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Post by skytroll on Apr 19, 2008 17:35:18 GMT -5
Bessie,
My heart goes out to you. You are okay, we all are. And you know that turning it over to a higher power, whatever we choose to call that power, that is good, kind, caring, loving, and know that you are loved, and cared for.
We somehow get past these horrible moments. and I do believe that the soul tugs at us to remind us, that miracles can happen.
Not only a war on earth, between people, we just have to love everyone, but a war between the principalities of the air. the elements. there is a stronger force out there, than what man has created. some are so blind they will never see, but, many of us have seen the dark side, and we accept that as there, and that we do not have to dwell in it.
We know of a higher natural order of things, and that has been tampered with by those who believe they can control the world.
So blind they will never see, we see the pain, we feel the pain, we are smitten with a plague that was created by those who will never accept a power greater than themselves.
God bless you and know that you are loved.
Skytroll
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Post by bannanny on Apr 20, 2008 1:04:54 GMT -5
How dare they take you to a pshyc ward! I wish I could be there with you as that had to be the most awful thing to have to go thru alone. It makes my heart hurt so much when people close their minds to someone who is hurting so badly already. You can get strong again Bessie, just hold on tight.
The words from sky are very very good words. Listen to them and know that we have all been where you are and are still at times going thru the same dark place you're in now. We love you and we're here for you. I've been left to call the suicide hotline before myself Bessie. I know that when these kinds of fears come around and becuz of the way you're feeling that it seems there's just no hope.
But there is....... take God's hand cuz He's holding it out to you right now and fight those feelings with everything you've got inside of you. You can get thru it, you have to believe that. I thought I'd never be able to get thru it at times, but I did. Let it all out right here. This board is a lifeline....... I've talked it out here myself so many times before and it brought me thru. I'd love to be able to talk to you.
Don't forget to take God's hand. Let go of the pain you have inside, cuz He's there to pull you up and give you the new strength you're needing. He won't let you down....... believe that. Check your pm ok?
I love you ~~ bannanny
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Post by bessie on Apr 20, 2008 14:00:10 GMT -5
Sky & Bannanny - Thank you so much for your kind words. Right now I am trying to forget all I know about this thing. Fact is, I am MUCH better than I was 6 months ago - physically, that is. But the more I learn, the worse it gets mentally, and it gets so oppressive that the weight on my chest as I lie down makes it difficult to breathe. I have to stop reading the scientific stuff, and especially don't look at the pictures. Does anyone ever use tranquilizers in a pinch? I understand that all rx drugs, being synthesized from petroleum, feeds this monster. But I find myself having to make decisions based on the lesser of 2 evils. I know that what happened Tuesday morning did NOT help me get better! It's a horrible place to be - knowing way too much yet way too little. I want to forget everything I know except the things that help me improve. Bessie
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Post by bannanny on Apr 20, 2008 16:49:14 GMT -5
That's a good thing Bessie if that's what works for you. I know quite a few people, like Dora, life and questionhair who choose to do what you've just talked about. They feel it helps them better to not come to the board all the time. I get that way every now and then myself. But we all have to do what we know works best for us as individuals.
I know I've come to a place where I just can't seem to comprehend all the scientific stuff either. So I usually just get on here to talk, ya know? Of course you know....... I can ramble on and on sometimes! Bla bla bla, that's me, but sometimes it does do me good. And when I want to get away from it all, I do! Perfectly understandable, everything you said is.
I'll be givin you a call as soon as my cell charges up, k? I finally realized it's the weekend and I have free calls, duh!
Talk to ya soon, hugs ~~ bannannas
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