JLR
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Post by JLR on Aug 5, 2005 14:53:43 GMT -5
The Schwartz book explains that somehow we aquire this bacteria which eventually turns us into a virtual motel for various insects including spiders. I've read that some peole have noticed an odor to themselves, maybe this attracts them?
Before all my symptoms started I would get this clear long hair-like thing that seemed to grow from my forehead overnight. I had never noticed it before until oneday I saw it at an angle. I pulled it off thinking it was perhaps a white hair growing in but was puzzled how I never saw it before because of its length. This happend twice again and I havent seen it since.
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Post by ebgbgms on Aug 6, 2005 2:10:26 GMT -5
Im so sorry we all have to go through this. These terriable things r happening and u r very brave Hope. Many people have talked of the spider web in one way or another. I dont' think I have had this symptom yet, but when u all post about it and if it does happen that makes it allot easier to handle. Love u and take care.
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Post by bb on Aug 6, 2005 8:25:30 GMT -5
Maybe two years before I was infected, I was having lunch with my sister and she reached up and plucked a seven-inch hair from my check. Now I know it probably was a creature.
Also, I had not mentioned it before, but there are times I feel like a large, extremely thin, spider is sitting on my head, mostly in my hair, moving enough to just peeking out to see what's going on outside the darkness under my hair.
Then there's the spiderwebs I walk through every morning. One time I felt not only the web but a tiny bug. I realize it may have nothing to do with morgellons.
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Post by Lisa on Aug 6, 2005 15:11:26 GMT -5
I believe there is something to the webs. Prior to October, the house we lived in had strange webs throughout. One night I turned off all the lights and walked around with a flashlight. I was so freaked at what I saw, I woke my husband up to come look with me. We couldn't see them during the day, but there were patches of webs in low traffic areas. If you looked closely at them.....gets really weird here...there were tiny fibers moving all over them, as if they were producing the webs. They would be on top of the strand and swing around to the bottom and up again. No air current...they were moving independently....with a movement similar to an inchworm. They were not worms...they were clear to white in color, tiny filaments No spiders around either.
We moved to another city and just like the old house, I see these things inside and outside of our new house as well. In our dining room, if you looked at the right time of day, you could see one long strand of stuff going from one side of the room to the other. It's also in this room where if the sun shines just right, we can see an abundance of fibers floating all around....even with the air cleaner on. I hate to get the mail because I walk through wispy webs on the front porch and then I find them on the mailbox (those could be spider related).
For those that find these webs without the spiders, look real close at them. It's best with a flashlight in the dark. We also see these luminescent dots along the strands too. This is one of those moments where I feel weird talking about this stuff, but what I see is real and the hubby can't deny it either.
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Post by itchingntexas on Aug 13, 2005 1:33:44 GMT -5
Wow. I met a man who lives here and served in the military. He told me in no uncertain terms that the chemtrail stuff is real, and that he believes it. He has seen it. His comment was, "Well, what do you think they do with all the left-over junk--biological warfare, bad experiments, etc. ? They just dump it." ...Scary, or what??? Thanks for such an informative post.
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Post by bannanny on Aug 13, 2005 4:13:09 GMT -5
I have the identical web thing going on as you Lisa, and alot of the tiny star-like fibers floating almost everywhere now. I also have specks of "glitter" all over my skin when I feel the webs on me and try to get them off, which only seems to make it worse. I think the glitter looking specs are the dots from the fiber web. I'm seeing them outside now, like you, when the sun hits just right. On the wood porch railings there will be one single long web but they are so hard to keep in your sight, I can't find the beginning or end of it. And in one of the Rosemary plants, there's what looks like a web made of hair attached to another hair with one of those things that look like a little ball of muddy fibers and some of the tiny yellow white pods and the starfish looking thing, all in this web. I checked it today and now the gunky looking ball of fibers has what looks like cotton growing on it, or coming out of it, I'm not sure. Things just keep getting stranger and stranger. I don't know if you guys have seen this page or not, I just came across it last night. I think it's pretty damn interesting..... www.carnicom.com/micro2.htmTake it easy and take care guys ~~ bannanny
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Post by Intopeace on Aug 19, 2005 4:01:39 GMT -5
My nickname has been Spiderwoman. Has anyone ever thought that the "Webbing" could be our Mennigis? They are attached right at the tips of the eyebrows and follow to the spine and to our feet. I am going to look and see what happens when they become infected. They also transfer info to the nervous system and spine and deal with balance, periphereal, hearing, eye etc
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Post by cgintx on Aug 21, 2005 0:40:29 GMT -5
I have the webs. They seem to have traveled up from the back of heels on my feet, up legs and torso, split to multiples near breasts, wound so tightly around my neck and ears that I have deep lines that look like scars from incisions. They are mainly active on my head, eyes and nose. There are identations behind each ear, this seems to be where they "grow" from. I can cut them off, but they are back in hours. I had long hair to my waist in December, my hair began "shrinking" in length and getting thinner. I cut it all off to a few inches in Jan. and I had patterns on scalp that made a band from ear to ear across the top of my head. I totally freaked out and shaved the remaining hair off. Now almost all growth is white and not real hair, also my new hairline goes completely to eyebrows in temple area. I also have tracks were the scalp skin appears to be sewn together, like folding fabric together and sewing a "pocket". I can cut these apart and it makes a wretched cutting sound, almost like sawing wood. These trails are overlapped all over scalp. I have threads that are many feet long that seem to go into these pockets and hide, I can feel the movement and precise locations when they move. They especially move around when I apply something they hate. The past month, I've had a swollen looking area above one ear. I cut apart all of the trails in that area and applied cortisone (over the counter) cream. The cream spread into the trails only and the swollen area began expelling white "rice looking" particles that were no longer sticky, as usual. This seems to be killing them as the swollen area has gone back to normal. But I cannot get rid of the indentations where they seem to grow from. I do not have lesions, but have been aflected by the fibers for 2 years.
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Post by Intopeace on Aug 21, 2005 2:26:09 GMT -5
Hope, I know what you mean about the touching one spot and can even have the sensation on your foot. I will explain later about the meningis.
cgntxs- I'm glad you have no lesions. How puzzling though. Your description of the Webs and hair loss and the activity sounds just like mine. I have small round circles up and down my arms and legs. I have 4 wounds. 3 in a row on right thigh. 1 on left baby toe. That was my shaving experience. They bled like I was dying and now they are horrible scars. Then the web came.
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Post by cgintx on Aug 21, 2005 4:27:32 GMT -5
Hope, Intopeace and All,
I have tried most of the herbs and remedies that have been posted. I'm allergic to most antibiotics and am afraid to try. I cannot find a Doctor and am afraid to keep going to them and being told that I have scabies, etc. I work for a major corp. and am deathly afraid they will see DPO on my records, I can't loose my job and have been hanging onto it for dear life this year. My spouse doesn't believe there is anything wrong with me, he won't even think about anything he cannot see, he thinks I'm going crazy, (after 27 yrs. together) he thinks I simply do not wish to work any more and that this is my way out. I was moving rapidly up the upper executive ladder and now I'm lucky to still be working. I need the job due to benefits and all I make goes to savings and filing single for income tax withholdings, he is self employed and has no benefits, etc. My marriage is in the crapper and I've gotten to the point that I almost no longer care, mostly due to his handling of my illness. I have 4 boys, all are grown and out of house, so I don't have to worry too much about giving this to them. One of my Sons, believes that I have this disease, two don't mention it and one lives in Iowa and has not seen me in 2 yrs.
I can't find a doctor here to help, Ginger Saverly is not taking new patients. I live in central Texas, Round Rock - a suburb of north of Austin. If I could find a doctor, I'd try the antibiotics. I seem to be allergic to many of the herbal and other topical remedies that I've seen posted. Tea tree oil makes it go crazy. When I use it on my head, face or neck, the threads around my neck and ears will tighten up so severely that it will cut my skin until I bleed. I've had my ears turn purplish-blue from lack of blood flow.
Right after I shaved my head and started wearing a human hair wig to work (after 5 days with no hair on head), the threads went crazy as soon as wig was on head, like they were sooo thrilled to have some hair again. I could actually see them moving the wig hairs around, that was the weirdest thing I've ever seen and totally flipped me out. When I first started wearing wigs, they would "freak out" when I removed them by waving around in the air as if they were trying to find the wig hair. Once when they were waving around like that, I sprayed some of that neon colored temporary hair color (like kids use at halloween) in the air slightly above my scalp. It stuck on the invisible threads and colored them, as I sprayed more, I could see how long and how many were there, one had to be 3 - 4 ft. long! The dye stayed on them till I washed head and I could see them moving around in the pockets, what a frightening site. Of course my spouse would not look! I'm rather certain that he has this beast also, he is always scratching his head and he seems to have the wild hairs that appear to be searching for something. I actually think that he may have brought this home to me in the first place. He does flooring and is always in old carpeting, dirty houses and apartments and the tubs/showers as he also does tile work. I cannot recall how I could have gotten this unless it entered my heels, which were rough and calloused while in gardening clogs working in dirt. And I used to garden a lot before this took hold of me, so if it's a soil - borne menace that could be reason. Another possibility could be where I work, 1,000's of people, many from India, China, Far eastern countries, etc. A cat bite me 12 yrs. ago in thigh slightly above knee, rather deep punctures, cat did not have feline disease. Other than those possibilities I have no idea, but I guess that's plenty of opportunities to catch most anything!
I have had small round holes occur after shaving legs that bled rather copious amounts, I'm sure those were attachment points for vector and I cut them off while shaving?? I also had threads that wound around wrists and ankles tighten up until they broke skin, I have scars there now - spouse thinks I cut myself because nothing could do that on it's own, except a human.....someday he'll see what's on his own body and be horrified as I have been.
If anyone has remedies, etc. that I should try, please make me aware. And if anyone is in my area that knows of a doctor, please, please, let me know. If I loose my job, I'll have to get out of the house and quite frankly I have no where to go because I don't want to give this to my kids or other family. I'd have some funds after fight/divorce, but that would only last so long, especially when I would have to pay for health insurance myself. I have long term disability policy I pay extra for through work, but a doctor would have to approve, I don't think DOP would get me there, if it would and/or can, point me in that direction.
I feel tremendous guilt going to work and possibly exposing others, but as Mary told me, no doctor has found anything wrong with me, besides so - called scabies and eye infections. I still wish I did not have to be at work, I'm very modest and keep to myself even without this vector, this only amplifies that and makes me even more self conscious.
Thanks all for letting me rant, I've held off so long in posting due to fear of spouse finding out and ridiculing me further, guess I've gotten to point of not caring what he thinks or says any longer, guess that's a good, full step forward finally.
Thanks all, God Bless
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Post by bannanny on Aug 21, 2005 6:01:03 GMT -5
Dear cgintx,
First off, you don't have to thank us for letting you rant! God knows, we are some of the world's finest ranters here at the morg! So you rant on any time you feel the need to do it.........just read some of my posts.......ranting at it's best!!!
I wanted to say I'm so sorry your husband doesn't (want to) understand. I know it makes this disease so much more difficult to live with when those who love you are the ones in denial about it. I guess it's a weakness in some folks, but there's no room for weakness with what we HAVE TO deal with 24/7. Sometimes you feel so alone...........but don't. We're all in this together and I think we'll always have each other. Maybe one day, we'll have a Morgellons Survivors cruise! Paid for, of course, by all the wonderful dr.s who never shelled out a dime, but charged us all up the ying yang for their lovely diagnosis's of Morgellons as DOP!!!! Be nice, eh?
Anyway, I'm also sorry that I can't give you any remedies, other than what's on these forum pages.....I have so very much the same things going on with me as you have. I've tried alot of the remedies everyone has been so great with giving, but this hair, scalp, head thing seems like it's gonna do whatever it wants to do no matter what we do to try and get control of it. I don't mean to sound negative.........I'm just being realistic, as far as I go. I don't know what to do anymore myself. But read thru the forum threads, something may help you. I pray you'll find something to ease the sob's up. Like our friends here say...what may help one, may not neccessarily help another, so you just gotta try whatever you feel might help. I'm going to do what Orion suggested and said helped him alot. That is alternating each day with rubbing salt, and the next day, peroxide into your scalp, leave it on for a bit, then do your regular shampoo routine. Haven't tried that yet, so I'll give it a shot! Nothing can hurt, right?
Hey, maybe your husband is just scared and doesn't want to see what this is doing to you because he has no way to help you. My mom is like that, and altho I'm 51 yrs. old and she's my mom and not my husband (don't have them anymore....had 2....that was more than good and plenty), I know it makes you feel like hell that they just can't seem to get the fact that you're being attacked by something more than horrific, but some people just simply can't......especially someone who loves you. Well, hang in there my friend, and know that we all care about you deeply ~~ bannanny
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Post by Lisa on Aug 21, 2005 6:52:43 GMT -5
cgintex, I live about an hour north of you. I know all too well about the hair experience. If you want to email with me, I would be more than happy to. I registered here at the board a long time ago, but had problems with my password and never followed up. I need to get that fixed. Patti or Kerry(board moderators) have my email address.
I also have had spontaneous cuts happen. At first I thought I must have gotten a paper cut or scratched myself doing something and wasn't aware of it at the time. Then when it kept happening, I sensed it was something else. When I woke up to a very long cut in the center of my back, I knew then that the other ones were part of "this thing". There was no way I could have caused it myself.
I see Ginger and I'm slowly working in the antibiotic Ketak. I'll ask her next time who would be the next closest doctor someone could see other than her. There seems to be a lot of us with this crud from Texas. Some of the others that post here are from Llano, Burnet, Austin, east TX, and so on.
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