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Post by glennb on Jan 11, 2012 22:12:26 GMT -5
Two nights ago my dog stumbled into my office in obvious and serious respiratory distress. He was admitted as an emergency into the pet hospital, Cardiologist diagnosed pulmonary hypertension and noted that he had patches on his lungs. He mentioned that the Pulmonary Hypertension could have been brought on by breathing bad air (chemtrails have been befouling our air for around 14 years now)
The doc also mentioned parasites could be causing the problems. Jack tested negative for heart worms but they did not test for other parasites. He also appeared to have a mysterious mass in his ab area. He initially got better but today even though he is still on oxygen his breathing has become more labored. Jack has had a good long life and I am heartbroken about this but decided the best thing to do is to put him down this evening. I could bring him home but I do not want him suffering with the labored breathing.
I am very suspicious that his respiratory problems have something to do with Morgellons and that the mass in his ab area is either fungal or parasitical, also having to do with Morgellons. The vet had never heard of Morgellons.
I have already spent a whopping 3000. on vet bills for this emergency and wish I could afford to have the ultra sound done and more testing to see what is causing Jack's problems but I really couldn't afford to spend the 3000., let alone even more money.
Interesting that I have also been having more breathing problems than usual this week and I also have a mysterious mass in my body that the doctors have yet to identify. My mass is in an inaccessible area in my chest.
I am an emotional wreck right now. I really hate having to go through this stuff, but I guess I signed up for it when I decided to take Jack on as a pet.
My own health has not been great lately so I would deeply appreciate any and all prayers.
Love to all.
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Post by Lynn on Jan 11, 2012 23:18:27 GMT -5
Hi Glennb
Very sorry to hear about your dog. My prayers and thoughts are your way.
In Light Lynn
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Post by sage on Jan 12, 2012 1:53:14 GMT -5
glennb, I think you're doing the right thing, and yes,you are doing what you signed up to do when you " took him on" ...We have the pain along with the pleasure. He will be okay...I hope you can take care of glynn. I am also a sucker for big vet bills. Sometimes it is hard to be realistic. Hope you have someone in The City you can lean on. Peace... sage
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Post by toni on Jan 12, 2012 8:33:36 GMT -5
Glenn,
I'm very sorry to hear about Jack. I too am sending prayers.
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Post by ctbarb on Jan 12, 2012 16:43:42 GMT -5
Dear Glenn, I am so very sorry to hear about Jack and his various illness issues at this time; I know you will do the right thing for your beloved pet and always hold him in your heart as I do our beloved Penny who passed suddently in Oct. I too, spent the big $$$ on vet bills that I couldn't afford, and still the outcome was the same...those of us who love our pets as family members do whatever we can at the time. I am also sorry to hear that you are still not feeling well and are not getting the kind of treatment you deserve or desire. Please know that my love and prayers are being sent to you and also to Jack...He can look for a Chocolate Lab named Penny when he crosses the rainbow bridge...she will be a good friend to him. On some good news...just yesterday I brought home a new puppy into the family! I know I'm taking a chance here, but could no longer get over the horrible grief of losing Penny, and neither could my male Siamese cat. He's been calling for her day and night, not eating and is greatly depressed. So I thought a new friend/companion was the way to go...and thankfully I was right! I found a beautiful, loving and intelligent 10 week old Australian Labradoodle girl that I named Lucy for her red coat. She is so cute, loving and gives kisses so lovingly and freely. Our hearts are on the mend although it will take much more time. God Bless my friend, and our prayers are always with you, CTBarb
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Post by itchin4answers on Jan 13, 2012 1:17:09 GMT -5
Dear Glennb,
Terribly sorry to hear about Jack, so sad. I can only imagine how you must feel losing your loyal friend.
You are in my prayers.
With love xo
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Post by bannanny on Jan 13, 2012 11:37:09 GMT -5
A Dog’s Plea
Treat me kindly, my beloved friend, for no heart in all the world is more grateful for kindness than the loving heart of me.
Do not break my spirit with a stick, for although I should lick your hand between blows, your patience and understanding will quickly teach me the things you would have me learn.
Speak to me often, for your voice is the world’s sweetest music, as you must know by the fierce wagging of my tail when your footsteps falls upon my waiting ear.
Please take me inside when it is cold and wet, for I am a domesticated animal, no longer accustomed to bitter elements. I ask no greater glory than the privilege of sitting at your feet beside the hearth. Keep my pan filled with fresh water, for I cannot tell you when I suffer thirst. Feed me clean food that I may stay well, to romp and play and do your bidding, to walk by your side and stand ready, willing and able to protect you with my life, should your life be in danger.
And, my friend, when I am very old, and I no longer enjoy good health, hearing and sight, do not make heroic efforts to keep me going. I am not having any fun. Please see that my trusting life is taken gently. I shall leave this earth knowing with the last breath I draw that my fate was always safest in your hands.
RAINBOW BRIDGE
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
It's then that you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Praying for you & Jack glenn... and wanting you to know there truly is a "Rainbow Bridge." I know... cuz I was blessed to have been able to visit one beautiful time years ago.
much love ~~ bannanny
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Post by freakydeak on Jan 16, 2012 0:52:45 GMT -5
Nanners always has the most beautiful things to say when we're down , and out, & need to be comforted. I'm so sorry to hear you had to put your dog down glennb. We had to put our wheaten terrier down due to cancer, although it was due to morgellons, & we have another whose been with us for about 12 years we'll probably have to do the same. The only time I saw my husband cry was when my husband really thought I was delusional because a dr. told him so, & when our terrier had to be put down. We both made a scene at the vet's office, & soon everyone was crying. If this is your first dog to have died, it's harder than words can express, although it gets easier each time, although it really hurts. My prayers are with you, & remember when he, or she, crosses the line, there will be comfort.
Love, freaky
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Post by sage on Jan 16, 2012 1:35:06 GMT -5
Very Well Said, Freaky
sage
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Post by glennb on Jan 16, 2012 21:53:36 GMT -5
Thank you all for your kind words and prayers. Jack was put down several nights ago. I brought several treats for him to eat. He gobbled those up but then looked like he was in pain. I could see in his eyes that he was hurting. He died in my arms wrapped in a warm blanket. A friend was with me and helped me get Jack home. He buried Jack in the back yard for me. I have felt Jack's presence every once and a while. Jack was a dog who loved to roam wide and free...and he was a great escape artist. Despite my best efforts he managed to sneak out of the house & run away over 20 times. I am very lucky that I was always able to find him and get him back. I imagine that Jack his roaming all over the place now and stops back here for a momentary visit and then is off again. I am feeling a little better today but still grieving...feel like I have had a lot of loss these past few months. A lifelong friend that I loved a lot died a few months back. Someone I had been romantically involved with for almost 20 years deserted me a couple of months ago and moved away, my son moved out and in with his girlfriend and now Jack is gone.
I admit I am feeling down in the dumps and rather sorry for myself at the moment...hopefully I'll snap out of it in a few more days.
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Post by sage on Jan 16, 2012 22:46:31 GMT -5
In this life I have found no greater pain than affairs of the heart...and I guess they never really go away, we just learn to live with them somehow... sage
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Post by itchin4answers on Jan 17, 2012 4:25:10 GMT -5
Thank you all for your kind words and prayers. Jack was put down several nights ago. I brought several treats for him to eat. He gobbled those up but then looked like he was in pain. I could see in his eyes that he was hurting. He died in my arms wrapped in a warm blanket. A friend was with me and helped me get Jack home. He buried Jack in the back yard for me. I have felt Jack's presence every once and a while. Jack was a dog who loved to roam wide and free...and he was a great escape artist. Despite my best efforts he managed to sneak out of the house & run away over 20 times. I am very lucky that I was always able to find him and get him back. I imagine that Jack his roaming all over the place now and stops back here for a momentary visit and then is off again. I am feeling a little better today but still grieving...feel like I have had a lot of loss these past few months. A lifelong friend that I loved a lot died a few months back. Someone I had been romantically involved with for almost 20 years deserted me a couple of months ago and moved away, my son moved out and in with his girlfriend and now Jack is gone. I admit I am feeling down in the dumps and rather sorry for myself at the moment...hopefully I'll snap out of it in a few more days. The love for a pet is really something huh...I recall my vet saying that years ago. My heart goes out to you glennb. You have every right to feel sorry for yourself, you have endured a great deal in a short space of time. That is a heck of a lot for any person to deal with, let alone one with this disease. It will be 12 months next month our beloved cat Sally died. I have promised myself I will get a kitten next month. I haven't been able to because I've grieved so much for the loss of Sally. Thinking about our pets that have loved us unconditionally through our darkest hours & knowing they are looking down us really does give one strength. Take care xo
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Post by glennb on Feb 29, 2012 0:55:34 GMT -5
Animals are amazing, especially in the unbounded love our pets give us. My remaining dog always wants to be right where I am, sleeps curled up against me or on my feet when I am working and is constant in his affection and love for me. It is sad to think about this one dying too some day as this breed does not have a very long life span, equally sad to think that I might go first and leave him.
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Post by ibzahp on Feb 29, 2012 3:25:49 GMT -5
Im so glad you have that loving , loyal friend there for you now and it is sad to think of losing him-I do think animals are amazing in their ability to love us unquestioningly. Read an interesting book that discusses the subject, mostly about dogs and horses called My Horses, My Healers. It talks about dogs having the capacity for great trust-people are a more complicated lot. I wish I had read this sooner-Really touching post. My sweet Barkley has "asthma". He has spots on his lungs and now his paws are itchy- i hate to think of losing him but very thankful for the time we have together.
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Post by dianna5 on Mar 4, 2012 0:58:19 GMT -5
Glennb,
I'm sorry your heart is hurting for your dear Jack. I'm lifting up a prayer for you now and sending a hug your way... How beautiful are the comforting words sent your way from those on the board.
John 16:22And ye now therefore have sorrow: but I will see you again, and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man taketh from you.
Hugs to you,
Dianna
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