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Post by violet on May 12, 2009 13:40:59 GMT -5
And just P.S. to my post about the book, I can't think of any book that could be as helpful as what several of you have written to each other, in beautifullly written posts. Just beautifully written from deep down in your beautiful souls. There is so much love here.
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Post by violet on May 12, 2009 13:46:36 GMT -5
I want to share with you one of my favorite poems that I hope touches you as it touched me many, many years ago. I've never forgotten it's profound message.
He said, "I will forget the dying faces; The empty places, They shall be filled again. O voices moaning deep within me, cease." But vain the word; vain, vain: Not in forgetting lieth peace.
He said, "I will crowd action upon action The strife of faction Shall stir me and sustain; O tears that drown the fire of Manhood cease." But vain the word; vain, vain: Not in endeavor lieth peace.
He said, "I will withdraw me and be quiet, Why meddle in life's riot? Shut be my door to pain. Desire, thou dost befool me, thou shalt cease." But vain the word; vain, vain: Not in aloofness lieth peace.
He said, "I will submit; I am defeated. God hath depleted My life of its rich gain. O futile murmuring, why will ye not cease?" But vain the word; vain, vain: Not in submission lieth peace.
He said, "I will accept the breaking sorrow Which God tomorrow Will to His son explain." Then did the turmoil deep within him cease. Not vain the word, not vain. For in Acceptance lieth peace."
~Amy Carmichael
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Post by liatris on May 12, 2009 16:46:01 GMT -5
Bonnie, so glad you are feeling better . Hope we all feel better and better - soon. Hey, Friskers - back at you.
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Post by zabrubon on May 12, 2009 17:17:15 GMT -5
Bannannas, oh my dear one, you sound so sad, like me. I hung my head and cried deeply over your sadness and where you and others like us are. I so understand. I am with you on this whole being down. It is ok. The bible says to cry when others cry, be sad when others are sad and rejoyce when others rejoice. So here we are helping one another out. I so thank God for you and pray would allow you to get better.
More than we can handle comes only through Him. We can not handle it alone. No way. My husband died screaming in pain, and I was so tortured by that. Did he call on God, I have no clue. Maybe, maybe not. I will not know that answer this side of heaven. I understand though it seems tough to handle and scary too. I am scared to die, even though I am a Christian and know what waits for me, I do not want to leave yet. I have so much to live for, but it is not in my timing but His and His alone. I so understand. I love you too and I pray for you and all of us and so wish a million times over that my life had been lived differently. I too would love people more. I try so hard to do that now. It is tough to love others isn't it? Especially the unloveable ones. Maybe I am one of those, who knows, perhaps? You are an inspiration to others in spite of your disease and we all totally love you here. You offer us so much care and good kind words and I thank you for that. Maybe we will not live here on earth all that much longer and maybe we will but our destiney in in God. We will b e with Him. I am in hopes once again for some scientist to help us. Where oh where are our doctors and scientists? I so pray they will hurry and save us. We have something in our blood, it is growing and multiplying and eating us up alive. It plugs up our brain and our central nervous system, it is in control. How to combat it is the biggest question and challenge. How to kill it? Oh how to kill this disease. I hate it with a passion. This invisible death threat. I pray God's speedy hand to free us from this infirmity. Oh God where are you? Do you here us calling YOU? Bannanny please know we love you here and if there is ever anything I can do to help you please please please let me know. Promise all of us you will let us know. May God have mercy on us. ChicagoBonnie
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Post by zabrubon on May 12, 2009 17:33:04 GMT -5
Violet great poem by Amy Carmichael. I looked her up. Here is what I found. Great stuff. www.youtube.com/watch?v=pU-HUGSk2HI Amy Charmichel suffered neuralgia, a disease of the nerves that made her whole body weak and achy and often put her in bed for weeks on end. It was at the Keswick Convention of 1887 that she heard Hudson Taylor, founder of the China Inland Mission speak about missionary life. Soon afterward, she became convinced of her calling to missionary work. Amy was also know to the indian people as "Amma", which means mother in the Tamil. Thank you Violet, that was so beautiful. I had no idea about Amy until today. Thanks for the blessing to us with her poem. ChicagoBonnie
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Post by zabrubon on May 12, 2009 17:34:21 GMT -5
Liatrias, thanks for your blessings too.
ChicagoBonnie
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Post by zabrubon on May 12, 2009 17:37:24 GMT -5
Violet, that is a great idea, i love to read and I love Yancy and Dobson. They are great. I think the library should have that book too. Thanks so much. A good book to read is as good to me as a lobster dinner. Yep maybe better. Chicago Bonnie
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Post by ibzahp on May 12, 2009 19:00:28 GMT -5
Violet The love here ssure is evident and sustaining. Beautiful hearts and some amazing minds. Blessings to everyone. I am hopeful that we will someday prevail in slaying this dragon of Morgellons. ibzahp
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Post by violet on May 13, 2009 10:05:42 GMT -5
Bonnie, I'm so glad you like the book idea! I'd like to offer purchasing the books off of Amazon as a gift for anyone who may be interested in joining in with Bonnie and me. I would just need to be PM'd your mailing address, something I'm not sure you'd want to do, but if you don't feel uncomfortable to share your address, please do so. I would just absolutely love to contribute in this way. I hope others of you will join us. You don't have to be a believer in Christ. We'd love anyone to come on in who has an open heart and a desire to give/receive support through the book and each other.
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Post by violet on May 13, 2009 10:08:15 GMT -5
Violet great poem by Amy Carmichael. I looked her up. Here is what I found. Great stuff. www.youtube.com/watch?v=pU-HUGSk2HI Amy Charmichel suffered neuralgia, a disease of the nerves that made her whole body weak and achy and often put her in bed for weeks on end. It was at the Keswick Convention of 1887 that she heard Hudson Taylor, founder of the China Inland Mission speak about missionary life. Soon afterward, she became convinced of her calling to missionary work. Amy was also know to the indian people as "Amma", which means mother in the Tamil. Thank you Violet, that was so beautiful. I had no idea about Amy until today. Thanks for the blessing to us with her poem. ChicagoBonnie Thanks, Bonnie! I did know she was a missionary and that she suffered greatly herself. It makes her poetry all that more meaningful, doesn't it. The depth of her writings is phenomenal. I'm so glad you liked it. Bonnie, you have such a gift of writing, too. Your writing touches us deep in our souls. Have you ever published in anything? You really should try! :-)
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Post by bannanny on May 17, 2009 1:31:38 GMT -5
Sorry, I haven't been around much so I hadn't read your post. I don't want you to feel sad for me Bonnie... you have enough sadness in your own heart to feel ok? We're just a couple of sadsacks right now, that's all. I'm praying right along with ya that we won't be sad anymore one day too. I'm so sorry about your husband too sweetie. I know it had to cause you an awful lot of pain to go thru something like that as well. Maybe we're being prepared for sainthood guys... well, it's one way of lookin at it anyway!
Every one of us here is an inspiration to each other too, but thank you for your kind words Bonnie. You've been one to me many times as well. I feel very grateful to have every one of you in my life. It's the sharing that gets us thru... it's a blessing to be able to do that here too.
I love you more than I can say... and if there's ever anything I can do for you too, know that I will.
big hugs ~~ bannanny
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Post by zabrubon on May 17, 2009 1:44:47 GMT -5
Saint Bannanny, I see you are on line same time as me. Thank you for your kind words. How can I not feel sad for you? I would feel sad for anyone that goes through pain and sorrow like you have gone through. I hate this disease. Sadsacks is right. Do you have good and bad days? I do. Somedays I feel better than others, I think this disease is goes in cycles. I used to have those darn track marks go up from my cheek to the corner of my eye and the doctor would say I was scratching myself at night. Hahahahahahaha Oh yeah right. Since I take the meds, I have not had a line going to my eyes at all. Oh I guess I quit scratching myself because? Hum no idea. Haha. Anyway, my dear bannanny, may God give you strength through this and heal the corners of your mouth. Going to bed now, talk to you later, Saint ChicagoBonnie
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Post by bannanny on May 17, 2009 22:05:20 GMT -5
Thanks for the strength Saint sister. Yeah, I go thru cycles but I can't say I ever have any days where I don't feel something. It's pretty much 24/7... but when it gets bad (or cycles) is when I really feel tested ya know? The times when you think you just can't take anymore pain and it overwhelmes you. It cycles like that every month, sometimes lasting a week, sometimes two weeks. I'm in the 2nd week of one now. It seems to be easing up a little... I just pray it continues to do so.
How are you feeling now? I hope better... I've been praying for you to be!
love ya ~~ bannanny
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