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Post by zabrubon on Mar 9, 2007 0:56:21 GMT -5
You, my Morgee friends are raising my spirits, I can feel my strength coming back. Blessings to you all, and love too. CB
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 8, 2007 23:51:52 GMT -5
I put this message on the other link and I thought I was on this link so from me to you: We are lucky to have each other, I am feeling a little better already just hearing your kind words on this board is a healing suave to my heart. I needed to be loved and you gave that to me. Thank you all from the bottom of my aching heart. Love you all and i sure hope and pray God will be merciful to us and give us a cure. In the meantime, i am getting mad and I am going to order animal antibiotics and I am ordering human antibiotics on line, the ones I take now and end this month. I am going to go on a strict diet and purge this son of a gun out of my pore. I am going to eat the probiotics my old boyfriend sent me, go do the acupuncture he suggested, and take his toxic cleanse and make an appointment with a Dr one of you recommends and i am going forward. I need to get better and you are the only ones that really care and I hear your voice and I am listening to the sound of strength. Together we will survive and hopefully beat this thing. Blessings to my friends, Chicagobonnie.
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 8, 2007 21:19:19 GMT -5
i think it is a good idea to go off the board for a few days, i will start that protocol on Monday. I am babysitting my grandchildren(my one piece of happiness) for the week so I won't be around a computer then and then I can relax with the kids and get some love and some rest, i need some rest. I have worked non stop with no days off since October of last year and it is high time to do some fun things for me andrelax and takein the smell of spring, if it ever comes here to chicago. Blessings
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 8, 2007 17:49:40 GMT -5
thanks, i am crying as i type and feeling sorry for myself and all of us here. if only the doctors would take this serious. i just feel like i can not go on doing this, calling doctors, emailing for information on what is working and not working, reading these posts daily, sometimes twice a day, lookin g looking looking for the answer. staying up late at night trying to find out what is in these lesions. After a long bath last night with vinegar in the water, i had a sharp pain in my arm, i had several more pains in the same place, like a stinging. i looked down and saw a red like blister forming. I ran, got my magnifying glass and watched for a while, then tweezed it and a long clear fiber thing uncoiled. then my mind says, well maybe it is from the air, from the tweezers, maybe it is this, that etc. then i had a hard time sleeping and then hard time gettting up today. i need to work more but iam so overcome with sadness and grief and feeling alone. I want to get better. My old boyfriend called me again today and asked me if i took the chinese tea he sent and the probiotics, and have i seen an acuputurterist? Of course my answer was no, that i am afraid to do anything because i no longer know what to do and my money is limited and i feel FROZEN. i am taking way too long to figure things out. Well i gotta go now cause i have a customr that wants to see some products(i sell real estate) and i found out this morning she is see another realtor and i spent so much time with her and she does this to me. I am furious, I almost feel like not even showing up. But my word is my word. So, I will talk to you all later and MY LOVE TO YOU AND THANK YOU. cHICAGO BONNIE
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 8, 2007 16:34:31 GMT -5
i hate to say this but i am losing it. i have tried to stay above water but i am sinking and funny thing is i don't care anymore. i have so many bills and expenses and i am so tired of trying to figure things out alonealonealonealone. people don't have time to listen, if i find one around where i live, i am the one who usually ends up listening to them. and pay a shrink, no way, i would rather die first. i am doing all i can to stay sane the doctor iwant to see is booked solid i think i am about to go crazy i don't know how to bring myself around to calm even my faith is not helping me here i don't think i want to live anymore i don't find any peace
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 17, 2007 16:33:09 GMT -5
Laugh out loud, Anthill you are too funny. CBonnie
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 8, 2007 23:29:50 GMT -5
Valarie, as a Christian myself, I wonder too why God why? But then, the sun rises and sets on the good as well as the evil. It is the fall that has allowed us all to suffer the consequences of sin no matter how good or how bad we are to others. Thank you Eve where ever you are!
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 10, 2007 3:39:41 GMT -5
Birthday one, have a great day and enjoy. Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Banannyhh, happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. CBonnie
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 8, 2007 23:46:39 GMT -5
Yes, the public is ignorant, until they get really sick then their eyes open wide,but by then it is too late, just like us. But we are lucky to have each other, I am feeling a little better already just hearing your kind words on this board is a healing suave to my heart. I needed to be loved and you gave that to me. Thank you all from the bottom of my aching heart. Love you all and i sure hope and pray God will be merciful to us and give us a cure. In the meantime, i am getting mad and I am going to order animal antibiotics and I am ordering human antibiotics on line, the ones I take now and end this month. I am going to go on a strict diet and purge this son of a gun out of my pore. I am going to eat the probiotics my old boyfriend sent me, go do the acupuncture he suggested, and take his toxic cleanse and make an appointment with a Dr one of you recommends and i am going forward. I need to get better and you are the only ones that really care and I hear your voice and I am listening to the sound of strength. Together we will survive and hopefully beat this thing. Blessings to my friends, Chicagobonnie.
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 7, 2007 21:12:56 GMT -5
Thanks belikewater, i am doing my best. i am feeling alittle down now, we out to see a customer that did nothing but ridicule and talk nasty to me. i m in sales and if i don't sell, i don't eat, but this witch was so nasty, i cut it short, showed her the door and turned the lights out before she was even in her car. She was a rich snob, and thought herself above me. When people are mean to me, i imagine them naked and they loose some of their intimidating power over me.
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 7, 2007 19:29:42 GMT -5
I had never thought of some of the view points here and I have found your advice valuable. Different perspectives sure open my eyes to different ways to treat this ugly disease. We should post on line, would that be a hoot. To tell you the truth, i am afraid to go off my antibiotics cause what if i get worse and cant work again. I just got caught up on my bills and paid everyone back I borrowed money from. I just can not afford to go under again. I want to go holistic someday, maybe next year, once I have some decent money saved, Lord willing of course.
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 7, 2007 1:50:08 GMT -5
I feel like I am going out of my mind. Can some of you give me your expert opinion. I don't have a lot of money and can not afford a lengthy expensive wrong choice. Please help me. I need your opinion. Who should I see: A or B?
A. the Lyme doctor here in Chicago Dr. Z - knows some about Morgellons. I have never spoke with him on the phone. He charges $250 the first visit. Will give me test but also look over my old tests too. His reception girls are very nice and patient. He takes insurance(which I just got for $300.00 a month) Don't know if he will keep me on the same med's.
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B. Visit doctor M in another state. He knows this disease well. I spoke at length and he loves the protocol I am on from old Dr. Says my old doctor was on to this disease. He is charging me $600 first visit(typically is $1200 but I am not muchtrouble and am on the right protocol) and three hundred every three months after that. He will proably keep me on the same meds as it is working well. I must take tests but he will review my old tests. I have to fly to and from and that is about $175 round trip with car. He may counsel on the phone too. His receptionist is ok. Dr does not take insurance. I just am besides myself and am at wits end. Help A or B.
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 5, 2007 23:18:30 GMT -5
yep yep yep, hate the way they use and abuse us.
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 5, 2007 22:42:07 GMT -5
Repent you who take and use the sick.
I am sick and tired of people in the wellness industry charging tremendous amounts of money just for an initial visit and hiding under "well I am spending an hour or so with you." They charge exuberant amounts of money for medication and herbs and make up potions and sell them all in the name of wellness.
They extract from the sick, all of our money and then turn their faces away from us in disgust when we are broke. Never looking back, they have no conscience, no love and no empathy.
Well takers and users of the medical industry(you know who you are) your day is coming soon enough when you will be the one weeping and gnashing of teeth in hell. Your screams of anguish and plea's for mercy will NOT be heard. Beware for your days grow short and your destiny awaits you.
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 2, 2007 0:23:14 GMT -5
gREAT WEBSITE ON IMMUNE SYSTEM WITH TUTORIALS
microvet.arizona.edu/Courses/MIC419/Tutorials/cytokines.html
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 2, 2007 0:15:58 GMT -5
. Impediments at the wound surface. This may include high bacterial counts, closed wound edges, high-volume exudate, or drying of the wound surface.1'4'6 A particularly common problem is bacterial counts on the wound surface that are high enough to interfere with the repair process. Surface-level infection is indicated by persistent high-volume exudatc, sudden deterioration in the quantity or quality of granulation tissue, repeated formation of a thin layer of avascular tissue, and increased pain.
Clinicians should note that surface-level infection does not manifest as erythema, edema, and induration of the surrounding tissue. Patients with evidence of surface level wound infection (also known as critical colonization) may benefit from the addition of a topical antibacterial, such as cadexomer iodine, a sustained release silver dressing/or silver sulfadiazinc.
4. An imbalance in the mix of regulatory substances governing repair? Current research shows that wound healing is regulated by a complex interplay among growth factors, inflammatory mediators, cytokines (eg, nitric oxide), and hormones; an imbalance among these factors can create a nonhealing wound even when causative factors, systemic factors, and local wound factors have been addressed
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 2, 2007 0:02:42 GMT -5
METTA, I WROTE MY STORY AND I SENT IT IN. I MENTIONED THE CRAWLIES AND THE DOCTORS WHO REFUSE TO LISTEN, I CALLED THE DISEASE MORGELLONS. THE SITE SAID MY STORY WENT THROUGH, SO WE WILL SEE. JUST MAYBE THEY WILL CALL ME. CHICAGO BONNIE
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Post by zabrubon on Mar 1, 2007 23:41:17 GMT -5
OK Metta, happy to be able to do something, but scared to death that she will pick me then everyone everywhere will know, then how do i work, they won't let me work because i will be the leper. But others have gone ahead, so will I. Pray she picks me. ChicagoBonnie
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Post by zabrubon on Feb 26, 2007 15:33:18 GMT -5
Liz, I am so with you on the idea that there is something bigger behind this, like money to be made on chemicals produced that is sprayed on our food, making some of us are very sick. And they know this and try to cover it up.
This love of money blocks their conscience, they either look the other way, or cover it by paying others a part of their riches to cover up with DOP.
Someday soon they will face God for what they have done, and then the weeping and gnashing of teeth will begin for them for eternity.
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Post by zabrubon on Feb 26, 2007 15:18:36 GMT -5
Obviously you don't know much about the AntiChrist. He(antichrist) is well loved by people before the abomination takes over his soul. And as you have so demonstrated by your above remarks, not liked at all.
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