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Post by Acacian Immolation on Jul 4, 2010 14:30:49 GMT -5
First to CTBarb, I would like to take this time right now to make it very obvious how very wrong I was in being so insensitive to what you were/are going through by telling you to have 'some self respect' while you were going through the most unimaginably confusing and disheartening processes that a human being can possibly go through. It was brash of me, and I apologize. I hope this comes across the way I mean it because I am typing this on a crappy phone, the only temporary way that I can post here. I want to tell everybody that I always read here and miss you.. I MISS you guys so much being able tn talk to you i feel so alone. I see you talking and my heart pumps - you're all still trying- iihnm hold on let me port this because i am punching this into my phone dont want it to messthe
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Post by toni on Jul 4, 2010 14:54:41 GMT -5
Since I saw your post here, I thought what you said was very kind, "and reading your post - it was very thoughtful towards all us Morgies". And hi there
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Post by Acacian Immolation on Jul 4, 2010 15:17:25 GMT -5
So we celebrate the 4th of July. This day symbolizes freedom from opression. I know many of you have had it up with my yappings of this being kundalini or holy spirit pentecost or chi or endocrine-spiritual metamorphosis. Regardless, there is no doubt that we are changing. You FEEL it every day & night in your bed - all those new nerves rapidly growing through your head, your face... Your eyes- you feel the Crown of Thorns placed on your head... and the shooting of electricity out the tip top crown of your head.. Eventually there is going to be an action. IMO there will be an effect- to the purpose of what we are changing into. And i believe that these 'affects' that we demonstrate will be VERY VALUABLE to humanity. Very USEFUL to healing world problems. Many of us are nurses and teachers. Is it randomness that brought you to your profession? Or was it the type of soul you are? And if this turns out to be a miraculous gift that takes dreadful pain tn develop- then who better to be then blessed
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Post by Acacian Immolation on Jul 4, 2010 15:39:29 GMT -5
Who better than you to be given healing powers? I know it sounds rediculous now- but if what i think is going to happen- then it will make SO much sense - and the world will CHANGE because of us. One thing... I think that for our last phase of our change- i think we may be rounded up somehow and put somewhere 'safe' like an island or something like bannany's vacation- while the world goes to hell. then we have to use our powers to heal and rescue and help. i know it sounds even crazier than a doc thinks morgs is- but im just saying IN CASE it does- you have something to go off. If we all wake up one day on an island then yell out ACACIAN! if not then ok i am totally off the wall - wouldnt be the first time right? hi toni i missed you.
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Post by friskers on Jul 4, 2010 17:40:48 GMT -5
hello AI I think We are all evolving ,the entire human race IMO ( some a little more slowly than others) That is how are lives are suposed to be , (although we can take a step backwards sometimes) it the natural order of things to evolve and change . Hope your doing well!
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Post by Acacian Immolation on Jul 5, 2010 2:09:48 GMT -5
Hiiii Frisky doll, yes I completely agree. We are always changing. We as a species are always changing. But nothing can compare to the changes that we as morgies experience on a daily basis. You know what I'm talking about right? These fibers that our bodies are producing are shown to have photo-synthesetic properties. We can 'feel' the electro-static field of another morgie when near - i think we are changing faster than others. I think we are changing into the next level of human - by Masonic design. Let me try to find a very interesting link...
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Post by Acacian Immolation on Jul 5, 2010 2:34:14 GMT -5
But what's more important than what's going on in my skin is what has been going on in my HEART. I see people here helping each other out emotionally - and to go through this- without help from friends or family is the challenge of a lifetime -for me ... Its been a difficult time to the point where i wont talk about it even while i feel the sensations of things crawling through my face while talking to someone
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Post by friskers on Jul 5, 2010 11:43:07 GMT -5
Ive never met another person with morgellons that I know of so I wouldnt know about that. My experience has been very different than your AI. I felt like I did most of my spiritual growth and changing( kundulini if you want to call it that) before I got morgellons. But this experience has opened up a whole new world for me as I would have never gotten a computer if I had not had this nor would I have had to change my occupation either .So my world did change dramatically after getting this I'm open to that you are having profound spiritual growth because of morgellons or kunulini but I also think you should be open to that not everyone is going through what you are going through. But hey I wouldn't mind being on a secluded island if your right ;D
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Post by bannanny on Jul 5, 2010 13:47:32 GMT -5
Hey you! It's really good to see you again AI... I wonder about you and what you've been doin. I'm really glad you checked back in... you sound good too, you sound really good!
I know what you mean about not even bringing this mess up when you're feeling all the sensations while talking to someone. Morgs has become a part of who I am and I have to live with it... but it doesn't mean I have to obsess over it and bring it up in conversation. Especially when most people will never be able to understand what it is we're feeling. That's why I decided to just let go and start living my life again and ignore this the best I can. My life's gotten soooo much better for it too. I think once you get your mind right again, it's alot easier to deal with ya know? I'm living life again tho and it's so very beautiful... I'm actually enjoying it for the first time in my life and I thank God, my family, and all of you guys for getting me there. I have to thank Tom too... he's the best thing that's ever happened to me!
Speakin of that island... we're goin back in Feb and if anyone wants to join us there, you're more than welcome to. It's a beautiful and amazing place that seems so full of tranquility... and it doesn't seem to be contaminated to me at all. So start saving guys... it would be so cool if we could all meet up there!
big hugs ~~ bannanny
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Post by Acacian Immolation on Jul 6, 2010 17:50:33 GMT -5
Hi Nanners - I am so happy for you. It is really refreshing to know you're enjoying life and love. I met a girl here and had an incredibly deep and loving 8 months with her. But it ended because the fact that I'm on welfare and every place i apply to doesn't hire me. That wears a relationship down especially when your the man. I was really living again! Dancing, laughing, making love -feeling like i belonged again- so now its difficult with so much depressing heartche - its weird because through the whole past 5 yrs w/ morgs/kundalini ive been feeling more and more love for the world as a whole like the capacity of my heart to love has expanded 100 times but then combine that with heastbreak and its that much more painful. Im becoming more accepting of all these deep emotions i have now but im trying hard not to let them become too overwhelming to where i become too weak to handle them. An old tendency of mine has been to refuse these feelings as being 'un-manly' but i really dont have that much choic
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Post by ctbarb on Jul 9, 2010 12:58:28 GMT -5
Dear AI, When I first saw your post, I didn't want to open another "can of worms", so to speak, so I just avoided you. Then, today, I said, "OK, why not? What could you possibly fear from a posting?" And to my surprise, you changed your heart and apologized to us all! THANK YOU! It takes a special person to realize when one has wronged another and takes back what was said. Again, I thank you personally, and for us all. We've all had enough pain and suffering and to add more to the equation, isn't even acceptable IMO. Welcome back and enjoy our love and comfort here - we are all we have in this world of craziness! There are no better folks on this planet than those who come here and help others to live on and help them to live in a more loving, caring environment. A BIG Hug To All! CTBarb
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Post by bannanny on Jul 9, 2010 17:11:11 GMT -5
You're so right barb! I'm so sorry tho AI that your relationship didn't work out. Love is the most amazing thing we have... but you'll find it again my friend. Just keep your heart open... and with what you said about feeling more love than you ever did before since going thru what we've all been thru, I know you're gonna be ok! I feel the same way you do too... even tho morgs has been the worst thing I ever could've imagined going thru... I've come thru it with so much more than I had before it happened. Every person here (like you said barb) has opened my eyes and my heart to a more beautiful place than I ever knew life ould be. So there's also been alot of good to come out of this journey. I hope we all continue to feel the love we've found thru it all... and I believe we will too.
big hugs ~~ bannanny
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