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Post by kiki on Apr 20, 2010 21:45:56 GMT -5
I'm having trouble finding the right words for Dr. Shoemaker. First and foremost, my respect and gratitude for him far outweigh any disappointment. Deep down, I know I am responsible for my expectations. At no time did he mislead me. So it's not about his integrity. When he said he didn't treat morgellons, it was very easy for me to justify and shrug off as unimportant. After all, after reviewing my med records he agreed to treat me and my history fit his criteria quite nicely. It was like a gift- how great to leave the mystery of morgellons for a more understood and accepted illness. Ahh... the power of denial! I have come to the conclusion that his patients are a means to an end. He seems more interested in proving his theory than in treating patients individual symptoms. What I mean is his goal is collecting data on certain drugs. Only after that will he address individual symptoms. Now that in itself while not great, isn't a dealbreaker. His attitude however forces me to re-evaluate my options. If he was simply arrogant or rude, I could overlook it. It's his habit of ridiculing patients to tears and veiled bullying tactics that leave me cold. I am leaning toward having my primary and neuro drs use his protocol and tweak it as needed. Gosh I can't finish this now. I am so impressed when I read long detailed posts. I don't know why it's such a struggle to write a good post but I really really suck at it. I'll be back tomorrow with more. I'm sorry for not doing better. I promise I'm trying. love, Kiki
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Post by bannanny on Apr 20, 2010 21:54:32 GMT -5
You did just fine kiki! I understood exactly what you're saying... and I tend to agree with you. If all he's interested in is proving theories, he should NOT try to do it using his patients. Plus if his goal is to collect data on certain drugs, he shouldn't be using his patients for that either. Sounds to me like he might just be in business with big pharm on that one. Red flags to me kiki... but that's just my opinion.
hugs ~~ bannanny
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Post by fritolay66 on Apr 20, 2010 23:02:14 GMT -5
Ah kiki,
You did just fine. You may want to break up your post into more paragraphs so it is easier to read for us and you. It will help you keep track of what you want to say.
Most of us break ours up not only for the others reading it, but with M, and similar to lyme, we tend to loose track of what we are saying. So if you can take it paragraph by paragraph it may be easier for you too.
Now about Dr. Shoe,
You said he ridicules and bully's his patients? That is unacceptable. His protocol is all over the net and in his book. If this is what you are experiencing with him, then by all means, have your other docs implement the protocol and they can deal with him, if questions arise.
I came across a protocol by Dr. Loyd, in which he based his natural protocol off of Dr. Shoes. It is an alternative protocol that uses non-prescription herbs and such.
What a crappy situation. You finally feel like there might be some hope, and the docs smart, and could be helpful to your health, but an ass. Thats kinda like being stuck in an abusive relationship. The what if's and should I's can be killer and quite depressing.
I had heard from another poster somewhere else too. Its too bad he can't meld his agenda, his knowledge, and add a little care to his practice all in one.
I am so sorry to hear of this. Please keep us posted on what is going on. Great place for ideas here.
Will say a little prayer for an answer to your dilema.
Frito
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Post by Sidney on Apr 20, 2010 23:20:03 GMT -5
Kiki, I am so sorry to hear this. My advice, for whatever it's worth if anything, take what you have gained, learned, but don't go back for more abusive treatment.
There is simply no excuse and I am horrified. disgusted, and so very disappointed.
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Post by rhorn2006 on Apr 21, 2010 2:26:23 GMT -5
Hey Kiki,,,, it's just my opinion but I would say "DROP HIS WORTHLESS A$$" and find a more professional doctor,, one that won't beat you up every time you see them.. Let's just add "Mr $hoemaker's" name to the "arrogant, abusive, and money-grubbing" morgellons wall of shame!!!
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Post by toni on Apr 21, 2010 8:56:26 GMT -5
Kiki,
I sure agree with what Sid said, about taking what you've learned and going elsewhere.
I know I've sure run across a few bully type doctors in my life, and I just think to myself, what a miserable person they must be to live with, them having such a rotten personality with people - and ...they forget "who is paying for them to be there in the first place".
I think (if they had no patients coming to see them) they'd definately be sitting in their office alone and realizing no matter what they know, doesn't matter because no one will can tolerate their attitude.
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Post by kiki on Apr 21, 2010 14:50:29 GMT -5
I am soooo glad I told you guys. You helped me accept what my instinct already knew. Now I can move forward without doubting the decision. I can and do value his input but that certainly doesn't make me beholden to him. I could deal with his ego- shoot I would have cheerfully fed his ego with just the right amount of smarm. But of course you're right- nothing excuses abuse. And please believe, he was horrid. I called his office to make sure I understood dosing and he was so over the top hateful I thought he was joking- (albeit a poor joke). He tore into me big time--- and in a sarcastic way. He asked why I bothered with appt if I wasn't going to pay attention and made a point of enunciating each word when telling me how to dose. Followed by him snidely asking if I "got it" so he wouldnt have to repeat it. I felt like a humiliated kid. But the worst is he had the nerve to "suggest" that donating to a certain fund would remind me of how many people would love to see him but couldnt afford to. Yes he said that. I was so taken off guard that when I hung up I kinda crumpled/slinked to the floor and bawled my eyes out. When I spoke to him next, he was 100% different. Said how brave I was, etc. I never knew how he would be and would get so stressed that my stomach literally cramped when I had to talk to him. I knew it was unacceptable but made excuses. I guess I wasn't willing or ready to face the fact that he wasn't gonna be the hero I wanted him to be. I'm not being over-sensitive am I?
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Post by Sidney on Apr 21, 2010 15:43:51 GMT -5
Over-sensitive? HELL NO!
Good grief, Kiki........I'll refrain from posting what's running through my mind!
I am over the top shocked.
Thank you for sharing so openly!
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Post by fritolay66 on Apr 21, 2010 16:51:28 GMT -5
Oversensitive?!!! Absolutely not!! Ditch him.
Let your primary and neuro doc's deal with any questions concerning his protocol. Let them talk to him, they are unintimidated by that kind of behaviour.
I am speechless at his behaviour. Well, no not really, I just won't post what I really want to say.
I send many good wishes for you. Will you let us know if your primary or neuro docs are going to step up to the plate for you?
Frito
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Post by Sidney on Apr 21, 2010 17:01:01 GMT -5
Yes, Kiki, we will truly want to know if your doctors are willing to step up to the plate for you! Blessings!
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Post by bannanny on Apr 21, 2010 22:10:30 GMT -5
You're worth sooooo much more than that kind of abuse kiki... it's definitely unacceptable and no, you aren't being overly sensitive. You have such a good heart that you just wanna trust everyone, but I've learned myself it just doesn't work that way. So hold your head up high and go on... you don't need him!
love you ~~ bannanny
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Post by rhorn2006 on Apr 22, 2010 1:04:03 GMT -5
Roses are red,, Violets are blue,, Dump the butt-head, if he's not nice to you!!
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Post by fritolay66 on Apr 22, 2010 11:27:12 GMT -5
Nice Rhorn.
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Post by kiki on Apr 22, 2010 16:18:58 GMT -5
My dr will do anything to help me. She's confident enough to consider options many would not. She's far from reckless but won't hesitate to treat agressively when warranted. She even indulges my fascination with essential oils and herbs and gives me tips.
Ya know, I just realized that I have a better chance getting well with her than Dr Shoe because I trust her. With my life. Of course it could be misplaced trust but the fact remains. I trust her.
I was going to see what Dr James Schaller was all about but just have a nagging doubt about him. Maybe it's not fair to him but when a dr covers it "all" I'm highly suspicious.
I also want to re-visit a link to a clinic that Sidney posted about . I think it was in N.C.?
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