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Post by Lynn on Jun 23, 2013 10:21:50 GMT -5
Hey
Feeling like odd man out. I know much of this I bring on my self. But you can tell when folks are a little leery of you. Sense sharing some of the aspects of the disease and being seen as a bit off centered. Just makes one the odd ball. Family cares about me and are nice to me. Yet feel like I am being held at arms length away. I guess if they think you are crazy and they can not handle that in their life that would happen. Unfortunately it makes me have hurt feelings and feeling isolated. I have been privately tearful over this. Scolding myself and wishing they could spend my worst three days in my shoes. I know folks here get a whole lot of those kinds of situations and will feel the pain and understand what that feels like. Glad I have folks to turn to. I need to talk to my best friend but the house has ears and do not want to share my feelings with them. So even though I enjoyed seeing in-laws. My guts were picking up slight signals. Am I being too sensitive. I asked the hubby if certain persons like me and was revealed a old conversation about me that verified the signals I was getting. Wish I knew how to get around that to have closer family ties with in-laws. Not feel so left out. But they live far so not something you get to work on day to day. Maybe every five years or so. Can not do anything with that. Unless over the phone.
Wish I could get over myself when letting things in and probably should not. If back when this first hit and had been capable to keep quiet, but that could not happen I was scared out of my mind and was grabbing for a life line every which way which results in situations like this.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by imblownaway on Jun 23, 2013 22:30:41 GMT -5
I too wish I would have had the strength not to say anything at first. not our falult it was impossable. scared out of my mind yep. Not to mention trying to warn the world and protect others. Once they started to bleieve (som of them) I could see the fear in their eyes. I could see the love they had and that they we at a total loss on how to handle the situation. I really don't know what anyone thinks anymore because I never bring it up anymore. I think most of them have short term memory loss or something LOL. I quit talking about it and life went on like normal which is for the best I think. I also regret spending so many days in fear. so many days trying to find answers and cures. For me I had to let it go. Sorry i gott to cut this short
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Post by absurdlyhaywired on Jun 28, 2013 22:31:33 GMT -5
HI- I'm an oddball too, and always sitting right behind the 8 ball. ALWAYS it seems. - I wanted to give a quick synopsis of my past few weeks. None of these symptoms are new. Painful plastic growing non-stop mostly on face. This time not creating lesions but the indentations. PAINFUL stuff. Just as ugly as lesions. Really bad on/around lips for a few days-currently just lower corners- This stuff must be removed constantly and I can't really do that. Bad headache for days- itching deep inside head-ear, jawbone area. Lungs don't seem to want air or have no room for air. Strange brain fog thing is extreme upon awakening-if it's going away on a certain day and I can stay awake it takes hours and hours to clear a little. Headache stops but now my hearing is much decreased-you can probably hear my tv wherever you are. And the feverish clammy coldness alternating with overheating sweats. Then the bad heel pain where I can barely walk. And the extreme fatigue. For no reason I know ,my arms have "cleared". Back of forearms were very bad for a couple years. Strange that they look clear now,with no scarring. Knuckles stopped growing like wildfire. Wrists and lower forearms are threatening right now. I also feel a dizziness-type symptom while sitting/lying quite still. And it is not vertigo. I know I'm probably leaving a few dozen things out but I hate feeling like that complaining sick person that everyone hates to see coming. And my video maker is on the fritz too. I can't begin to attack that problem yet, but last night I did try it again-got a few still shots. I wanted to see a particular specimen that'd been ripped out of my face. No surprises there, same weirdness, but I was bored I guess and I awkwardly pointed a little red laser on it. I know I'm not the first to have done this but this time I witnessed the synchronized flashings otherwise unseen. Without the laser I could see there was action but nothing like the excitement the laser showed. Anyone experienced with this, could/would you please explain to me what that was? Maybe just another fluke-but it was a nice little exciting distraction for my evening. I'll post a few still pics, but they can't really show you much- just give you an idea of it. It was looking just like a field of glowing lava. And I held the laser as still as I could for the photos. I'll try my other laser and a better set-up if I do this again. This was another of my spur of the moment activities.
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Post by absurdlyhaywired on Jun 28, 2013 22:33:23 GMT -5
Without laser(left photo) With laser(right photo)
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Post by absurdlyhaywired on Jun 28, 2013 22:34:45 GMT -5
both with laser
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Post by absurdlyhaywired on Jun 28, 2013 22:36:51 GMT -5
Without laser(left photo) With laser(right photo)
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Post by absurdlyhaywired on Jul 26, 2013 9:53:59 GMT -5
Hi torpedo-I think you're going to be alright. I get all of those symptoms. Have you heard any crackling sounds deep in the ears? So why would the doctor not give you any anti-fungal medication? The antibiotics can't address a fungal infection. Don't forget to take your probiotics! If it's anything like what I have it'll ease up soon- - -mine goes in cycles. I know exactly what you mean by the heavy arms. Mine are that way now and it's an effort even to type. And the different headaches-yep. My scalp went bad this week-it's a bloody painful mess.
You are always in my prayers and I'm wishing you much peace. Hang in there lovely lady. Can you sleep? Maybe you can sleep through a lot of it.
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Post by skytroll on Jul 26, 2013 14:18:50 GMT -5
Torpedolynn,
We are all oddballs, and those who say they are not, are lying to themselves. This is an oddball world. Most people around us, simply do not understand this syndrome. But, please get plenty of rest, and know we are with you in this. We have, over the years reached out to others who have this, because we understand. We will continue to uncover this as we find the plans that were made to alter man/woman and the environment.
These secret endeavors to change the very natural human into something unnatural or even inhuman, making us all part of the earth both inorganic and organic, is not from our higher power. So, exposing this evil is what we plan to do. Bit by bit. I have had this since 1991, and evidently they have been at this since the 70s without regard to risks that left us with the components of this experiment.
So, by addressing the fungus, eat less root veggies, more greens, wash with vinegar, rinse well, this has helped me. Less breads, sugars, starches since this adds to yeast/fungus. There is much mold now in potatoes, carrots, and root plants, so try eliminating them for a while. Peel fruits, less carbonated drinks etc. these things have helped me over the years.
But, we can overcome the worse of this. We have been there. How long have you had this Torpedo?
Sky
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Post by skytroll on Jul 26, 2013 14:23:44 GMT -5
Absurdlyhaywired,
Those are excellent images. See the podia at end of organism, that is what anchors to bone, nerve or cell somehow. It has to be from a minimal cell that has this hyphae type protrusion. Within that is the rhizome type root, it seems. I find these as the attachment filopodia, which makes this hyphae part of the initial growth.
Very good images. I have found this form over and over, head sometimes looks like a rose, or the head of a worm, yet the podia is what attaches to organs.
S
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Post by Baraka Obam on Jul 27, 2013 10:26:27 GMT -5
Hi Absurd Doing better this afternoon. Could actually eat a little soft food. I get a tick tick tick puff deep in my ears. Like something it making a noise before it pops. Sometimes singular and other time in groups of ticking a popping. The medicine the Dr. prescribed; He said is the only one that can kill fungus and virus inside the ears even though taken orally. I believe it. Everything now has a salty almost matalic taste. I am not allowed to take any of my herbs with it. My other prescription meds I have to take 2 hours or more later then the antibiotic. Hi Skytroll I hear you. I gave up Soda years ago way before I got ill because I was having side effects from it. Rarely drink a have glass a beer or any alcohol, so no salt no sugars no caffeine, and no foods that turn to sugars. I have so little I can eat it is a wonder I am overweight at all. It has been a real struggle balancing out my eating then not be able to eat because the ears are nearly swollen shut. Medicine is working and I survived the side effects so far. I just hope the usual hang over headaches do not start up that I get from all medications. The ear problems started with Morgellons and it feels like bugs crawl into them and start attacking. I can even count how many go into each ear though I grab and nothing is there. This latest ear issue started two months or more ago. I first try to ignore it hoping it will pass and it never does. By the second or third day my ears start swelling and are sore from all the biting. Then I treat with Pr oxide and that only give very temporary relief and then I try to drown them with Olive oil and that soothes the soreness, but does not stop it. Then I hit it hard with herbal remedy's and then that does not work so I stop and go back to tinier amounts of peroxide and rubbing alcohol on Q-tips and then that's when things got really bad. Thank all for your support. In Light Lynn This is what I did and it worked like nothing else, there is a side effect that is hard to take but this may not happen while taking antibiotic, WHO KNOWS I certainly do not. All I know is there is NO itching in the ears. I put GRAPEFRUIT SEED EXTRACT in the ear canal, this caused a ear ache, at the point the ear ache developed I stopped, let it recover, then I did it again let it recover, after the third time no more issues at all, except for the tinnitus, ringing in the ear. I also in between the dousing with GRAPEFRUIT SEED EXTRACT used 35% hydrogen peroxide, once the ear canal was treated with GRAPEFRUIT SEED EXTRACT, this certainly was not fun. I do not suggest anyone use the risky, painful and possibly dangerous items I have used, just mentioning how I finally got relief. I suspect the GRAPEFRUIT SEED EXTRACT brought immune response to the area, I imagine the 35% hydrogen peroxide burnt out the pathogen by exuding so much oxygen, OXIDATION. The fact of the matter with hydrogen peroxide, I have never found low grade (store Bought( 3% hydrogen peroxide to do anything positive, 35% was the one that got results for me, although painful I will trade the pain for lasting results any day. The skin results with these items was lasting and near permanent, although so painful if I had to do it over again to the massive amount of involvement I had, I think I would not be standing on this planet. I am sure when St Peter scanned me with his smart phone he would say, whats this guy doing here, he has already been to hell. yeah.
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Post by Baraka Obam on Jul 27, 2013 16:19:06 GMT -5
The word would be GRAPEFRUIT SEED EXTRACT
NOT GRAPE SEED, THE GRAPE SEED STUFF I HAVE USED DID NOTHING. I JUST GOT DONE PUTTING SOME IN MY EARS, WANT TO SEE EXACTLY WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN. I AM GONNA BET THERE IS NO ISSUE, 35% HYDROGEN PEROXIDE DID NOT BOTHER MY EARS TOO MUCH EXCEPT FOR MASSIVE BUBBLING AND A BIT OF PAIN. THEN I COULD NOT SAY IT WOULD BE THE SAME FOR YOU, AFTER TREATMENT NOTHING REALLY BOTHERED ME BECAUSE IT HEALED.
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Post by Baraka Obam on Jul 30, 2013 12:33:59 GMT -5
This is very odd the posts are not posting!!!
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