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Post by kiki on Aug 24, 2007 4:01:05 GMT -5
As you know, Toni has relayed some info for me when I just couldnt manage to do it myself. Carrie- I didnt forget that you offered to talk to me too and bless you for that. It wasnt till I talked to Toni (rambled on and on is more like it) that I fully understood how I was hurting myself by my withdrawal from the world. In the first 5 minutes talking to Toni, I said something- dont even remember what- she said "I can hear the pain in your voice". Simple words that opened my eyes. I told her that I knew I was in a form of denial- told her my way of surviving this was by refusing to participate in life. It was like "if I dont live my life, its not really happening to me" so I'll just drop out and wait it out". i dont know if that makes since cause obviously it "just dont work that way". Her warmness was my AHAH moment. This isnt some dirty little secret I need to hide...I AM ILL. I am also a fighter. I never thought of myself as a quitter but I quit on me. Well...no more. Not gonna continue to take from this board without giving. Ive kinda been an all or nothing person but see the folly in that. I may not be able to change someones situation, but Ive been given far more in life than some and I can certainly help enough to make that situation more bearable. Whats the best way to find that person?
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Post by liz on Aug 24, 2007 4:41:22 GMT -5
Toni has been a guardian angel for a lot of us....she is very special indeed... . Remember Vivi...sometimes when someone gives you therapy it also helps them as well....I know when I spend time talking or helping someone it also helps me....does that make any sense...you are safe with us... I took a lot from to board when I came...threatening to commit suicide...scaring everyone to death...I didn't even know you could get PM's on here so I had so many by the time I figured it out...and I was so touched....so I owe alot back....and the suicide threat...unfortunatly I was hit with calls from folks wanting to join me....and I felt guilty about posting that...so I will pm someone if that happens again.. So I try to be the goofball..and also be as compassionate as I can and sometimes I still put my foot in mouth..and I answer every pm and phone call cause I owe alot to these people..they are the best...
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Post by toni on Aug 24, 2007 8:54:16 GMT -5
Glad to see you here Vivi! I know too the strongest and caring people on the planet are right here on this board. We all understand like no body else with this Morgellons. And thank you both for your kind words.
There is a true sense of security here because everyone has given of themselves to make it just that, and that does make us stronger people, and we will get through this because we really do have everything it takes to face this head on, and we are.
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Post by suebe on Aug 24, 2007 10:09:25 GMT -5
This is the best group of people in the world. They were here for me durning the hardest time of my life and I don't think I could have found the strength to keep going without this board. It means so much to be believed when your suffering, it means even more when your child is suffering.
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Post by Patti on Aug 24, 2007 10:25:13 GMT -5
I knew I was in a form of denial- told her my way of surviving this was by refusing to participate in life. It was like "if I dont live my life, its not really happening to me" so I'll just drop out and wait it out". Vivi, I think you will end up helping more people than you are even aware, just from writing this one post. I know that so many of us were (are) living our lives just the way you explain above....going into our little cocoons and "waiting it out". Hearing how you have brought yourself out of that darkness will definitely give others the strength to do the same thing. Toni helped give you your life back and now you are paying it forward. What a wonderful thing to witness....bless you!
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Post by Carrie♥ on Aug 24, 2007 11:37:19 GMT -5
What a wonderful thing to witness....bless you! It sure is! That is so cool!!! Isn't that what it's all about? Tonisue thanks for being so available to us all. Liz, you are no doubt our goofball!?! Be proud...very, very proud !!!
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