Post by overandover on May 23, 2008 21:55:55 GMT -5
Hi Everyone,
I came in tonight to tell you all that I've once again broke my lap top, installed a new digi and lost windows.
I don't understand all I did to it, Mr. Geeks said I should have it back by tomorrow, Sat.
I have missed you all so much and I have so much to tell you.
Yes I was very sick, I was sure I was dying and I wouldn't go to the doctors.
I told Tom, I've had enough babe and went to bed and prayed to God and my Josh that I die.
I was so sick I couldn't hold my head up. I couldn't swallow food for 4 days, when I tried to even brush my mouth I'd vomit so hard I thought my guts would come up, only bile.
I stopped going #1 all together and every time I took a sip of anything in 20 mins it shot out of my back side.
I was taking Imodium every few hours trying to keep some liquids in me, no luck.
I've had very loose stoods the past few years, this really surprised my neurologist because he had put me on pain meds. for my back and joints and he said I should be constipated, I've been far from that.
I was so sure I was not going to wake up last Sat. My blood pressure was very high and even my emergency pills didn't work and I told God and Josh I'm ready and I'm OK with it because I'm not living, I just wake up and breath everyday but don't have a life.
I'm sick of fighting for health, I'm sick of waiting for CDC, I'm sick of living like this.
Last Sat. night I cried myself to sleep. I've never felt like that but I was sure I would not wake up.
Sunday morning I was teed that I did wake up.
I had a white crust all over my mouth and eyes. I can only wonder what Morgellons had to do with that.
I was able to sit up in bed without feeling like I was going to fall.
I drank coffee and off to the potty I went.
Something that hurt and got stuck. I couldn't see what it was but my back side burned like fire, felt like glass was cutting me.
I push and push and it felt like a tugging sensation and then it dropped.
I was so sick and was not about to go fishing for it.
The water in the bowl looked very black like oil. And my behind bleed a bit and burned like fire.
BUT by Sunday afternoon I felt like a brand new person and everyday has only gotten better.
No one can keep up with me.
I spring cleaned my whole home in one week, it's beautiful, I've not been one bit tired, not one bit.
Today I got up at 7am and I've been cooking all day.
My oldest daughter and her boyfriend flew in from Denver thinking I was dying and I've been on the go non-stop.
I feel wonderful. No itching, no crawling, no stinging, no fatigue, no joint pain, just wonderful.
My back hurts tonight because I've been on my feet all day and my feet are so swollen I can't hardly get my flip flops off but it's a wonderful real "I'm tired pain" so normal and so wonderful.
I feel almost high. I feel great. I'm shocked, Tom's shocked, he said he was at the point of forcing me to the hospital when the kids got here, he was scared and said I looked like death.
I was not on any new meds. I'd ran out of Rifampin and my Morgellons doctor didn't return my calls, he's sick also.
Tom had some rifampin left for his Lyme treatment and he stopped taking his when I ran out, trying to get me to take his medication and I told him no, we were at a stand off and my symptoms had come back hard, my face was covered with lesions again.
I had taking his Rifampin 3 days in a row when I got so sick so I stopped taking them because I'd see it 20 min. later in the pot, why waste what he should be taking?
I don't know why this happened but it's wonderful and believe me Sue is a believer now.
I just feel so wonderful and i wish with all my heart and soul I could bottle this feeling for all of you.
I wish I knew what did this but i don't, no new meds, nothing, just getting sick as a dog.
I've never in my whole life been that sick. I felt like I had poison in me.
I was vomiting so much bile I really felt like my head would bust open.
And I have never had diarrhea that bad.
I was not going pee at all, maybe once a day, just a tiny bit.
I didn't have a bladder infection because well we ladies "know" for sure when we get bladder infections.
I think maybe because my blood pressure was so high my kidneys took a break?
But whatever it was, IT WAS SO WORTH IT because I feel so wonderful now.
I've wondered how I would feel "body wise" if I ever got rid of Morgellons because I've been sitting for the last 4 years, me and my heating pad.
I had to stand a lot taking care of Josh and I'd sneak out side to cry out in pain after I do his wound care because I was in such pain and so fatigued.
But after he died I got in my chair with my heating pad and stayed there.
No exercise at all. I was sure I'd have to get physical therapy if I ever got well just to build up my muscles again.
Not so, I've been getting some cramps in my arms and legs but thats because I'm using them.
I feel like screaming
"IT HURTS SO GOOD"
I missed you all so much and I wanted to feel really sure before i said anything but please believe there is hope.
I promise there is a end to this horror.
Oh Lord I wish I could give you all some of this wonderful feeling.
Please believe there is hope and don't ever give up.
I love you all so much.
And I will pray so hard that everyone finds a end to this hell.
I'll write more when I get my lap top back.
I hate being in this darn office were this horror started.
But guess what? I even spring clean this damn Morgellons filled office.
I love you guys and i did see the post Robbie, it felt so nice to be missed.
I can't ever imagine not having all of you in my life, Morgellons or not I will always feel like i found the best friends in the world, all over the world, right here. Love, Suebe
I came in tonight to tell you all that I've once again broke my lap top, installed a new digi and lost windows.
I don't understand all I did to it, Mr. Geeks said I should have it back by tomorrow, Sat.
I have missed you all so much and I have so much to tell you.
Yes I was very sick, I was sure I was dying and I wouldn't go to the doctors.
I told Tom, I've had enough babe and went to bed and prayed to God and my Josh that I die.
I was so sick I couldn't hold my head up. I couldn't swallow food for 4 days, when I tried to even brush my mouth I'd vomit so hard I thought my guts would come up, only bile.
I stopped going #1 all together and every time I took a sip of anything in 20 mins it shot out of my back side.
I was taking Imodium every few hours trying to keep some liquids in me, no luck.
I've had very loose stoods the past few years, this really surprised my neurologist because he had put me on pain meds. for my back and joints and he said I should be constipated, I've been far from that.
I was so sure I was not going to wake up last Sat. My blood pressure was very high and even my emergency pills didn't work and I told God and Josh I'm ready and I'm OK with it because I'm not living, I just wake up and breath everyday but don't have a life.
I'm sick of fighting for health, I'm sick of waiting for CDC, I'm sick of living like this.
Last Sat. night I cried myself to sleep. I've never felt like that but I was sure I would not wake up.
Sunday morning I was teed that I did wake up.
I had a white crust all over my mouth and eyes. I can only wonder what Morgellons had to do with that.
I was able to sit up in bed without feeling like I was going to fall.
I drank coffee and off to the potty I went.
Something that hurt and got stuck. I couldn't see what it was but my back side burned like fire, felt like glass was cutting me.
I push and push and it felt like a tugging sensation and then it dropped.
I was so sick and was not about to go fishing for it.
The water in the bowl looked very black like oil. And my behind bleed a bit and burned like fire.
BUT by Sunday afternoon I felt like a brand new person and everyday has only gotten better.
No one can keep up with me.
I spring cleaned my whole home in one week, it's beautiful, I've not been one bit tired, not one bit.
Today I got up at 7am and I've been cooking all day.
My oldest daughter and her boyfriend flew in from Denver thinking I was dying and I've been on the go non-stop.
I feel wonderful. No itching, no crawling, no stinging, no fatigue, no joint pain, just wonderful.
My back hurts tonight because I've been on my feet all day and my feet are so swollen I can't hardly get my flip flops off but it's a wonderful real "I'm tired pain" so normal and so wonderful.
I feel almost high. I feel great. I'm shocked, Tom's shocked, he said he was at the point of forcing me to the hospital when the kids got here, he was scared and said I looked like death.
I was not on any new meds. I'd ran out of Rifampin and my Morgellons doctor didn't return my calls, he's sick also.
Tom had some rifampin left for his Lyme treatment and he stopped taking his when I ran out, trying to get me to take his medication and I told him no, we were at a stand off and my symptoms had come back hard, my face was covered with lesions again.
I had taking his Rifampin 3 days in a row when I got so sick so I stopped taking them because I'd see it 20 min. later in the pot, why waste what he should be taking?
I don't know why this happened but it's wonderful and believe me Sue is a believer now.
I just feel so wonderful and i wish with all my heart and soul I could bottle this feeling for all of you.
I wish I knew what did this but i don't, no new meds, nothing, just getting sick as a dog.
I've never in my whole life been that sick. I felt like I had poison in me.
I was vomiting so much bile I really felt like my head would bust open.
And I have never had diarrhea that bad.
I was not going pee at all, maybe once a day, just a tiny bit.
I didn't have a bladder infection because well we ladies "know" for sure when we get bladder infections.
I think maybe because my blood pressure was so high my kidneys took a break?
But whatever it was, IT WAS SO WORTH IT because I feel so wonderful now.
I've wondered how I would feel "body wise" if I ever got rid of Morgellons because I've been sitting for the last 4 years, me and my heating pad.
I had to stand a lot taking care of Josh and I'd sneak out side to cry out in pain after I do his wound care because I was in such pain and so fatigued.
But after he died I got in my chair with my heating pad and stayed there.
No exercise at all. I was sure I'd have to get physical therapy if I ever got well just to build up my muscles again.
Not so, I've been getting some cramps in my arms and legs but thats because I'm using them.
I feel like screaming
"IT HURTS SO GOOD"
I missed you all so much and I wanted to feel really sure before i said anything but please believe there is hope.
I promise there is a end to this horror.
Oh Lord I wish I could give you all some of this wonderful feeling.
Please believe there is hope and don't ever give up.
I love you all so much.
And I will pray so hard that everyone finds a end to this hell.
I'll write more when I get my lap top back.
I hate being in this darn office were this horror started.
But guess what? I even spring clean this damn Morgellons filled office.
I love you guys and i did see the post Robbie, it felt so nice to be missed.
I can't ever imagine not having all of you in my life, Morgellons or not I will always feel like i found the best friends in the world, all over the world, right here. Love, Suebe