Post by josej on Aug 13, 2012 16:51:09 GMT -5
To all our friends and fellow sufferers,
First, here's the important thing: Please know that just as surely as I'm typing these words, my dear wife KJ is fine. She is more than fine, she's dancing, singing, and rejoicing. All worldly suffering has ended. All tears have been wiped away. And that's the good news.
She died (literally) in my arms.... and went straight into the loving arms of Jesus. She is safe. She is finally free.
Coming into this forum many many years ago, as a total novice with this disease, many of you took us in and gave us the encouragement we so desperately needed to carry on. My KJ was willing to endure public scorn and disdain from doctors in order to bring some national exposure on Morgellons. To what degree did she succeed I will never know. What I do know is that due to the "Body Bugs" episodes we received hundreds of letters and emails from fellow-sufferers who were wasting away in secrecy. The word was out. They felt some liberation in no longer being alone in the dark. And, I believe that KJ and I did touch a few lives along the way.
The past 12 months of KJ's life were the best she'd had. She grew stronger and even a bit self-assured. She'd started to feel pretty and like a girl again. She even started to drive (and as a surprise I bought her a little red car of her dreams). Our love for each other was beyond words. I have never felt such deep love for another as I have for my sweet Kathy. She had learned to play the bass guitar just so she could be in my band. She got SCUBA certified so she could dive with me down in the Keys. I learned to do stained-glass so I could do crafts with her. And that's how it was. Crazy glued at the hip. And she was the only person I ever wanted to be around with. So, she was doing really well..... and that's when I lost her.
Now that I've had a few days to compose my thoughts, I can see that God spared her much suffering. She didn't die alone, she went quickly in a matter of seconds, and she was spared any type of long hospital stay with tubes and machines... wishing for death. These are blessings which only now I'm beginning to appreciate.
But I shouldn't say I lost her. I know exactly where she is. She is in heaven in the presence of her lord and savior Jesus Christ where she will be for all eternity, and someday I will join here there. So, although my heart has been crushed to pieces and I am constantly mourning, I do not grieve as those who have no hope for I know I will see her again.
One last note of thanks to those of you who have reached out to me during these dark and heavy days. I love you. I send out my best wishes and blessings to you all.
Jose J
First, here's the important thing: Please know that just as surely as I'm typing these words, my dear wife KJ is fine. She is more than fine, she's dancing, singing, and rejoicing. All worldly suffering has ended. All tears have been wiped away. And that's the good news.
She died (literally) in my arms.... and went straight into the loving arms of Jesus. She is safe. She is finally free.
Coming into this forum many many years ago, as a total novice with this disease, many of you took us in and gave us the encouragement we so desperately needed to carry on. My KJ was willing to endure public scorn and disdain from doctors in order to bring some national exposure on Morgellons. To what degree did she succeed I will never know. What I do know is that due to the "Body Bugs" episodes we received hundreds of letters and emails from fellow-sufferers who were wasting away in secrecy. The word was out. They felt some liberation in no longer being alone in the dark. And, I believe that KJ and I did touch a few lives along the way.
The past 12 months of KJ's life were the best she'd had. She grew stronger and even a bit self-assured. She'd started to feel pretty and like a girl again. She even started to drive (and as a surprise I bought her a little red car of her dreams). Our love for each other was beyond words. I have never felt such deep love for another as I have for my sweet Kathy. She had learned to play the bass guitar just so she could be in my band. She got SCUBA certified so she could dive with me down in the Keys. I learned to do stained-glass so I could do crafts with her. And that's how it was. Crazy glued at the hip. And she was the only person I ever wanted to be around with. So, she was doing really well..... and that's when I lost her.
Now that I've had a few days to compose my thoughts, I can see that God spared her much suffering. She didn't die alone, she went quickly in a matter of seconds, and she was spared any type of long hospital stay with tubes and machines... wishing for death. These are blessings which only now I'm beginning to appreciate.
But I shouldn't say I lost her. I know exactly where she is. She is in heaven in the presence of her lord and savior Jesus Christ where she will be for all eternity, and someday I will join here there. So, although my heart has been crushed to pieces and I am constantly mourning, I do not grieve as those who have no hope for I know I will see her again.
One last note of thanks to those of you who have reached out to me during these dark and heavy days. I love you. I send out my best wishes and blessings to you all.
Jose J