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Post by bannanny on Jul 12, 2010 11:43:30 GMT -5
Why is it that this mess seems to follow me and then flourish again wherever I go? Everything seemed so much better for me when I first came to Maryland... but now only 2-3 months later, I'm seeing all the sparks and bluish white ribbony hues of light everywhere around me again. I'm feeling the fiber strands and electrical vibrations like crazy again too. These extreme bouts of heat exploding from the top of my head and then flowing down all over my body are more constant than they ever were as well. I was hoping it wouldn't start up again like it has... but it has. Dr. Matthews thinks I'm herxing... and maybe I am. So he had me cut back a little on what I'm taking for now, but it just continues on and on. Is it that replication thing goin on in my body that's made it go crazy again once it became used to the environment I'm in now or what? I just need to get it all out and I so want to understand. Tom is amazing and continues to do everything he can to help... if it weren't for his love and support, I'd be worse. But we both thought things were gonna continue on the path I was on after we got back from St. Croix where I started to feel better than I ever have before. This whole morg mess became so much easier for me than the path I was on in California, but I've started to find myself right back where I was again... and I don't know why. Hmmmmmm... I just re-read what I've written so far here and what I said about it only being 2-3 months later now just made me think about what happened on the base of my scope. That's exactly the same amount of time it took for the growth to peak and finally lift off the base from that tiny drop of gel that oozed out of my finger that day. The gel took hold and started to grow... After 2-3 months when it reached this stage, was when it finally lifted from the base (maybe it takes that amount of time before it explodes)... Here's that same growth below at 10X vs. 60X in the pic above. Look at the long strand on the left side of the pic and you can see it beginning to finally lift from the base where it curves... It was also the same 2-3 month time frame for the second growth to peak after the first growth lifted... I know I continue to post these pics of my scope base, but now I'm really wondering if that's some kind of time line or cycle that takes place? Maybe whatever's inside of me simply needed time to re-adapt to my different environment and that 2-3 month time frame is what it actually takes before you start to feel the effects again... maybe it actually does explode and then begin it's replication process again after that amount of time? Guess it's something to think about anyway. But to get back to where I started with this before that 2-3 month thing hit me... I also wanted to ask if you guys are feeling a whole lot of sensations right now too? Are we all cycling again? love ya's ~~ bannannas
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Post by friskers on Jul 12, 2010 12:21:00 GMT -5
Im really sorry to hear that Bannans. If your taking antibiotics and have candida it can make the candida much much worse or even create a candida issue if didnt have one before . are you on anti fungals at all/? HAS YOUR DIET CHANGED /? These are things that came to mind or maybe its herxing like you said but you would have started herxing earlier than now I would think. Or maybe some things you brought from Ca. in the move were contaminated? what ever the case I hope it passes for you. Love friskers
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Post by toni on Jul 12, 2010 12:28:04 GMT -5
Bannanny you'd asked:
I also wanted to ask if you guys are feeling a whole lot of sensations right now too? Are we all cycling again?
Toni says: Right now for the month of July we are at the new moon stage. Full moons, and new moons I know I can keep a "morg event clock to".
I've got the poppers a poppin out of my skin something fierce right now. It came on yesterday. The sensations are more intense now for the next day or few.
Viral "explosions" my lingo there - don't go away either, they lie quiet for a bit...and reappear. Nothing ever rids them, as they just keep on.
I was reading yesterday more on 'prions' how they get into a cell, and just keep "cycling"...as they continue their havoc.
I'll get something I'd read yesterday be back...cause I found really intriguing and you really might too.
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Post by violet on Jul 12, 2010 12:32:57 GMT -5
Bannanny you'd asked: I also wanted to ask if you guys are feeling a whole lot of sensations right now too? Are we all cycling again? Toni says: Right now for the month of July we are at the new moon stage. Full moons, and new moons I know I can keep a "morg event clock to".
I've got the poppers a poppin out of my skin something fierce right now. It came on yesterday. The sensations are more intense now for the next day or few.
Viral "explosions" my lingo there - don't go away either, they lie quiet for a bit...and reappear. Nothing ever rids them, as they just keep on.
I was reading yesterday more on 'prions' how they get into a cell, and just keep "cycling"...as they continue their havoc.
I'll get something I'd read yesterday be back...cause I found really intriguing and you really might too.
I'm having more lesion goings on than usual. All very painful.
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Post by toni on Jul 12, 2010 12:41:57 GMT -5
Not that I'm saying we have HIV, but... the "concept of the viral particles" is what is nailing this parallel with my thoughts. Because over and over, we think we're on our way out, but then...this all starts it's cycle over again, each time a bit more intense. Believe me, it's only (my thoughts) on the parallel exhibitions, that I'm referring to with Retroviruses here. This is SO interesting, and there's much more. This is just a tid bit, because there's much to read. Details of the life cycle and replication of retroviruses are discussed in Weiss et al., RNA Tumor Viruses, vols. 1 and 2 (Cold Springs Harbor Laboratory 1984), which is incorporated herein by reference in its entirety. FIG. 1 summarizes a model of a retrovirus life cycle. The life cycle of retroviruses is unique among viruses. The cycle begins when an infectious particle enters a host cell and releases two identical RNA molecules. These molecules are "reverse transcribed" by special viral enzymes to produce double-stranded DNA which circularizes and inserts into the host chromosome. The inserted DNA virus or "pro-virus" is structurally very similar to a normal host gene. It is transcribed to produce RNA, like any host gene. This RNA can then be processed in three ways: (a) it can be directly translated into certain viral proteins; (b) it can be processed and spliced, and then translated to produce other viral proteins; or (c) it can be packaged, along with various viral proteins to make a newly infectious particle. In the case of HIV, the infectious particles continuously "bud off" the infected cells and bind to uninfected cells, beginning the cycle over again. www.freepatentsonline.com/5990388.html
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Post by kmarie on Jul 12, 2010 13:07:50 GMT -5
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Post by violet on Jul 12, 2010 13:26:24 GMT -5
Bannanny you'd asked: I also wanted to ask if you guys are feeling a whole lot of sensations right now too? Are we all cycling again? Toni says: Right now for the month of July we are at the new moon stage. Full moons, and new moons I know I can keep a "morg event clock to".
I've got the poppers a poppin out of my skin something fierce right now. It came on yesterday. The sensations are more intense now for the next day or few.
Viral "explosions" my lingo there - don't go away either, they lie quiet for a bit...and reappear. Nothing ever rids them, as they just keep on.
I was reading yesterday more on 'prions' how they get into a cell, and just keep "cycling"...as they continue their havoc.
I'll get something I'd read yesterday be back...cause I found really intriguing and you really might too.
Are any of you also experiencing movement and pain in your lesions (or under you skin, for those who do not have lesions) when cool air hits a lesion?
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Post by toni on Jul 12, 2010 14:32:45 GMT -5
Violet, yes, great video.
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Post by violet on Jul 12, 2010 14:59:23 GMT -5
I'm sitting here at my desk at work just feeling terrible for so many of you who are especially experiencing so much discomfort right now. Nanny, I'm sorry you are going through those awful light and electrical things again (though I'm so happy that you have such a wonderful person to go through it all with you). And Barb, your attitude is admirable about those "things" coming back. I can imagine how discouraging that may be, but you really keep a strong and cheerful attitude in your posts even though I know you must be upset. Toni, ditto for you. I remember several posts where you described how awfully many lesions/spots you have, but you (and Bannany, too) keep your sweetness and cheerfulness through all of this. So many wonderful people--so much hurting.
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Post by morghunter on Jul 12, 2010 17:02:54 GMT -5
Bananny, this is awful news. I was doing a happy dance over your new found joy. Violet, toni, friskers and kmar its true about the return of this misery. I have no lesions but experience everything else that morgellons brings. Mega doses of vitamin C had me feeling eighteen years old until it all came back yesterday.Kmar,perhaps we have Aid's cousin. Bananny, think of St. Croix and try to get back to how well you felt back then. God, help bananny get her good feelings back. Later morghunter.
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Post by freaky on Jul 12, 2010 17:49:22 GMT -5
Dom it. I am so sorry to hear this crummy news. One of the top morgellon's specialist drs., & researcher prescribed this to me. It could help, just don't know. You could ask your doc if he'd give you a script to try. It's Ammonium Lactate 12% cream 385GM. You could rub it around, & see if it might stop some of the sparks. I really wish you would try the liquid horse ivermectin, mixed with acai berry (my suggested drink), but I think you won't find that idea appealing, although I think it really helps - ALOT! But, you could see if doc would consider a script. I have a few other ideas I've thought about, but my brain just quit on me. I'll remember soon. Can you ask the man/woman person for suggestions? Take care Sweet Pea. It will go away. Love you, freaky
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Post by violet on Jul 12, 2010 18:13:34 GMT -5
Violet, yes, great video. Hi there, Toni Beboni. So you feel pain from movement in your lesions when they get hit with a blast of cold air? And which video are you referring to? Hugs and kisses, Violet
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Post by Baraka Obam on Jul 12, 2010 19:19:59 GMT -5
I go after this with vegence, there is not time to leave it alone.
What happens when you go to the skin with scars and plaque with hydrogen peroxide or GSE, in certain situations the results can be a little shocking.
This week while keeping the hidden underskin lesion /TUMORS agitated with hydrogen peroxide 35%, first hidden spots on the hand opened to reveal red material going up a tendon, this was 10 inches from the scar I was treating.
Yes the scar started to show reaction also but when I treated the red material several time the hand blew up. This has happened before, on the legs, face and the hand. The pain that comes from this reaction is monumental, but after it heals everything is better, way better.
It seems like the immune system when brought to the area finally recognizes the invader for what it is.
Once again the feeling of carple tunnel comes alive, already as usual it is subsiding.
There was a time I treated a lesion/TUMOR with antibiotic cream covered with a bandaid, the bandaid coupled with antibiotic cream is a NO NO, if you ever have a lesion go active, start to BURN, you may stop it quickly with DESITIN 40% zinc oxid or you may even try strait zinc from a capsuel.
This reaction from the antibiotic cream and bandaid took the use of my arm from me and caused such agonizing pain that I went to two seperate hospitols. That ccost right around $10, 000 and they told me I wasn't having a heart attack twice, looked at the lesions and said, were not going to give you drugs.
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Post by toni on Jul 13, 2010 0:27:02 GMT -5
Violet, yes, great video. Hi there, Toni Beboni. So you feel pain from movement in your lesions when they get hit with a blast of cold air? And which video are you referring to? Hugs and kisses, Violet Hi Violet Gosh, I should have been more specific. As for the lesions, I rarely get them anymore, maybe 1-3, but the crawlies under the skin (like ants) are horrid right now. Haven't felt this in awhile, but I sure do right now. And when this feeling happens, tiny "white things the size of salt granules begin popping out of the skin all over", but it doesn't burn or hurt...just tingly feeling. And the video that you posted was totally wonderful what medicine has found for a way of treatment..or I guess they're in the midst of it all. Over the weekend I was reading about this and more about how to try and tackle retroviruses/viruses, and it's mind blowing, and brilliant.
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Post by toni on Jul 13, 2010 7:47:29 GMT -5
Violet, Now I see it was your question about the lesions, and Kmar's post with the video. Kmar, I'm glad you posted that video about the retroviruses. It's so important to us all, and from what I'd read over the weekend, it's like a breakthough as far as many untreatable illnesses go, to possibly now being able to treat them. (maybe even our stuff too..or a component of it)?
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Post by bannanny on Jul 14, 2010 15:54:35 GMT -5
Sorry it took me this long to reply... been busy bein brain fogged!
I've gotten in a better frame of mind tho... just ignoring this mess as much as I can. We went to the grocery store today and I got me another bad case of the giggles on the way home. Tom can say something and really get me on a good roll... then I can't stop laughing! It makes everything feel soooo much better too!
Anyway, I'm not on any antibiotics or antifungals either friskers. My diet's changed a little but nothing to speak of that would be much different than the way I've always eaten. I sure hope nothing I brought from California was contaminated, but both Tom and me brought our suitcases back from there and he kept his in my closet. A closet I didn't hardly put anything in cuz that particular one scared me. So maybe that did have something to do with it. But other than that, I haven't brought anything here to Maryland with me. I gave my car to my friends and had a flash drive made of my puter cuz I'm giving it to a charity for people who can't afford them (after it was formatted of course.) Mom's sending my knick knacks I had in my bedroom to me and my pictures will be sent separately. As for my furniture, I really don't have that much that I'm gonna keep. But it's all gonna stay there until the house sells anyway. Then I'll have it shipped out here. But like I said, I gave alot away to friends and charities both cuz I wanted to keep the contamination down as much as I could. So I don't think that's what caused any of this.
I've stopped the meds Dr. M has me on for now and I do feel a bit better, so we'll see where that goes. All I know is if I am herxing, I need a break! I just posted some more info on my "Interesting" thread tho about something Skiz has suggested I try... and I will. It's called ION MIN and it sounds pretty good. I'm waiting to hear back from Dr. Matthews about it but I'm pretty sure I'm gonna go ahead and give it a shot. You guys might wanna look into it too!
I'll get to all the links you guys have left, but I'll have to try tomorrow. It seems I read one thread and I'm done upstairs! Can't get my brain to work even a little it seems! But thank you for all your replies and info. I'm not ignoring you, just need to be able to think in order to read and compute anything... and I ain't thinkin good right now!
I'm so sorry tho that most of you guys are feeling it all too... it sucks huh? We know it'll subside again tho, it always does! I can't wait til Feb when we go back to St. Croix Arni. It really did help so much when we were there... just like Suebe said it would. At least we know there are ways to help... it's just gettin thru these dam cycles is what gets to me (and you guys too I know.)
I did get some Acai Berry juice today when we were at the store freakerdeeks... it's pretty yummy stuff too! Think I'll go make a smoothie with it! I'll ask Dr. M about the Ammonium Lactate stuff too... is it helping you? Thanks for all the suggestions you're always giving me girlfriend... you're the best!
Your experience sounds pretty awful Baraka... sorry you had to go thru that too. I don't have lesions... lots of red bumps and trails etc., but no lesions. My hair's been goin really crazy again tho... which is where it all started for me. I could use something for my skin too... tons of crawling and stinging etc. goin on there... and things popping out all over the place just like you toni. So are you saying you put peroxide on your skin Baraka and that's what gave you the monumental reaction you got? Like I said... it's pretty foggy upstairs right now, so I'm not sure I'm understanding everything you said!
Anyway guys... thanks for all your replies and all your love and support as usual!
I love ya's big bunches ~~ bannannas
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