numbing fatigue right now.its crazy I have to go pick up a prescription and then go to the pharmacy and I feel too exhausted to even do that. So tired. But I do remember that there are times ,when I have hours or days of time where I feel revived and I am grateful for them. Hang in there, each and every one of you are beautiful. Your words give hope and understanding and support. Those who haven't had the misfortune of being ill have a hard time understanding the changes that we endure. Oh boy and the housecleaning-I really understand about that. I have been feeling a little guilty because I have a friend come and help me out a couple hours a week. I t is something I would never have done before dealing with a chronic and dehabilitating illness. It is also money i can ill afford but it does brighten my spirits on the other hand. love and hugs ibzahp
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Post by zabrubon on May 11, 2009 18:47:05 GMT -5
Auntrukus, heck I sure know how you feel. If you get extra sleep, does that help you at all. Seems to me when I really get good night sleep, I am so much better but wish so much, that I was healed. I have absolved myself that I may very well go to the grave in this condition. What I mean is that this disease is killing me. Unless doctors and cdc take note soon, I fear that we are all in a sad state and not long for this earth. This disease is killing us one by one and just because we are on antibiotics and herbs etc, doens't mean we will long term pull out of this. Some on this board have been healed and I am so trying to get there. I eat right, and get as much rest as I can but I am only better, not cured. Don't worry about the chores at home, that is really not all that important. If you ever need to talk, you are so welcomed to personal message me. Thanks for letting me know that I am not alone in this condition. Ibzahp, yep this mental fog is awful. I have good and bad days. Then when I have personal things in my life added to my illness, sometimes I just can't handle it. Or at least that is how I feel at the time. Wow what a great friend. I used to have good friends like that, but where did they go? ( Hum, I gotta get out there and make some new friends to do life with. I have been holed up feeling sorry and like the victum way to long. God bless ya for your words of hope. ChicagoBonnie
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Post by zabrubon on May 11, 2009 19:05:25 GMT -5
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Post by zabrubon on May 11, 2009 19:14:52 GMT -5
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Post by bannanny on May 12, 2009 2:49:09 GMT -5
It seems we're in the same place Bonnie... I want to be as brave as you and continue to build strength in my faith, but I'm holding on only by a thread anymore. I admire you and the others here for the way you hold on, even when you feel you can't fight anymore. I'm trying to do the same... and as much as I want to say something positive here, it's hard to find the words.
It's not easy for me to go on saying it's all gonna be ok. I don't wanna lie or convey by pretending to think that it will be. I only hope anymore I'll be able to say something different. But once again these last few cycles surfaced to be yet again even more horrific than what came before. It's only a question now of how much more I'll be able to take... and it scares me that I'm there. I find myself asking Him what He meant when He said He won't give us more than we can bear. I don't understand those words anymore, do you? I won't go into what's happening here, but it's a constant relentless attack once again. It's become all too often and I find myself lost in the dark now. How does one find their way out when you're trapped in this cocoon? I ask for the strength I so desperately need to break its hold on me. But it rears its ugly head again faster than I can pray. It's as tho it keeps showing me more just to prove that I'm losing this game. I know that sounds ridiculous, but it feels that way to me. I understand what you said about this thing killing us.. I don't feel right inside either sweetie.
What you said is true tho Bonnie... about our beginning and ending with Him. It's this stuff in the middle that has me wondering where He is when we don't know what to do anymore. I've fought a good fight but I've finished the course where I am. I just need to strengthen my faith, that's all I have left to do.
I'm still grateful for all I've been given and I don't blame this on God. But I just don't get why this doesn't fall into the "what we can no longer bear" thing He said. I don't know how to fight or what to fight this with anymore... that's why I don't understand. It's the only reason I'm asking Him to see that this thing's become unbearable now. It's the only thing I ask for too, cuz it really is hard to bear... and I ask Him to see it that way for us all.
I do try to keep believing it will end one day tho... and it will. But I want to believe it'll end in this lifetime. It'd be nice to at least be able to use what I've learned from it while I'm still here. One thing I know for certain... it would be the life I should've lived when I had one. Never would there be a day taken for granted, a day without sharing a smile, I'd hug someone for no reason, and always make time in a day to give to those needier than I. There would be no complaints, no selfish wants, no being in a big hurry. I'd take time and be sure to listen when someone needs an ear, I'd give without pause and take nothing for it, and most of all, I'd love purely.
Maybe I was given this hardship for that reason... to see how much I allowed to slip by. To see everything I took for granted, without giving any of it even a second thought. If that's the lesson I was to learn, it sure did work. Yet things just continue to get worse... so I'm guessing that wasn't the lesson I was supposed to learn from this. So what now, since I haven't heard the message in this He wants me to hear yet? Then again Bonnie, maybe it's like your message above said. Maybe He doesn't work that way when we're dealing with a horror caused by man.
I didn't mean to make this post all about where I'm at... I guess I just related so much to where you are that I got carried away with it. I'm sorry Bonnie. It seems whenever this hits me like this, I'm not much good to anybody. If there were something I knew to say to you that would fix it for you, I would've said it 10 times over. But I just don't know what to say anymore... except I love you very very much and I pray for you every night and day. I pray that God will help us all.
I hope you're able to get some rest tho... it really does help to get as much sleep as you can. That's when our bodies heal the most... and it's so peaceful once you're there. Have you ever tried any of those CD's that play sounds of the ocean and other soothing things to listen to when you get into bed? Maybe something like that will help you get some peaceful nights of good sleep. I just want you to feel better, but I haven't done a very good job of helping you do that here. I'm sorry I'm in this place where you don't need me to be right now... cuz it leaves me with nothing to help you get out of the place you're in now too.
I love you lots tho... and when I'm able, I'll be here for you the way I should be.
big hugs ~~ bannannas
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Post by freaky on May 12, 2009 8:15:15 GMT -5
i STAYED UP ALL NIGHT WRITING YOU, AND DAMN IF THE COMPUTER DIDN'T EAT IT UP. I GUESS IN SHORT, GET SOME SLEEPING PILLS. NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE AWAY OR MANIPULATE YOUR SOUL, AND YOURS IS STOIC, AND STRONG. I THINK WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH WAS FAR MORE STRESSFUL THAN YOU GAVE IT CREDIT FOR. TRY TO RELAX A LITTLE, & DE-STRESS.
IF THERE IS ANYONE WHO IS ON DISABILITY, THAT MAY BE A GOOD OPTION FOR CB LOVE. WOULD YOU PLEASE TELL HER WHAT SHE NEEDS TO KNOW, TO MAKE AN INFORMED DECISION IF THAT MAY BE THE THING SHE SHOULD DO?
LOVE YA, freaky
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Post by violet on May 12, 2009 13:29:22 GMT -5
My sweet, sweet fellow Morgies, my heart is just breaking for each of you who are suffering so and who are just pouring out your hearts so honestly, asking why, why, why is God allowing this, and how much does he expect us to take? We are all trying to understand what no human really can, but I do think there is something we can do to encourage and support each other through this struggle, and I wonder if you would want to try it? I wonder if you would like to read a book pertaining to the issue of suffering and then discuss it with each other, perhaps chapter by chapter, on line? Though we don't know the reason for what we are going through, we could gain insight, encouragement, hope... There are a number of excellent books that deal with this difficult issue, one being the following. You can go on site and read a few pages to get a feel for how it is written, to see if it's something interesting to you. We could also consider one or some of Phillip Yancey's books which almost all deal with the same issue. Just let me know, okay? The one at the following site is written by Dr. James Dobson. If you have other suggestions than Dobson or Yancey, please let us know what they are. www.christianbook.com/Christian/Books/product?event=AFF&p=1011693&item_no=82372
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