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Post by overandover on Oct 12, 2009 15:36:35 GMT -5
Hi Everyone, I'm so sorry that last I gave great news and have to follow up with bad. But letting you all know whats going on to me is as important as my family, you are my family and my strength from the past five years has come for you all and also from Nuspa (where i started) and was so happy to find some of the golden friends here when they had to shut down. I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERYONE I LOVE YOU You held me up as Josh died and I've felt the warmth of your love and prayers with me all along. OK ya know I'm long winded  My doctor called me this morning and the news is bad. Things have been going down for me the past two weeks, fast and bad. They did another cat scan Thursday (can't do the MRI cause I have two metal clips in my brain) The cancer has spread into the brain, several masses and alot of swelling. I've had headaches so so painful and non stop. I'm falling alot Walking like a drink Getting very very confusion. The left side gets completely numb and around the right arm. I could go on and on but it's all so ugly. So it's bad and I won't do the steroids, so doctor told me this should go pretty fast. Steroids may get me a few months but it will be a ugly month's and I don't want that, Morgellons left me with just a tiny bit of dignity left, I won't give the tiny bit left to Cancer.I pray you all can respect my decision with that. I'm so sorry you guys. I so wanted this to go well and I so badly wanted to put together are "Free from Morgellons Picnic" when we all got better, please do that one day, the day will come, it has too, it will, answers will come. I'll be watching and dancing with each of you as you all get healed. I'll be dancing so hard that if it's winter there will probably be a heatwave or if it's summer, it will snow cause my big ole behind will be a dancing. Each and everyone of you have touched my heart in a way no one else could and I've been so very blessed to be touched by you. My Morgellons faith was finding you, it blessed me with you. Thank you for loving me. And I know i don't have to ask you this, I know the answer. Please be there for my children if they reach out and tell there how darn proud I am of them and how they were my greatest success story and how very special they make me feel I was the reason for being here and I did so good. I love you more then you could ever know xoxoxoxoxoSuebe P.S. Sidney you made my day with the card, my smile was so big it hurt my mouth, a good hurt, thank you my dear friend. |
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Post by violet on Oct 12, 2009 16:09:36 GMT -5
Hi Everyone, I'm so sorry that last I gave great news and have to follow up with bad. But letting you all know whats going on to me is as important as my family, you are my family and my strength from the past five years has come for you all and also from Nuspa (where i started) and was so happy to find some of the golden friends here when they had to shut down. I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERYONE I LOVE YOU You held me up as Josh died and I've felt the warmth of your love and prayers with me all along. OK ya know I'm long winded My doctor called me this morning and the news is bad. Things have been going down for me the past two weeks, fast and bad. They did another cat scan Thursday (can't do the MRI cause I have two metal clips in my brain) The cancer has spread into the brain, several masses and alot of swelling. I've had headaches so so painful and non stop. I'm falling alot Walking like a drink Getting very very confusion. The left side gets completely numb and around the right arm. I could go on and on but it's all so ugly. So it's bad and I won't do the steroids, so doctor told me this should go pretty fast. Steroids may get me a few months but it will be a ugly month's and I don't want that, Morgellons left me with just a tiny bit of dignity left, I won't give the tiny bit left to Cancer.I pray you all can respect my decision with that. I'm so sorry you guys. I so wanted this to go well and I so badly wanted to put together are "Free from Morgellons Picnic" when we all got better, please do that one day, the day will come, it has too, it will, answers will come. I'll be watching and dancing with each of you as you all get healed. I'll be dancing so hard that if it's winter there will probably be a heatwave or if it's summer, it will snow cause my big ole behind will be a dancing. Each and everyone of you have touched my heart in a way no one else could and I've been so very blessed to be touched by you. My Morgellons faith was finding you, it blessed me with you. Thank you for loving me. And I know i don't have to ask you this, I know the answer. Please be there for my children if they reach out and tell there how darn proud I am of them and how they were my greatest success story and how very special they make me feel I was the reason for being here and I did so good. I love you more then you could ever know xoxoxoxoxoSuebe P.S. Sidney you made my day with the card, my smile was so big it hurt my mouth, a good hurt, thank you my dear friend. Dear, dear Suebe: Please know we are thinking of you and care so much about you. Dear, dear morgie sister. |
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Post by lamb on Oct 12, 2009 16:20:42 GMT -5
Dearest Suebe, may God Bless you on your journey home to be reunited with your son. You will be welcomed into the Kingdom of Heaven with great fanfare. There are no words Sister. Our love and prayers are with you.
lamb
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Post by bessie on Oct 12, 2009 16:57:09 GMT -5
Suebe,
The moment I saw the subject of your post, I had that sinking feeling. I am so, so sorry.
I mentioned to you before that I have been watching your posts since your cancer diagnosis regarding your progress. I was getting hopeful....you have been so brave about this.....
Your family has been through so much, it's unbelievable. My prayers are with you all.
Love,
Bessie
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Post by Sidney on Oct 12, 2009 17:02:01 GMT -5
Oh Sue, So hard to try and find the words to tell you how you are loved, admired and cherished by all of us. We so wanted you to win the battle, beat the Cancer, live many more years, and celebrate with us when our day of cause and cure comes.
Now and forever we will cherish you, Sue. We'll cherish having known you, having gone through your loss of Josh with you, prayed for you and loved you.
Please continue to post as you feel like it, Sue. If you're not able, please ask family members to post for you.
We will continue to pray for you, Sue, and for your family. We will be here for them just as we are here for you.
When we celebrate, we will celebrate to honor you, Sue, and all our brave friends who have fought the good fight right along side us.
I love you, Sue.
Sid
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Post by chaosonline on Oct 12, 2009 18:35:16 GMT -5
Dear Sube,
When I weary of the battle I will think of you. Your amazing strength and resolve will be a torch to light the way for many who will come after you.
May God, with all of his tender mercies, be with you now to ease your burdens, take away your pain and lift you up.
The boys will greet you.
Love and Prayers,
Karen
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Post by justhanginin on Oct 12, 2009 19:25:36 GMT -5
Dear Suebee,
I am so sorry that you will not be here when we win this fight, but I completely respect your decision to do this on your own terms.
I hope that you live as pain-free as possible and know that we all love you. You will never be forgotten here.
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Post by toni on Oct 12, 2009 21:10:00 GMT -5
Suebe, There's so much to say, and so little time.  I want you to know how important you are to me and so many people, and how you being in the life we live has made our world a better place. It is people like you who are like warm sunshine, and you are so appreciated for everything. I've only known you from this board of our gathered morgie friends which we've all become just like a great big family, and your heart from day one touched mine. You are a woman of courage and strength, and so admired and respected. You're fair and kind, and as lovable as they come!  You have given every one of us something to hold onto forever. Suebe, you are truly loved and we pray for you and your family. I love you Suebe. Toni |
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Post by fritolay66 on Oct 12, 2009 22:39:54 GMT -5
Honestly, I started to bawl this afternoon and then I got angry and so on. I don't want you to go anywhere or anyone here. Oh damn, now I am crying again.
Okay......Sue doll, I admire the hell out of you and we all love you. I can't say anything eloquent because in my mind it doesn't make it any better. Stay strong sister as letting go of something we love so dearly is so very hard, whether it be our children, or fathers and mothers, our pets, or our very own lives. May Jesus forgive our sins, and take you to God's heaven where our bodies no longer limit us or matter. I hope to God to bless you and pray for Jesus to escort you softly.
It has been so very nice to meet you and listen to you.
Frito
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Post by zabrubon on Oct 12, 2009 23:45:29 GMT -5
Suebe,
Oh no, oh no, oh no no no no, this just can not be. Not so soon, not you. I am so sorry. I know you probably was a bit mad at me for saying something a year ago. But I don't want you to be mad at me. Please. I am so upset that this is going to happen. You have always been so strong. Ah, I suppose it is life, death. I am sorry that you are leaving us. Truly you have been a good friend to me. You helped me so much years ago, how we used to laugh about Dr. #####. But he was good. He really helped us a lot didn't he? And you with your presents from a far. Oh yeah, I will never forget you. You will always be loved and thought well of by me. I apologize if I ever said anything to hurt you, I never meant to hurt you. If I did, please forgive me. I hope you do. But to leave us, well, we will miss you so much. You do what you need to do and we all here are behind your decison. God be with you though this time. My husband died of cancer. Such a sad day that was indeed.
God be with you and I will pray that He blesses you with good courage and keeps you from a lot of pain. We love you and we will miss you lots. Make sure the good doctors keep you good and medicated. It will surely help. Your kids are really blessed to have you for their mom. Tell your daughter she can write us here anytime.
Come back and visit us when you can and be sure to let us know what hospital you are at please. And will you have someone post to us when you go to be with God? Please? Thanks. I pray that the love from this board finds its way to your heart and warms you up.
Blessings dear one,
In Christs love to you,
Chicagobonnie
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Post by fritolay66 on Oct 12, 2009 23:53:43 GMT -5
Administration??!!!
Is there anyway to sticky this thread for awhile? Easier to find for all?
Pretty Please with lots of stevia?
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Post by friskers on Oct 13, 2009 0:46:18 GMT -5
Dearest Sue Im exhausted and cant find words to express my sorrow in hearing this so Im just going to go to bed and hold you in my arms and ask God to take your pain away. God bless you Sue and know you ares so loved LOve Frsikers |
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Post by ctbarb on Oct 13, 2009 0:49:43 GMT -5
My Dear, Sweet Sue, Your love and kindness, your sweet sense of humor, your love of life and most of all, your love of family has sustained us all through the good and bad times we've all had...We will miss you dearly my friend, I will miss you so much! I usually don't cry and when I do, it's because something has touched me so deeply in a place where I feel my soul....YOU dear one, have touched my heart in a way that no one has in years. I so admire your strength, your love for all living creatures, and your dignity to handle all of the crises you've been through...you are truly a gift from God to all of us here, and all who know you. Go with love and dignity My Sweet Sister...I cannot thank you enough for the support you gave to me when I most needed it, the smiles you gave that I thought I couldn't have, just your sweetness and love came through with every word you shared with us all. I'm crying as though my heart will surely break, just knowing you and loving you for the wonderful person you are......God will surely be right at your side, holding your hand as you make the transition to Heaven. I've already been there Suebe, and it's so wonderful and pure, clean and fresh, warm and sweet, just like you! You will be welcomed with open arms! Please, know how much you are loved by us all, and our love will follow you on your path. To know you is to love you...and you will never, ever be forgotten, not by me certainly, and not by anyone here. I won't be far behind you, so please keep a lookout for me....'cause I'll be looking around for my dear friend, Suebe when I get there! I'll just look for the brightest light to help me find my way................ I love you, and know you'll be sitting on our shoulders from now to Eternity. Love, Barb |
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Post by lilsissy on Oct 13, 2009 1:37:15 GMT -5
I am not giving up , Jesus is still on the throne and I just asked him to stop this growth and turn it around , TO HEAL YOU,
His divine Energy created us and can reset it to normal again,
hands up for suebe,
Love ,
Jen
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Post by mercury on Oct 13, 2009 3:09:05 GMT -5
Dear Suebe,
I love you so much! You have always been such an inspiration to me and so many others. My beloved Mom had small cell lung cancer too. She wanted her last few months at home. We set up hospice for her in her bedroom and her kids and close friends were always with her until the end. Oh, I love that women and she is in my prayers and heart always. I know that your family and all of us here your morgi family will deeply grieve your loss. But we will also always remember you and you will keep us strong and loving against all odds.
You have taught us all to love no matter what. Too feel things fully and deeply too even scream in pain to God but to continue to have faith even after the most faith crushing loss. We are with you every moment sharing your pain and your love and your faith and your humanity. We'll be depending on your intercession for us when you get to the blessed place you are going. Just know that you are so loved and that God loves you so much too and has a most special place reserved for you. You will be reunited with your beloved son and many others you love that have passed before.
I pray that Jesus surround you with the blessing of the Holy Spirit and that his dear little angels surround you and protect you and comfort you and take you home. Know that God with never let you fall, that in spirit you have always been one with God and that to spirit you return. I know that you are a person of strong faith and I make these prayers to comfort us as much as you. But know that we are here and that you are always in our hearts. You are such a blessing to all of us.
So much love, Mercury
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Post by teedlebee on Oct 13, 2009 9:44:07 GMT -5
Thank you for loving me.
And I know i don't have to ask you this, I know the answer.
Please be there for my children if they reach out and tell there how darn proud I am of them and how they were my greatest success story and how very special they make me feel I was the reason for being here and I did so good.You are the best mommy in the entire universe and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. I love you so so much. Attachments:
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Post by ruth on Oct 13, 2009 10:38:54 GMT -5
oh suebe, i am going to miss you so. i looked forward to all your
posts. you have shown me how to go on in spite of all the
adversity in life. thank you for sharing your love, compassion,
strength, wisdom and perserverance.
when i read your post yesterday, i cried too much to respond.
i am still crying.
there is no way to say goodbye, as one day we will meet in spirit form. i pray for you and your family daily. we are here for them
as we will all bear the pain of you leaving us to go home to God.
miracles happen. i call on a miracle to keep you earth bound and
pain free.
i love you, sue.
ruth
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Post by ANTHILL on Oct 13, 2009 11:41:40 GMT -5
Suebe your news breaks my heart why does stuff like this happen to the good ones
I have liked you from day one on this forum There is just
something special about you that transcends the Internet I am still holding the faith that you'll pull out of it yet --got to !
((don't give up yet ))
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Post by Sidney on Oct 13, 2009 11:59:30 GMT -5
GRADY asked me to post this message to Sue
Dear Suebe,
I was very saddened to see your post, my heart goes out to you. You were always very kind to me and you even helped me as I'm sure you remember. A part of me wants to encourage you to fight on with oxygen and PH but I know you have fought the good fight for so long. You know we are all deeply touched by your story and by Josh's story.
The Lord is not bound by time, so each of us might appear in his presence at the exact same time (as it were) so I will see you soon. Please place your trust in the finished work of Christ on the cross. If you ever want to write your story and have it posted it with pictures of you, your family, and Josh, I would be happy to do a blog post on my blog that will never disappear. Either way, you will always be remembered, please write your story if you can and have it posted somewhere for us all. You're story deserves to be told, you have been a fierce warrior and are a shining example for us all, if there is anything I can do ask. You will be remembered and spoken of often.
- Grady
(Sidney's Comment: Admins, bless you and thank you for pinning this thread. )
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Post by violet on Oct 13, 2009 12:13:03 GMT -5
Suebe, just remember that the best is yet to come for you. The best is yet to come. This very difficult time on earth is shorter than the blink of any eye compared to eternity. Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, all the wonderful things the Lord has stored up for you in heaven.
There are so many deeply heartfelt messages on the board for you, and you can see how much you will be missed. I'm sorry that I didn't have the privilege to have known you as so many others who were here before me...
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I want you to know how important you are to me and so many people, and how you being in the life we live has made our world a better place.
