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Post by kiki on Jun 25, 2009 18:16:06 GMT -5
Thats so funny I laughed so hard I got a pain in my side and the drops I had just put in my eyes are now on my face. Im just glad Mr Kiki was spared my snorting. ;D
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Post by kiki on Jun 25, 2009 11:16:41 GMT -5
Kmarie a good vent and/or cry now and then is good for you
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Post by kiki on Jun 25, 2009 10:45:36 GMT -5
I noticed that I dont have a sense of doom lately. I never consciously thought it-- but if someone wanted to make plans for a future event I got a gnawing feeling in tummy and as silly as it sounds I felt a heaviness that distracted me. Even the times I said ok, my mind was saying: no, you cant make plans anymore. I just had this feeling that my life would never be ok. It dawned on me that I dont get that feeling now.
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Post by kiki on Jun 24, 2009 19:54:24 GMT -5
Im glad youre doing better M. As disciplined as youve been, you deserve it
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Post by kiki on Jun 24, 2009 19:19:06 GMT -5
Im not great with my sewing machine but I used to make hand beaded silk purses. I loved doing that. Last time I tried I had to pitch it mid-way cause the silk got fuzzy from the fibers that come out of fingers. I really miss that even more than gardening. How neat you could enjoy such a nice simple pleasure on your birthday!
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Post by kiki on Jun 24, 2009 18:43:02 GMT -5
I am so in awe of your commitment Justhanginin. I often wonder what my impatience cost me --my body and wallet! Im haunted by the feeling that if I had stayed on the 3rd protocol I was taking, I really think I could have stayed strong enough to at least keep this at bay if not out and out beat it.
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Post by kiki on Jun 24, 2009 17:39:57 GMT -5
I still get uneasy around bugs. But at my worst, when my hairs started moving or I had an itch I was absolutely terrified to touch my own skin for fear of what would come out. I struggled to fight the panic till one day I thought: what is it Im afraid of??? That its gonna get me??? It already did!!!! But I still have moments of ickiness.
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Post by kiki on Jun 24, 2009 15:00:20 GMT -5
Man has outwitted itself. Is this what "progress" looks like? We will never recover so much of what we destoyed. Arrogance and denial cant hide the ugly results. And what are our priorties?? We express moral outrage when a politician has an affair- which is reasonable. We dont hesitate to hold them responsible and declare their political career derailed. Shouldnt that morality extend to our children?
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Post by kiki on Jun 24, 2009 13:25:53 GMT -5
Help me make sense of this b/c my mind cannot figure it out.
If they "didnt know" the dangers, they are admitting stupidity. But if they knew, what made them think they could protect themselves from the risks?? Money can buy off people but it wont shield them from the effects of toxic chemicals. Unless of course it buys them immunity. Wonder what the health of the employees who had a hand in this is like??? Is there immunity to be bought???
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Post by kiki on Jun 24, 2009 12:30:04 GMT -5
I dont think anyone that has this can be (or remain) close-minded. Most have been shoved out of our "comfort zone" -- its just a matter of degree isnt it? I have the utmost respect for our fellow researchers here. Even if I dont agree with the premise, I salute the time and passion behind it. And theres not a doubt in my mind that some valuable info has been brought to light. What is puzzling (doesnt take much these days) is how some of these finds are presented. If its not presented within the confines of the targeted audiences comfort zone, what is the motivation for them to respond/react? I truly believe some phenomenal info on (from) this board is being overlooked. I dont know proper protocols but maybe treat it like a sales presentation-- give em the facts and sell em on why and how they could help. Speak to what motivates them. But I have no buisness even saying anything cause Ive contributed nothing. I swear no offense to anyone.
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 17:43:30 GMT -5
I probably should be dead from all the chemicals I was exposed to as a kid. We snuck into maintenance barn (barrels and shelves full of stuff for golf course) all the time and worse the reason we did is there was always treats. The guys always had donuts, cookies,etc. We didnt wash our hands so who knows what we ingested. And at night we dug in sandtraps and tumbled on greens till we got caught--we allllways got caught. But we were very healthy kids.
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 17:21:59 GMT -5
Bessie - tell me its not true... Wiki doesnt know it all?? ;D
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 16:10:10 GMT -5
I have some ideas that help me. I use alot of essential oils. I add them to base oils and add them to just about everything. Some favorites:
Add myrrh, frankincense and german chamomile to virgin coconut oil and a little olive oil. Very calming to skin and mind. Sometimes I add geranium (just a couple drops cuz dont like smell). I dont get lesions but I have caused sores from scrubbing skin too hard that are sloooow to heal. For those I mix myrrh, frankincense, rosewood, grapefruit(not grapefruit seed oil) and rosemary essential oils and apply directly on sore. I had a sore on chin for over a month and this made it go away in 4 days. Its too strong to use on large areas tho. Often I add oils to C O Bigelow Lemon ultra moisturizer and skin brightening cream. It makes a thicker cream than just olive and coconut oils. I add coconut and lemon oils in summer---smells fresh and clean. I make lots of skin spritzers. I start with witch hazel-- personally a my favorite is TN Dickinson from Wal-Mart. Ive used more expensive ones but wasnt impressed. A good one for outside in summer--add lemongrass, bergamot and just a drop of citronella. Sometimes I add lavender. I experiment alot---I cant begin to guess how much I waste--some of my combos stink too bad to use. Once I made one that smelled familiar but I couldnt place it till Mr Kiki said I smelled like birchbeer. I cant believe Im gonna admit this b/c its insane but I keep a small bottle w/eyedropper top beside bed (this really is nutz) filled with grapefruit seedoil mixed with coconut oil and fill my belly button with it every night. Its probably a wasted effort but I swear it has helped me--- duh...guess I wouldnt do something so bizarre otherwise!
If you want more specific recipes I'll be happy to share.
Will post more later.
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 14:11:58 GMT -5
Kmarie now you can serve dessert--- some nice Nestles choc chip cookies. (under-cooked so theyre nice and chewy) ;D
Toni is there such a thing as an R O for showers? Or better a whole house system?
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 13:32:52 GMT -5
Took me a sec to get it, but how perfect ;D
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 13:30:08 GMT -5
Happy Birthday Steve
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 13:10:30 GMT -5
This is very very embarrassing but during my 2nd year with this when the reality of this was sinking in, I actually tried to convince myself that I really was imagining things. And ya gotta love the irony of this--tried to convince my dr!! She said she didnt buy it and didnt think I did either and that I was desperate for a diagnosis b/c a diagnosis=treatment. She said she would be worried if I didnt experience some depression. She called it situational depression.
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 11:57:24 GMT -5
The owner of salon called and said she told her dr about me. He asked if I exercised right before tanning and she said "well we did do a couple impromptu dances (hustle and jitterbug--3 of us made fools of ourselves). She didnt really understand what he said but he mentioned exercising and something about oxygenation of blood.
I dont know if its good or bad. Its depressing that my body considers 2 dances exercise.
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Post by kiki on Jun 23, 2009 10:01:38 GMT -5
Bessie I would if I could but I cant! I was actually surprised when I read Kmaries post and actually recognized some of the words. I'm stunned really. When I was 12 my parents made me go to a 6 week Foreign Study camp. I was furious that they had the nerve to think I would waste a single day of my summer to go to a school disguised as a camp. Wish I could say I ended up loving it but was to stubborn to enjoy it. But I guess I absorbed more than I thought. I cant even say with any certainty my translation is right. It's just what automatically came to mind when I read it. Sorry!
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Post by kiki on Jun 22, 2009 17:24:24 GMT -5
Here is the description video: jsem pøesvìdèen,že se nejedná o tvora (v žádné podobì). Bude to mít souvislost s boreliozou,nebo Morgellons,mozkem,myšlenkou,s UFO, energií,parazity,imunitním systémem ,nanostroj Tìch záhad jsem u sebe objevil více a mám LB a MG. Zatím jsem nenašel zde v ÈR pomoc -nikoho,kdo by se tímto chtìl zabývat.Oni tady v ÈR neumí ani léèit LB,natož potom zjištovat o co se jedná na videu. I didnt watch video but think its Czech. I recognize some words but my translation is spotty at best. It starts with: I belief that it is not a creature. Will have associated with (boreliozou???), or the brain, ideas, energy, (?parasite??), immune, (nanostroj??) Silent Mysteries with you, I discovered more and (mam LB???), let alone then identify what they are on video.
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