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Post by Brian on May 25, 2008 20:47:53 GMT -5
ANDROMINA.......
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Post by angela on May 25, 2008 20:58:56 GMT -5
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Post by Brian on May 25, 2008 22:37:33 GMT -5
When Mark Darrah talked of how a specimen from ones' body could metamorphis like a kids toy from a police car into a robot instantly.....at the Austin,Tx confrence......to see this once or twice now...in the past 3 1/2 yrs......and not believe what your eyes saw......causes one to think outside the BOX
Still waiting for your call Mr.Darrah..........with my PET FIBER..........
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Post by Sidney on May 26, 2008 0:27:22 GMT -5
Hi Brian. I remember seeing the movie The Andromeda Strain. Scared me witless.
Got any new pet fibers?
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Post by Jill on May 26, 2008 7:13:03 GMT -5
If Mark Darrah witnessed this 'metamorphosis'- seems reasonable to assume he may have mentioned it to others in the lab?
That's the kind of thing that would be hard to keep under your hat.
Wonder what Vitaly Citovsky had to say about that?
What did these specimens morph into?
Thanks for any answer- Brian.
Jill
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Post by Brian on May 26, 2008 23:25:42 GMT -5
what looked like a loosel ball of hair or fiber....unfolded ...becsme s complete high walking spider and hurridly made a exit so fast ,I couldn't tell where IT went or hid.....
YEAA I do Sid...........lol ..always
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Post by bannanny on May 27, 2008 0:53:17 GMT -5
Oh yes....... I've seen many of those myself Bry. I used to pull moving hairs out of my head with tape and actually watch them connect from one piece of tape to the other until they did exactly what you said. I'd stand over the bathroom sink I was throwing them into and literally watch tape moving around the bottom of my sink and up the sides of it ....... it was really wierd to watch. Also, in the beginning (back when I'd stay in the shower for ever and a day pulling my hairs out ) I'd have to stand in there sometimes waiting for the water to get hot again. Anyway, it would take enough time to where I was almost dry (and freezing to death) but I'd start seeing hairs that had connected together and they'd be moving across the tub floor. At first I thought they were huge daddy long legs....... they looked identical to what you described above. I must've jumped clean outta my skin the first time I saw it (wouldn't that be nice to be able to jump clean out of our skin! ;D) But I don't give the sob's the benefit of the doubt anymore. It's best to ignore this crap completely (whenever you possibly can anyways.) I don't do that kind of stuff tho anymore....... I think when we try to pull any of this stuff out, all we're really doing is spreading it around more. It doesn't get it out anyway, it's just segments of what's become a connected networking underneath the skin. I don't mean to sound so creepy about it all, it's just that the reality of it all IS creepy. The greatest and most important words I heard from Dr. Hildy, and the words I now live by pertaining to this fight (yep, I'm gonna say it again and again guys )....... we have to "rise above it." Those 3 words are what's gonna help me win this battle. I believe that with all my heart, cuz those 3 little words have already started working for me. It's an important mindset to have when it comes to morgellons. lotsa love ~~ bannanny
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Post by Brian on May 27, 2008 5:19:14 GMT -5
I'm about ready to throw in the towel,,it seems the HOLE just keeps getting deeper....everytime I see a spec of hope....it gets dashed. I'm totally ZEROED out........the more I try to move forward in trying to get acceptance, the more I lose.........family....friends.....even possesions......a place to live Seems I may have worn out my welcome with my family....they see me get up and go to work everyday...they see me function as one would expect.........but when I bring up this issue....they tell me to get over it and move on.One analogy I throw at them....is...try going to sleep with a 100 sugar ants and 5 fire ants crawling on you for 1 night......then imagine what its like to do that for 1300 more nights( 3 plus yrs ).............. I'm a good swimmer....I can swim as long as I know that help is on its way.........but each day as I look to the horizon over the flat of the water.......I see NO boat making any white water
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Post by greeneyes on May 27, 2008 8:05:47 GMT -5
Bannanny is correct rise above it!
BKS27 the boat must be built by you--I posted on the other thread about the borg series of star trek--
In one of the shows Picard the captain is taken by the borg and as he realizes what has occurred a tear falls from his face but he has no choice he continues to move forward and do the job assigned.
You see it is not your family and friends that must understand but you--they are like Picard; perhaps some don't know it yet--but that is the case--they see you as different--but your position could very well be the better one.
As difficult and painful as Morgellons is; I believe it could be the blessing--Don't believe me, listen to them; notice the little things they notice about their health--we are not the only ones.
It is when we rise above the condition with all the means that are available that things not only change for us but for our family as well----
We must be the others life boat; what a twist that is---
I have considered Prevenge's post a great deal --in this thought process; as he turned what I believed on its head--
Whatever the case is; we are all in a point of flux--change from the very core of our being--yet we are the only ones that are aware--
In prevenge's post it is a good thing; and perhaps he is correct and perhaps not--
Whatever the case we are the ones aware and in that it becomes our responsibility. I am not willing to roll over and accept this until I am convinced that it is a good thing---
It is that stubborn DNA in all of us that has given us this chore--
The ones doing this to our earth have to tell us--sometimes they twist it but most often they put it in your face in movies, comic books, fiction even in the children's stories.
I suggest research into the Cathars, Templars--the Mary Magedeline line, Solomons lost pages--
greeneyes
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Post by bannanny on May 27, 2008 15:47:18 GMT -5
Hold on Brian....... we're here and holding our hands out to you. You can get thru this....... we all can and we're all going to. I've gone thru so many losses myself and felt like giving up many a time, but the longer I hold on, the easier it's becoming to live with this thing. I've gotten alot closer to God and sometimes I think that was my own reason for getting this....... so that I would get closer to Him.
Maybe, in a way, reasons alone are why we have this....... to find the reason we need inside of ourselves to have a reason to live. But each of us have to find our own reasons too. That probably doesn't make much sense tho....... I still get pretty confused and sound pretty dippy at times.
I don't know why, but I have this different feeling inside now that this journey all of us are on means something good, not bad. But you have to get into that mindset and believe it with all your heart. We may have to go thru endless hours of suffering and feeling alone (just like Jesus did) but once I realized this thing wasn't going to control my heart as long as I didn't alllow it to, it honestly became a whole lot easier to deal with.
Plus of course, I think it's important to take alot of herbal supplements and vitamins and also the oxygen pills are very important to take every day with alot of water. We can control that part, our own body's well being, and once you start doing that, your body becomes more and more your own....... by not allowing what goes on on the outside to effect it, ya know?
The mind has many hidden powers and we have to learn how to reach them....... believing in myself enough to know I can accomplish anything I put my mind to was one of the greatest powers I found I had. I could fight cancer if I were given the opportunity and I'd be happy to be able to do it.
If you don't believe in God, then go to what you do believe in....... most importantly, that would include yourself. You can find alot of things inside of yourself that you never were aware of before....... you just have to look, listen and believe.
I love you ~~ bannanny
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Post by massena on May 28, 2008 0:08:51 GMT -5
BOY that's pretty special Ms Bannanny,
AND greeneyes that is so true about being your own life boat! I couldn't have said it any better...................................
massena
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Post by zabrubon on May 28, 2008 1:35:04 GMT -5
Bks hold on and keep writing to us on how you are feeling. We have all been where you are more than once, thats for sure. I pray that you find inner strength and that you will have peace in your heart and know that we all love you. This disease will send you on a rollarcoaster ride and all we can do is hang on for the ride. I know your pain, cause I come to this board daily looking for someone to say they have the cure or they are cured for good. I look to the brilliant people on this board and there are many, to research and communicate with doctors and scientists and get us answers and find a path for all of us. Hang in there, we will beat this thing in time. WE love you. God be with you and give you peace in your heart. ChicagoBonnie
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Post by Brian on May 28, 2008 2:42:44 GMT -5
Thanx all......its just a long swim......No land A hoy ...yet....
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Post by toni on May 28, 2008 7:51:48 GMT -5
Bks27,
Just know we're all in the same water with you too Brain, treading the same water and not seeing land "yet" - we really are and you are so not alone.
This is true survival, like being at war, and all the men and women before us and presently in that situation (at war), well we are doing what they are in a sense - fighting to stay alive every day, and we have what it takes too to keep fighting no matter what "ANYONE" says or thinks.
People that don't understand Morgellons, well, you cannot allow what they say or how they don't understand to get in your way.
That is a fact. Personally, I found that getting away from the people that had much negative things to say about Morgellons, was the best thing I could do.
Too much energy and going backwards happens when we keep trying to "prove" Morgellons. That's not what you need. You need to think about today and tomorrow, and how strong you are, and about how strong we all are, and make the efforts of keeping yourself healthy.
If ever there was a time in life we have to look inside ourselves, and know that we really as an individual are alone inside our skin, it's now with Morgellons. You know what you know is going on, and the bottom line is, that's what matters.
My folks couldn't understand Morgellons, and I found myself using all I had every day to try and 'prove' what it was doing. I realized one day, I am NOT taking care of me, and I will fail if I continue on this path. If they "choose" to not try and understand, that is up to them, not me anymore. That also is cold hard reality. And reality has never been so real!
It's not being selfish to take care of YOU. If no one else is going to help, then we look to ourself for everything we believe in, and who we really are - our strengths and rely on that, and our friends, and you can do this, just like we are, because we are all here for each other, and we're here for you Brian, and you can do this.
Hugs, Toni
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Post by greeneyes on May 28, 2008 15:39:20 GMT -5
First bks27 for all of us keeping swimming even if it seems against the current at times; 27 years and my family still won't discuss---this is the hardest part. They can't see it. Did you see the marvel morg comic? Here is a link: www.silver-surfer.us/Character_Bios/morg.htmlAt that link you see this: Dual identity: none, the general populace of Earth is unaware of Morg's existence ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Just got this and thought I would share: This post I thank the reader g for and their observant nature!!! Thank you for your contribution g, I did shorten your name as it was to telling--just protecting you--please know how much you have given here today to so many!!! Many Blessings, CrystalRiver ----------------------------------------------------- Andromeda Strain 20008 Hello CrystalRiver, Thank you for the many enlightening posts regarding 'Morgellons' to Rumor Mill News over the last several months! My daughter was watching the 2008 remake of The Andromeda Strain on TV last night: www.imdb.com/title/tt0424600/ As I walked through the room I caught a dialogue amongst the microbiologists assembled to investigate Andromeda. One scientist offers that the 'delivery tube' of the virus/bacteria was nanotech, and comments that 'these things thrive on carbon dioxide and ultraviolet light' and 'they hate infrared light and oxygen'. I actually came to a dead stop in front of the TV I was so shocked! Then I stayed up another 4 hours so I could watch the series from the beginning and confirm the part I overheard above. Wonder if the nanotube verbiage (and the fact that oxygen and infrared is incompatible to the Andromeda organism) was in the original Michael Crichton book from 1969? I'll have to obtain a copy! Thank you again for your contribution to life! Regards, g --------------------------------------------------------------------- I have now ordered the original movie and will go see if I can locate the book--- I also found name interesting--andro --close to android + media greeneyes
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Post by cyn on May 28, 2008 17:49:03 GMT -5
You know BKS,
That was just such a good analogy, I just have to comment. When I turned 33, all of a sudden I felt a need to go out and do everything I wanted to do, before it was too late. The first thing was learning how to surf. I'd get out there with a wet-suit, short board and not knowing what I was doing I got caught in some rip-tides. After going down the first time I started to panic, thought the wet suit was choking me, the second time I came up I removed the leash around my foot. Just before going down the third time, I looked at the shore, barely spotting the lifeguard. He was still on the platform but appeared to see me waving my arm. I thought to myself, oh, he could never make it from there. I will never know how he made it to me in time, I was so far out there... But he grabbed me under water and drug me to shore.
It could happen.
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Post by Brian on May 29, 2008 4:20:56 GMT -5
If it wasaswimming pool or a lake....I know I could stay afloat for however long it took...but in the ocean....there are several things that add to the difficulty....of just keeping your head above water.......Like CYN said...theres the tide..it keeps taking you farther out....the wind too caues the waves to get bigger, which is like loosing your social being....you arn't noticed by friends any longer because your no where to be seen. Then the water is filled with many unknown predators that you have never even seen, the sharks are just the disease itself.....while you worry of the BIG BITE...the smaller things take their toll by crawling on you and biting or stinging.Each day you learn that there are so many different creatures of what caueses this non stopping frustration of being unable to fend off each and every one of them. Soon you grow tired and weary, caring less of the fight and more of just wanting to get back on dry ground to get some rest...............and back to your life.....you lower your head and feel the water lap across your face...too tired to care because the moment feels the best it has since this all began.
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Post by bessie on May 29, 2008 8:36:18 GMT -5
BKS - This is so heartbreaking. I think few of HAVEN'T felt this way, at times. I know, it gets harder to get past the rough patches. Please - how much physical torment do you have? If that were mostly alleviated, would you be able to manage? Bessie
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Post by bannanny on May 29, 2008 17:08:29 GMT -5
To say the least, we're all very concerned and worried about you Brian. I gave you my number and I'm sure that others have done the same, so please call one of us if you can. It helps to talk to someone who understands everything you've been saying and we want to help you get thru it. Maybe something someone might say to you will make you want to do just that. We're all praying for you my friend and we love you more than you know.
big hugs ~~ bannanny
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Post by felixwillford on Jun 1, 2008 12:14:47 GMT -5
bks,
Like bananny said................please do call someone. We are all here to help one another.
You are understood by us here.
This whole ordeal is difficult and does make one focus on "LIFE" from a completely different perspective.
As Roberta says..............Like one big family here and please talk this out.
We all lost and can understand. I have lost friends but gained so many more thru this.
With Morgellons, you find out who your friends really are yet it can be painful when it comes to family.
Please believe that a SHIP will come and save us from the rough waters. The ship will dock and we all will be able to get off. We have to believe.
We can't change what happens to us, but we can change how we REACT to what happens.
Godspeed,
Kmarie
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