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Post by Lynn on Jun 23, 2013 10:21:50 GMT -5
Hey
Feeling like odd man out. I know much of this I bring on my self. But you can tell when folks are a little leery of you. Sense sharing some of the aspects of the disease and being seen as a bit off centered. Just makes one the odd ball. Family cares about me and are nice to me. Yet feel like I am being held at arms length away. I guess if they think you are crazy and they can not handle that in their life that would happen. Unfortunately it makes me have hurt feelings and feeling isolated. I have been privately tearful over this. Scolding myself and wishing they could spend my worst three days in my shoes. I know folks here get a whole lot of those kinds of situations and will feel the pain and understand what that feels like. Glad I have folks to turn to. I need to talk to my best friend but the house has ears and do not want to share my feelings with them. So even though I enjoyed seeing in-laws. My guts were picking up slight signals. Am I being too sensitive. I asked the hubby if certain persons like me and was revealed a old conversation about me that verified the signals I was getting. Wish I knew how to get around that to have closer family ties with in-laws. Not feel so left out. But they live far so not something you get to work on day to day. Maybe every five years or so. Can not do anything with that. Unless over the phone.
Wish I could get over myself when letting things in and probably should not. If back when this first hit and had been capable to keep quiet, but that could not happen I was scared out of my mind and was grabbing for a life line every which way which results in situations like this.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Jun 22, 2013 1:17:35 GMT -5
Hi Frisky
Thank you. Very sorry to hear this. Wish things could be different. Rest in Peace Kevin/Ivanhole.
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Post by Lynn on Jun 21, 2013 0:51:41 GMT -5
Thank you for sharing the post and very sorry to hear this. Was Kevin the Avatar Ivan Hoe? Thank you for letting me know.
In Light Lynn
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Post by Lynn on Jun 20, 2013 0:12:04 GMT -5
Hi Absud
Much closer. How big do the get when coming out of your throat. Mine are always curled into a perfect c but small then the c you see on the page. Did you get yours to stop. If I remember right after several months on the D.E. it went away. I am fairly sure if I quit taking it long enough I will start up again.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Jun 19, 2013 19:09:49 GMT -5
Hi Toni
Not the right critter. Mine only came out of my throat only and were very tiny and pinkish red.
In Light Lynn
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Post by Lynn on Jun 19, 2013 11:32:32 GMT -5
Hi Toni
I wonder then if the worm I was coughing up was the baby state of the white Nat I was coughing out. Gosh that was just last year all year.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Jun 18, 2013 16:04:57 GMT -5
Hi Toni
Please help me out here. I am no good with mm. Is the worm about the size of this c on the page? Or slightly smaller? The articles were very interesting, but mostly Greek to me. Tell me what you think it is saying and how it would translate to us. Sorry, but only way I can learn.
I use to cough out those tiny tiny white Nats and they would fly away and during those times I would cough up tiny worms pinkish red in color and in the shape of a C, but a little smaller. I added the D.E. to my diet and cut back on my weak coffees and stopped coughing up and out both bugs. If I ever go through that again I will try harder to catch the Nat as it fly up and away from me and the worms I will collect and send to via the fashion you said works best.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Jun 16, 2013 16:29:18 GMT -5
Hi Itchen
Hope the test come back in your favor. Need less to deal with not more. I am in a six year Chronic Fatigue study at Standford State university for chronic fatigue. Instead of payment they are suppose to release us our test results. They took like 8 or 9 different size vials of blood over 4 years ago when I was really sick with this. We the group are being tested for just about everything.
Hey Absurd
The link was sooo funny. Loved it. Wish the landlady would cool it. Sounds like she means well though. Have a good week end.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Jun 15, 2013 22:59:37 GMT -5
Hi Itchin
No one knows why. Find a link near the top right that says participated. That will bring up all the recent post. It sucks, because it is all separated now and when you click on a link with more the one page you have to find the last page to see the new post.
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Post by Lynn on Jun 15, 2013 19:31:25 GMT -5
Hi Toni
I wish so badly I had not been so shy when I first came down sick. I could have given you sample like you would not believe. Live bugs, dead bugs and none of it from debre. example: Some will find stuff off the body that looks bug like, but it bundles of fibers and or crystallized material from the skin. My first zip lock of samples that I took to the Dr. Had all 4 stages of mites. They were all dead, but even he said they were stages of some bug. The live ones probably would not have made it to your scope to be viewed without some real knowledge of how to ship. But back then I just wanted them gone. I was so exhausted with 4 to 5 showers daily trying to relieve the skin of the constant biting. Then a few times the hubby asked me not to shower to see what would happen and the two times I did that by the end of 24 hours my skin would start bleeding from all the biting. And I have a cast iron will and would not bother the area. So untouched. No rubbing, no scratching, no bathing. The skin would get so raw that it was painful to even wear my clothes.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 15, 2013 1:09:45 GMT -5
Hi Dave
I have seen a few of those. Thanks for sharing your photo. I have been taking larger doses of the coconut oil and expelling more stuff now also. I think I am behind you on that because of poor circulation and I am a very weighty gal. I am a little down to day because today has been tads of everything I got rid of in small amounts tormenting me to day. Tons of tiny black specks a few small amber crystals, very small fuzz balls, sores behind the ears and along the left side of neck were this stuff all first began before the whole out break. I feel like a sinking ship and a bit worried.
If the coconut oil keeps making things escalate as I began to restrict my diet more and more. I will but the breaks on and slow down and take less just to see if the taking of coconut oil is contributing and then I have to figure out if it is expelling the disease like I have heard a time or two or if it is making it worse, but I do not see how that last part could be. I have hardly eaten for two days and my weight fluxes. I have a feeling like something is moving or dislodging at the very top of the color against the stomach where I have a blockage from a undiagnosed hernia. It feels like it has scrunched in a spasm and moved to the far right of that top part of the colon to get away from my stomach. I had a little bit of flat material expel in a bowel movement that might be part of the lining in the colon one expels when stuff collects and blocks the colon. Also I still take Diametous earth and there could be mercury filling piece in the colon. Way back before bigger issues started up I had a very deep filled took crack in the filling itself. There was more filling then tooth and I talked the dentist into removing the filling and put in a plastic or rubber type filling which is all the insurance would cover. To poor to do it proper. Well I asked if he cold use a certain system some dentist use to safely remove filling and he would not and of course I swallowed dust, tiny particles and a few sand size pieces and a very small chunk. So maybe the Diametcious Earth is pulling that out. I still have three teeth left with deep filled mercury fillings. the bottoms ones were the worst and the one with the most was the first to cause trouble. The right one tried to also, but a superscription tooth soap has kept me out of the dentist chair. Not sure if that is a good thing. To keep the tooth that was refilled from falling apart he had to leave tiny weld marks of the old mercury to hold the tooth together so he pored the rubber stuff right over the little weld areas he left.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 15, 2013 0:50:40 GMT -5
Hi Scab
Sorry this beetle is killing your Oak trees. I love oak trees. First time I have ever seen that beetle was when you started posting it. I am sorry it is also decided to take up residence on you. I do not believe that beetle started my Morgellons. Mine started through toxic exposure to all sorts of chemicals and mold invasions in a home I use to clean at and my homes we rented. But even with that I am not sure at what point Morgellons jumped on board. Most people I know claim they got bit by bird mites or Spring tails when hit with Morgellons.
Who knows how many kinds of critters might be sick themselves with Morgellons and pass it on to humans and animals. So tracking it down is a real hard task. If I were to really believe a bug gave me this disease it would be fleas or a deer tick which I saw both when having slight weird symptoms I sloughed off as menopause, over weight and old age.
So please keep an open mind that it may have started in a very different manner and spread to all living things.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 14, 2013 12:41:09 GMT -5
Hi Baraka and Toni
Good thread Baraka. I sure wish you could post some of your findings under the scope.
Hey Toni finally got the computer running and are you using the same scope? Or did you have to get one compatible to the new computer?
On one of your links it did not take me to the yellow fiber you all are talking of. I wanted to see it vibrate. I saw a later link that showed it being taken apart to reveal the fibers. Sure acts like cotton.
The video of the fiber attracted to the needle. I always try to figure out what else may make something happen and I was all set to think and see water displacement from the needle making that fiber move away, but was tickled pink to see it attracted like a magnet to the needle. I have never done a magnet test on any of my stuff but good to see if with the eye then just hear about it. I wonder if the magnetic property's is what also makes us conduct electricity to strongly resulting in harsh zaps no matter what we touch.
Also did you ever get what looked like a splinter out of your finger nail? That close up makes it look more like threads growing with the grain of your finger nail instead of a splinter. I wonder if it is full of fungus?
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 12, 2013 16:54:19 GMT -5
Dave
You would be surprised at what could me in the hospital. lol. One big hurx will just about make me feel like I am in real trouble. Like the organic Iodine. I had to start with one drop in water and spit it out and I got dizzy and had a weird uh oh feeling in the center of my being. It took me a couple month to work up to the 4 drops and now I do just fine with it. So if I were ever to be interested in a enema of any kind I would start out with a tiny amount and work my way up to the dosage. Hurxing to big can be dangerous so I am sorry but disagree with you that it can put you in the hospital. I wish I had most folks constitution when it comes to hard hitting the body with stuff.
I use to take and eat large amounts of garlic. I would reek of garlic. It did little good for me and finally I understand why. My acidic levels were to high. Thank you for sharing that. I also use to take Ginger and cut a piece and simmer it in water and make a tea. I drank it daily and after two weeks one day I drank my daily Ginger tee and hundreds of tiny tiny cherry agnoma popped up all over my stomach, chest, arms. I bet before Morgellons hit it was trying to drive this stuff out, but I had no clue way back then and backed off the tea. The hurx was too great and almost dropped me to the floor. But my guts tell me I still need that Ginger all these years and I think I know why. Ginger raises core temperatures. Warms the blood.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 12, 2013 3:13:18 GMT -5
Hi Obsurd and Violet
lol. Glad not to be out in left field alone.
On a serious note has anyone has slight nerve movements in the neck or other body part. Like when relaxing my neck want to almost act like Parkinson. When I hold up a book my hand wants to shake slightly or loose its grip. The hand thing did start when the first weird symptom started years ago and I had no bugs and no stinging, biting and was not cold. So I really believe this disease snuck up on me before it broke out into a ball of fire.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 12, 2013 3:06:08 GMT -5
Hi Itchen
I have notice people all around me for many many years being put on meds for stress and or depression for any ole thing. Dr.s were handed meds for this like candy and made me wonder what in the heck is going on. Are they trying to use us as Guinea pigs and see how many react to the med. Are the stock invested and trying to make their dollar back before the law suites hit the drug companies wallet? Back in the day you were not put on medicine like that for just every little thing.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 12, 2013 3:02:28 GMT -5
Hi Ayla
No way no how. That could put someone in the hospital. lol. Are you still having symptoms? I thought you had found your way out of this??
Lynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 11, 2013 14:43:01 GMT -5
Hi all
The brain fog is what mainly got me before the whole outbreak and real bad during the outbreak. I notice all my mental weakness are amplified. So being a little backward made it bigger. I get teased all the time for having my own language. I substitute words in place to describe things and did more so when the outbreak hit big time. So furniture or walls were not green colored or red. They were green or red flavored. Same with smells they were flavored instead of the word smell. If co-piloting a car and I am told to what traffic from the opposite direction to tell the driver when it is clear. I could not come up with the right words. It was closed and then free. Stuff like that.
It worry's me that my ability to pay attention is much worse. Always had that problem but get into trouble daily for not paying attention to what was said. Well my brain could not comprehend the whole sentence and I did not want to make the person constantly all day long repeat everything ever said. So I end up getting my butt chewed out. I start to get scared that I may be early stages of Alzheimer's, but then remember oh yeah I have Morgellons. Duh.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 8, 2013 2:58:32 GMT -5
Violet
I have a funny story to share. Oh my first year into this mess. It was hot out, I had bugs biting the privates like mad and nothing I did gave any relief. Back then I took 4 hour showers twice a day. One hour of prep work. One hour after to get dressed and cover the body with lotions and potions to deter anything else coming aboard. Back then not much killed the adult bugs and it took a lot of work. I have a very high thresh hold on pain levels. So big stupid me was so fed up I took an organic arthritic cream similar to what Dave is using in ingredients. I took the slightest dab and smeared in on the privates.
I did not know whether to jump up and down screaming or fall on the floor and writhe in pain. LOL. The bugs got teed off and did their hooky crawling out of the area to nearby and did teed off digging and attacks. Some fell down the pant legs some finding area to grab and take hold again as they fell. I was desperate as what to do because nothing I did re-leaved the Oh I am dead fire. lol.
So I grabbed me a big ole cigar out of the cigar box, Lit it up, put on my shoes and went outside and stomped and trenched around the little farm house we rent. Round and round I went huffing and puffing on the cigar. Oh my here comes the freight train and I am on fire. Dear God kill me now but forgive me stupidness. lol. I did not shed a tear, I did not cry out. Just stomped and puffed for almost an hour before numb enough to stop, but could hardly ware my clothes or sit for two day and the stupid bugs would try to move back in and then back off again and do teed off biting because the are was still too much for them though they tried.
In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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Post by Lynn on Feb 6, 2013 22:04:22 GMT -5
Hi Dave Glad it keeps pushing stuff out. After day six my fever finally broke and the bugs came back and then lots of tiny sand pieces that I could not see with the eye put could roll them around on my hand. My eyes keep feeling gritty and every swipe off and on that day would have a feeling of sand on my hand. My hand started feeling irritated where I had used the upper balm near fingers to begin a swipe motion. Not an itch, not a burn; Just a strange irritation. Kind of like the start of an infection. I wash my hands all the time but when sitting at the computer or t.v. I do not go wash hands after swiping the sandy grit coming out of the eyes. I wipe my hand with a clean tissue. Day seven I woke up and felt like a slight film was on the eyes. The right eye had a tiny snot worm which I put down the sink. Did my morning routine and settle for the early morning hours of computer fun before everyone wakes up. Behind my eyes started feeling slightly irritated and my eye sight started to cut out. Especially the left eye which felt a little more irritated. No sand that morning but I was getting scared and my best friend said to do my sea salt eye cup. A Dixie cup is better. I had on day six had more movement like worms coming out or moving about on the eye hitting the eye lashes. But day seven no movement and no grains. After I did the eye exercises into the sea salt and COLD water I washed my face with a fungi soap and then wore a organic sulfur soap on my face to keep it from spreading. Also did a short soak on the irritated hand. I look up into the mirror and a big snot worm sitting right on the end of the eye lashes of the left eye which is the one that was having more trouble. The rest of the day went great. No more irritation, no more grains, and my eye sight was back to normal again. Well this morning day eight and still pulling away from whats left of this flue. All sinus now is all that is left. My whole face was swollen and around the eyes. Yesterday on day seven there was swelling around the eyes exspecially around the eye brows. Made me look a little like a caveman. well the right eye was more swollen today then the left. So right away I do the sea salt soak for each eye in COLD water. Oh I did have some grains come out of the eyes this morning before the sea salt soak. I took a extra big tablespoon full of extra virgin cold pressed coconut oil and about 6 hours later I felt movement on my head like something coming out of the scalp. So I went into the bathroom and my face was covered in black specks and I leaned over the sink and gently shook my shirt out for quite a few minutes over the sink and practical left no spot left on covered in the sink it was so thick. I pulled specks coming off the ends of my hair and eye brows, and eye lashes and I stood there and watched for specks to emerge from my face and neck. Which for fifteen minutes I plucked them off as they emerged and washed them down the sink. The swollen face was gone, the grains coming out of the eyes was gone again and yes there was ever so slight of a irritation this morning before soaking the eyes. No more specks pouring out and eyes feel normal again and only a few Nats hovering around me like helicopters but afraid to attack. I just know if I had ignored the speck it would have attracks bug to come and collect for what ever reason and then the crawling digging, biting, stinging would have started. Oh one tiny black speck I tried to pluck away from the face too soon and it sunk back into my face. I have tried to stop three big black specks from sinking into my face and no matter how much back then I tried to grab they sunk back in just that much faster and left a little darken spot like a very faded tattoo mark. The three big black specks happened over the last two years or more and at three different episodes. I still have the till tell sign of tattoo marking where they sunk back in and they were way bigger then my pores on my face but still managed to go into my face. Going to soak my eyes again tomorrow and take another large dose of coconut oil. I wonder if the fever helped push more of the junk out and it is expelling all at once with the help of the coconut oil. In Light Lynn/TorpedoLynn
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