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Post by freaky on Jul 27, 2007 3:52:24 GMT -5
Patty, you're too much. Thanks for your knowledgeable reply. I have the utmost respect for you, & all you say. Thanks for taking the time to help me try to focus, as soon as I get the pig pen in order. I am beginning to realize it's a dead end street, so I shall let my man with whatever agendas he has up his sleeve, & ignore his wrongful doings upon his sweet wife who just wanted her friend, her confidant, the support I'm not going to get, and focus on me. ME. Myself, & I. I've done that before, & it was better for me.
And, thanks Toni, you are always so even headed. I start going in circles sometimes, & it always helps to hear your words of wisdom. Bedtime again. Jim got home about 2;30 , or 3;
tHANKS EVERYBODY FOR ALLL YOUR HELPI FREAKY
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Post by bannanny on Jul 31, 2007 14:42:38 GMT -5
Hi freakers.......Boy, I hate that you're going thru this. Having morgs sure is downright lonely sometimes....... mostly becuz of the wierd kinds of rejection we can get (like what you're dealing with) from the people we're related to, married to and from friends too. There are also the people who do believe you and seem to care, but even they soon become overwhelmed by the simple mention of the "m" word.......so overwhelmed with the sci-fi talk that they seem to forget about the simple word support. Lonely it gets....... plus we're being rejected by the remaining un-morgified people in this world. I guess it's becuz morgs is just too far off the map from normal for someone who doesn't have it to even be able to comprehend any reality of it. It's waaay to far from the normal, safe place of everyday life they've always known....... the same way of life we used to know and feel safe in. Rejection and denial.......It's becuz of the sci-fi end of this and I figure with the people we're close to it's becuz they love us but they can't do a dam thing to help us. That stirs up alot of fear and anger inside of them just like ours, but different. They find it easy to be angry at something you're feeling that they aren't feeling becuz in their minds, it simply doesn't exist. Unfortunately, I think that might be the reason they can end up subconciously re-directing that anger right back at you, ....... cuz you're real. With your hubby, it may also be that he's probably bottling up issues of his own (pun intended) and keeping them hidden by way of the booze. Given all that, it's made you a perfect target for him to take his own anger out on so he doesn't have to deal with it himself. I don't think he'd be acting quite as bad towards you if he wasn't already angry with his own issues. I've started to look at the people who become angry about morgellons as it being a weakness in them....... and ya know what freaky? That made me realize that those of us who have morgellons seem to be the ones blessed with a ton of good things. We're incredibly strong, we're not afraid of the unknown (if we are we still confront it head on), we have tenacity, we deal with this becuz we have to....... and we aren't running away. We haven't made the choice to become weak, and we have an above normal amount of compassion inside of us, no matter what the issue is. You'd never treat anyone like your husbands been treating you, would you? I think not. Try to remember that the way you are is a gift and don't allow others weaknesses to make you feel alone....... they're the lonely ones, they're the ones running away from it all. I know it's helped me to think this way so I hope in some way it will help you too. Anytime you wanna talk....... I'm here for you. I'll pm you my phone#, k? k! I love you ~~ bannanny
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